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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

forever angel

Another day will never forget 29/11/2010 3.45am.

My love one leave me forever.

He is the one who always motivates me although he never speaks.

Whenever I look into his eyes I can feel the power, and said "everything will be alright."

We spent 5 years together, and I thought it will be 6, until I leave this country.

And now, I can't see my future anymore, because you're not inside, you're no more part of it.

How should I do now? Who is going to comfort me when I'm in trouble in the future?

I am really really sorry that I neglected you for 4 months being in INTI, I should have bring you along, or just go to Subang campus. And now, everything is done useless.

Minutes before you go, you were panting, seeking for help, but I really don't know how to do, the only thing I can do is just patting you.

Goodbye, my love, my friend, my best pet, NICKY.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Baby baby baby ohhhh~ *randomness*

Many funny incidents happened when I was a baby. Like really hilarious, all of them.
If you interested I will tell you one by one, but get prepare to laugh your ass off. XD

This is what I heard from my mum recently. LOL

When I was 4 month old, my cute lil tummy biten by a boy, infront of adults.
Mum said he is older than me a lil bit.
Oh that boy is children of my parents' friend.

And now I am very interested to find out who the hell is that dare to bite me. XD

Lalalalalalala, happy happy happy mood because first semester in INTI going to end soon, very very soon!!! SYOK!

*shit, I bought myself a facial mask just now. =.=*

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

No Belgium but DENMARK! =)

I know I said I'm going to Belgium at the end of year 2010 but apparently another girl who suppose to go with me she pulls back, and the sponsor club not allow me to go Belgium alone so they change my place to DENMARK!
Hence, the previous post will be reset to one of the destinations in the future. =P
http://illusion-ws.blogspot.com/2010/10/im-gonna-spend-my-semester-break-at.html

Since I don't know which district I gonna get so I will not really start my research first. =)

Place of attractions
the Little Mermaid statue


Tivoli (Amusement park sial! So-gonna visit this!)


Legoland


Copenhagen Zoo


Louisiana Museum of Modern Arts (The must-visit place! =D)


I found out they have quite amount of amusement park, like Faarup Sommerland, Bon Bon Land and some others. Denmark people really like to play huh? =.=

One more to go! One more to go!

Just came back from ENL101 paper, and I feel good, so decided to give myself a lil reward--to blog! =P

And since I don't have any exam tomorrow, I can relax a little bit more, hahahahahaha. XD


Lalalalala, one more paper to go!
This paper motivates me a lot. XD

Somehow I think I worked quite hard for this exam, even harder than SPM, =.=
Kinda hard core until decided to quit Facebook for a while, hopefully these does pay off la, hehe.

SOC103 kinda okay, MCQ quite simple, structure was okay too but essay was a bitch! I forgot to study who is Emile Durkheim, and the question wants me to explain the Emile Durkheim view of religion to the society! MYGOD. =.= Doomed lah.

Really "phew"-ed at the moment I stepped out from the room I had BIO121. Biology is my nightmare lahhhhhh!!! Never know that biology is so damn hard. Please I just wanna pass, only pass is needed, just pass. 及格万岁!多一分浪费! XD

As for ENL101 just now, fortunately the writing God came to me, hahahaha, had lots of idea and I wrote smoothly, at the same time keep the amount of words stick to 400. Walalalalalala, happy sial~

CSC101 on Friday! =))

After that, SEMESTER END! AND HERE COME HOLIDAY AND DENMARK!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

They are going to be HISTORY

This post is purposely make to clarify and explain the post "from blur to clear" below.

Yes, I'm going to do Lasik surgery this coming Saturday. =)/=( *gosh I don't know what emotion to put*

Okay so before I really start lemme talk about condition of my eyes first.

I wear glasses since 5 years old, until now it's been 14 years already.
As time goes by, the power of short-sightedness and astigmatism keep in climbing up until 1 year aog and it's now stable.
Current status:
Short-sightedness-1100 (left eye) 1000 (right eye)
Astigmatism- approx 400 for both eyes

Hahahahaha, scary? LOL. I already used to it, hence I have no idea how to see the world with naked eye, like glasses is already one part of my body.

Well, I do dreamt that all these all disappear suddenly and I wake up and I can see anything without my glasses, is some kind of magic instead of through this surgery though. DREAM mah!

And you might ask: Why don't wear contact lens?"
WTF Seriously I'm bored and annoyed with this question already, I've asked for this since I was Form 1! Answer I gave at that time was "contact lens very geli/disgusting, I afraid I can't take it off after I put them it".
And then the answer innovated become "Ahh I can't wear because my eye shape doesn't fit the shape of contact lens, it will fell out" I got this theory from my dad because my dad apparently facing this, so I assumed my eyes will like his, because we both have quite a lot of similarities, even the disease in family's blood, two of my brothers don't have though! XD
Okay, when I was Form 5, CPU and now, my answer become my short-sightedness power and astig too high, my contact lens have to custom made, it's effing expensive.
So yeah, these are reasons WHY I DON'T/CAN'T WEAR.
No matter how my mum, brothers, and friends said, teased, scolded, I just don't wear, hahahahaha. XD
And HELLO, contact lens is not permanent solution laaah. If your power not as high as mine then is alright.

My parents started to tell me about this surgery few years ago and by that time I just don't give a shit because I am satisfy what I have at that time. Until this year, this month, my mum kept on drag me to do eye checks. Therefore, I've done eye checks at 3 places already, they have different prices, different procedure, different technology bla bla bla.
In case you want to know, these 3 places are Optimax (Klang), Vista (Klang) and Advance (Damansara).
Eye checks usually have 2 steps, first, to check short-sightedness power and astig. Second, check cornea tissue available, size of pupil, eye pressure, watery level of eyes, any holes in retina.
First stage for me is nothing but I hate the second stage a lot, because they have to sort of paralyze your eyes and make your pupil become bigger by putting some solution.
Walaoei, can you imagine, everything you see will be brighter than usual and you will experience something like long-sightedness, you can see things infront of you but far away, CREEPY!

After checked, here goes the report.
Thanks to my too-high-power, I only can do custom one not standard, and the price definitely more expensive lahhhh.
Why custom? Like I said, my power is too high therefore cornea tissue need to burn will be a lot and they have the policy said that no matter how the cornea tissue burnt must have 250um left, MUST, no exceed even 1um. So is like the higher power more cornea tissue to be turn so that the view will back to the position is suppose to be. LOL Secondary school science lah. XD
With standard surgery, I will have to burn until 160um which is definitely cannot be done, so I have two options, the custom one and contact lens implant.
Why I can't do implant which will have better effect?
Thanks to my eyes again, I don't have enough space in my eyes to fit the contact lens into it. LOL. But if I can I still won't consider it la, too expensive. =/ 7k+ per eye.
So yea, custom sugery my only option. LOL.
Hahahaha, my pupils are bigger than usual people, 7mm while normal people 5mm! XD

This is how my view after I take of my glasses.

Well, not exactly the same, but I can say is 90% accurate.
And FYI, the paper is just one arm away from me.

To be frank, I never see my face before, I mean without spec, photography sometimes just too fake, different angel shows different view.

There are things that I will miss after the surgery
1. My heavy, thick glasses of course.
2. My gong and tut face with glasses.
3. Fireworks in night. You know, I think this is the privilege for short-sightedness people because I can see fireworks everywhere when I took off my glasses at night. Is something like this.

The real one is much more fascinating than this, much much more. =D
Definitely gonna miss this. =/

BUT!
Look at the bright side! I can do things I never done before!
1. Ultimately wear shades during drive! WAHHHH!!!!
2. Have a real saloon session. *I never see clearly the look of my hair stylist and how I look after he/she cut my hair, normally I just ok la ok la, because I can't see! Until I back home or in car, I regret already LOL*
3. No more banging walls when swimming!
4. No more asking people to take care of my glasses when having water activities or blind fold games!
5. No more searching for glasses every morning after I wake up! I used to call my brothers or mum to look for me because I can't find it! LOL
6. No more white gas on glasses after came out from car/air-con room. Or even heat from hot drinks! XD

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT
got a feeling not willing to let go the thing I holded for 14 years already. =/
Is like you got something for 14 years already and you lost it within 20 minutes.
Walao. Hate this feeling lor.
Apart of that, SCARED!
The doctor said I will smell the burnt smell of my cornea tissue being burn by the laser during the operation! OHMYGODWTF! GELI! EW! WALAOEH! YUCK! OHMYTISSUE! SHIZ!

Bye bye. Bye bye my glasses, bye bye my short-sightedness, bye bye my astig. *Wipe tears, wave handkerchief*

This is what I wrote few months ago.
http://illusion-ws.blogspot.com/2009/04/blog-post.html
Have fun reading. XD

Monday, November 22, 2010

From Blur to Clear

I know I've violated the game/challenge, but I think this is necessary to blog, because this might be the BIGGEST CHANGE in my life.

27/11/2010 10.30am

Pray for me, stay with me spiritually, give some courage to me BECAUSE I AM F*CKING SCARED.

I think I really need huge amount of courage for that 20 minutes, the whole process. Whenever I think about this, I shivered, depressed, and a lil of excitement. Is like 90% emo 10% happy.

After that, I will be showing the world with the new me, which I can hardly accept. I hate changes, because I feel insecure with things I am not familiar with. And that is one of the reasons I am so so so scared. =(

BIG BIG SIGH.

Do call me after that, because I need to hear couragements from you all my friends, around 1pm something (?), try don't text because I can't see at that time, and Facebook too. =/

SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED. ='(

signing off and continue study

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

AWAY

Challenging myself, no Facebook and computer until 26th December 2010. FOR THE SAKE OF FINALS!

Anything urgent just call/text me.

Fuhhhhhhh, anyone saw me online just chase me away okay? =P

And the count down starts NOW!

Monday, November 15, 2010

This is an emo post

烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦!!!!
Loads of matters spinning in my head and driving me crazy.

studies, family, friends, finance, health, goshgoshgosh!!!!

AHHHHH!!!!!

damn damn damn damnnnnnnnnn
wtfffff

what you want me to do?? T___________T

=(

when emo feeling comes, it's hard for me to let it fade away,it takes time.
so, please, don't talk to me, at this moment.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

R.A.G.E

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE, I JUST WANNA USE VULGAR WORDS NOW! fuck!

INTI SHOULD HAVE GIVE STUDENTS A MENTAL CHECK UP BEFORE THEY COME INTO TO INTI TO STUDY!

DUDE! PLEASE MAKE CLEAR OF WHAT YOU REALLY WANT IN YOUR LIFE, STOP EMPHASIZING HOW HIGH IS YOUR 1Q, HOW GOOD IS YOUR MATH, PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY. DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE? I'M WILLING TO LISTEN TO YOU BUT IF YOU JUST WANNA TELL YOU STORY REPEATEDLY WHY DON'T CREATE A BLOG AND MAKE IT PRIVATELY SO THAT YOU WANT TALK WHATEVER COCK YOU WANT?! AND THE WORST THING IS MOST OF THE TIME YOU JUST TALKING YOUR OWN CRAP AND IGNORE OTHERS, ENDED UP YOU WAS LIKE SPAMMING OTHERS WALL!

HELLO, WHAT SO PROUD YOU BEEN PRAISED BY YOUR TEACHERS? WHAT SO PROUD IF YOUR MARKS HIGHER THAN UEC STUDENTS AND JPA SCHOLARS? SO WHAT?! STUDY IS NOT ABOUT COMPARING AND OR BEAT OTHERS DOWN, BUT GAIN KNOWLEDGE!

I KNOW YOU WANT TO PROVE YOURSELF SO BADLY INFRONT OF US, BUT CAN YOU JUST USE YOUR SO-CALLED BRILLANT BRAIN TO THINK? IT IS NECESSARY?

IF YOU DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT YOU THEN PLEASE STOP ALL THE TALKING OR NAGGINGS ON FACEBOOK. STOP REPEATING YOUR LIFE STORY OKAY? LIKE NOW EVERYONE KNOW WHO ARE YOU, WHAT YOU ARE GOOD AT, AND OH YEA, YOUR LOUSY ENGLISH! BUT LOOK, WHO CARES? ONLY YOURSELF FUSSING OVER THERE.

ISOLATE YOURSELF FROM THE PEOPLE IS NOT A SOLUTION, ESPECIALLY YOU THINK YOURSELF ARE DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS. EVERYONE HAS THEIR STORY OF LIFE, AND THEY ARE DEFINITELY DIFFERENT. YES, EVERY SINGLE OF US ARE DIFFERENT. SO WHAT FOR KEEP ON SAYING THINGS LIKE "I HATE AXXX, BECAUSE OF HIS USA ENGLISH ACCENT AND HE LIKES TO SHOW OFF, OR SOMETHING LIKE HER ENGLISH IS GOOD, BUT SHE IS NOT DOING WELL IN OTHER SUBJECT LIKE MATH AND CHEMISTRY, ETC. YEAH I KNOW YOU WANNA TELL THE WHOLE WORLD HOW GOOD ARE YOU, BUT YOU ARE USING THE WRONG METHOD.

PLEASE STOP COMPLAINING, STOP COMPARING, STOP NAGGING, STOP LIVING IN YOUR PAST. AND STOP SPAMMING MY EMAIL BOX AND FACEBOOK! I'M ENOUGH LISTENING FROM YOU.




INTI IS MAKING MY EQ DECREASING. T____________T

Wong Win Shi, just ignore, ignore and ignore. You see nothing, you feel nothing. You come here to study and not becoming a busy body. Person like this not the type you can handle, they should consult psychologist. So now, take a deep breath, and FORGET!


I know I said I wanna use bad words, in fact just a few, I controlled. =)
You guys wont want to see me act in that way.
Only my brothers can have that privilege. =P

Monday, November 8, 2010

Pop-Up Message on Blogger!

Someone asked me how to do a pop-up message like in my blog. Just a few simple steps!

1. Log into your blogger account.
2. Click "Design"
3. Click "Edit HTML"
4. Copy codes below.
5. Paste it under 〈head〉

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〈script language='JavaScript'〉
//
alert ("YOUR TEXT ENTER HERE!! =) ")
〈/script〉

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Have fun! =)

p/s: Change 〈 〉 to < > *YES, THEY ARE DIFFERENT!

我喜欢,不,我爱

LOVE does not equal to LIKE

I LIKE to see good looking guys, or even girls and it does not mean that I LOVE them

I just LIKE how they look. =)

Leng zai and leng lui just can make my eyes so refreshing LOL

The person I love not necessary to be nice looking, because I believe that good looking does not mean that he definitely is a good person. Using old word here "don't judge a book by its cover".

I believe in feelings, instead of look.

Like the note I shared on Facebook, 他一定會找到你..你要等。
Oh yea, I will wait, definitely will wait, wait until the time comes, not matter how long it takes. :D

p/s: This post doesn't have a topic, just simply my feelings. =P

okay, time to ciao, leng zai/lui hunting time! Woohoo!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

FAT crisis!!!

I AM FAT!! WTF I AM FAT!!! 53 is like the higest weight I got before!! WTF!!
*wait I shouldn't shout like a girl. O_O
*oh wait, I am a girl. =/

Sial.
53kg sounds TERRIBLE to me!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYYYYY
I eat with the same way, same style, same amount and WHY my weight will increased????

Maybe because I always sleep late when I staying at Nilai. =/
SLEEP LATE WILL CAUSE FAT OKAY????

Somehow when I measure at my house I got the result of 46kg, wtf?
Which one should I trust?

And and and, I still feel uncomfortable after the blood donation, feel tired easily.
Even I got difficulties when climbing 4 floors straight. WTF.

I want my body back, I want my body back. =/

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Sometimes, two is not better than one

Apparently my bro and his friends went to some animal shelter like SPCA in Cheras and he brought back this,


A female puppy!

I wasn't really happy when I know this, because Nicky definitely will be jealous and angry perhaps.
Okay, why my "heartless" brother will bring this dog back? Seriously I don't know the answer. The only thing I know is just this puppy's right hand was injured, rolled over by motorcycle, *ouch* yes, I do feel the pain.
And why I mentioned my bro is "heartless"?
LOL He don't even care about this dog he brought back! wtf
The dog pee-ed, he ignores, poo-ed, ask me or the younger brother to clean up, eating time, he just don't care! OMFG.
What's the point he take the dog back and let us take care about her?
I know him 18 years already, he is never that "kind" of person. =/

Well, take care of that dog is not a big problem though.
The ultimate problem is...jeng jeng jeng...NICKY!

Nicky doesn't like another dog come into our house, he will be freaking angry and jealous. LOL.
I still remember few years ago I brought puppy back to home, and when I was sitting on the floor and playing with the new puppy, Nicky came near me, and PEE ON ME! wtf right? He never done this before, that's why I can so sure that he was jealousing. Hahahahaha. Hence from that moment on I don't bring any 'anonymous' animals back home. *I used to have 20+ rabbits at a same time XD*

Okay okay go back to the story.
So yea, Nicky barked like a mad dog whenever the puppy was around he, and even sometimes the puppy show the position to fight with Nicky. =.=
So bascially they were fighting 24/7, yup, even midnight. Sucks right.

Me, my mum, and lil bro gonna gone crazy because of them. Fight non-stop. And the bro who brought the puppy back didn't even give a shit to the dog, wtf. =.=

And and and and, the worst part is that dog got flea on her!!! T______T
It's gonna infected my darling Nicky!!! =(
I was so so so so pissed off when I know this, urged my bro send the dog back asap and he start giving stupid excuses, no time lahhh. the animal shelter close on weekends lahhh BULL SHIT. Arghhhh.








So you can see how both of them hate each other. LOL.

Oh yea, how we solve the problem when it comes to midnight?
Nicky was kept in my room, which mean sleep with me!! *Yay!*
And the puppy was with the brother.

Oh oh and one important thing,
never give the dog a name if you don't have to intention to keep it. PLEASE!
You will just ruin it's life.
Okay lah, not that serious.
You will just make it more confused.
Like it's original name *only itself will know*, and then you gave it another name, next it next owner will give a new name for it.
So how now, siao liao lor, it definitely will be confused.

In the end, he sent the puppy back to the place she belongs! =)
If you're interested in adopting this puppy, tell me yawww!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

First Blood Donation

Leo club Inti is having blood donation drive, it last for 3 days, aimed for 250 donors. They broke their record in the end, 309 donors! Woohoo!

I went for the last day one. =)
Accompanied by Jinn Chuan, since he got 7 times of experience in blood donation and he was free at that time.

Filled up form, stood on weight measurer, blood type tested, is A+, blood pressure tested then proceed to the next step, a room for blood donation.

Saw many people lying on chairs, blood flow through a tube into a bag, ewwww.
One of the Malay nurses asked me to lie down on one chair, then asked my name and blood type, next started to put a lot of stuff on my lap, needles, cotton, tube, plastic thing. GOSHHHH. Scaring me.

After 15mins laying on the chair and do nothing another nurse came, and do she suppose to do-poke into my skin! Ahhhhhh.
Btw, not very pain though, just that I don't dare to watch the process. LOL

According to Jinn Chuan, he viewed the form those nurses wrote on, I need to donate 450ml, which quite many for first timer. While his first time just 300ml. Why the hell I need to donate that many. =/

After 20mins I think, the blood bag already full, I was like "huh? that fast?". Had some milo and bread. after that So yea, my first blood donation just ended like that.

Wait, do you think is just like that?
Let me tell you,
NO!

Terrible things happened.
I wanna go back to my place to put the certificate because I didnt bring my file with me.
It was a sunny afternoon, I walk walk walk, then my eye sight started to blur, and blurer, blurer, blurer, until I could hardly see things infront of me.
Oh well, I shouldn't describe this as blur though, is something like, uhhh, I call this "solarize effect".
So whatever I saw is with this effect, grey background by the way.
And at the same time cold sweat keep on coming out from my body, as well as head ache.
WTF right.

When halfway, I finally cannot take it anymore, just sit on the road as if it can make me feel better and I don't and I can't care how people will look at me by that time.
After few minutes, I got back my vision and I stand up continue walking.
Later then, same thing happened again, and this time even terrible, BLACK OUT! WTF. I can see the tree infront of me just turn disappear just like that. OMFG!

Don't care, sit on the road again. In total this happened 3 times, and the road from cafeteria to my place is just so short and it can happen for THREE TIMES? WTF.

Well, actually this "solarize effect" happened to me before, and this is the third time.
First time was the time I having chicken pox, I actually yelled my mum for help but she was busy for something. Bah, lets dont talk about this, sad case.
Second time was after I drank red wine plus Carlbergs, and by that time no one notice my unusual.
P/s: I drive after the party. LOL

Oh yea, I don't really know what's happen.
And the pain in my head caused me to skip CSC101 lab class.
Annie and Duffy said I looked sick.
Blehhhh.

So in conclusion, should I donate blood again next time?
=____________=

Photo time!

Yay! Blood cert! =)


=)


For supplementary.


If you notice, I don't take picture recently, because I look SIBEH CHAM nowadays.
Thanks to tests and assignments.

I still feel a bit uncomfortable now.
Uekkkkk.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Taurus VS Leo

It starts with a conversation via text message.

Taurus: Do you think it is necessary to buy a mp3?
Leo: We don't need old stuff.
Taurus: Ok. School there is selling very cheap, one normal one is around rm40.
Leo: Now is Ipod era. Those Mp3 are old stocks, they just wanna clear out old stocks.
Taurus: Ipod is expensive. Still at the very high price and it hardly go down.
Leo: Not good. Will damage your hearing system if use for long term. Don't buy.

So yea, guess who is involved in this conversation?
Taurus obviously is me. =P
Guess what?
The Leo is my dad! LOL
My dad is famous among my friends with his cuteness. =D

When it comes to horoscope, both of us are sort of have difficulties in communicate.
Why?
Leo likes to show off, be the center of the crowd, bossy, in short LOA, nope this is not a criticism. XD
While Taurus, likes quiet, hate to be the attention point of people, and most importantly, don't like to spend on expensive stuff, in short, stingy. LOL
So yea, sometimes I really beh tahan when my dad says "expensive never mind".
We might correct in some way, just we have different kind of view.

LOL TO HOROSCOPE.