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Thursday, June 30, 2011

The Band Perry - If I Die Young



If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Working Life wtf?

So yeaaaa, I have been dragged to back to this place again--my dad's place.
Ever since I have holidays for sure I will be forced to come to here.
Well, not that I hate to work, just it is FREAKING BORING here! fml

Objective of me being here is to make the employees' life better.
How to say?
I do things that they don't want to do, like filling, arrange, update price list, scan, filling, and more filling.
Got me?
Blah blah blah blahhhh
OH I FORGOT TO SAY!
My another job is to fetch my brother! !@#$%^&*()_+

I am damn lifeless now.
Everyday routine is like morning to evening work, night time usually movie/facebook/book, and a little amount of hang out.
Gahhhhhh
Can't really cabut from the job though, no matter I have nothing to do I still have to stay in the office. wth right? Stupid boss. =.=

Friday, June 24, 2011

For every girls

1. 不要在哭泣的时候说气话,下决定,你会后悔的。

2. 心里能装着一些时间带不走的淡淡悲伤,也是一种幸福。

3. 有的事情,没法说明。你觉得值,就值,你觉得不值,别人说值,你也觉得不值。

4. 尽量做个优雅的女子,千万别做作。

5. 善于妥协的女人,很宝贵。但是,只善于妥协的女人,很廉价。

***
You know,
what you've said today actually hurts me.

I wish we could understand and tolerate each other more.

All these time,
the only thing I could do is just remain silent.

No matter what,
I will love you always.

Sincerely,
your daughter.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

From Ugly Duckling To A Swan

Like most of the love stories at the beginning the female actress was berry berry ugly with the stupid glasses, annoying braces, tanned skin, bla bla with all characteristics that not what people called-pretty. And then after some make over like put on contact lenses, remove the braces, put on makeups, bla bla bla, taa-daa! Pretty lady! And then get her prince of charming that kind of things.

So, what's my point?

I came across with the contact lens case these few days, first is a movie, second is my cousin. third, Katy Perry's T.G.I.F. LOL They just looked so different without their glasses. :O
Ya' know, I am sort of sensitive with contact lens issue, because it is so so GELI! *for me* eventhough people asked me to wear it since I am form 1, bwahahaha, who cares! LOL

Is like, why people think glasses will make face ugly? I don't get thissssss. See an example below:


Don't you think I am cute?
Bwahahahahahahahahaahahah

Ok la, just for laughing purpose, hope I made your day! :P

And I found, most of the people, who don't read my blog, thought I am wearing contact lenses! Bwahahahahaha. Whateverrrr.


Prettttyyy?
Meh.

Happy father's day to every father in this world! :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

stfu

Enough is enough. I couldn't bear with this anymore. My daily mind routine just spoilt, this is not the way I usually do/think, this is not the way my mind works. Stop injecting crappy stuffs into my head, I HATE IT!

These few weeks my life is just suffocating, I can barely breathe, feel free. Always have that kind of feeling that something is blocking me, can't remove it away. The factor? I would call it, peer pressure.

So what if I have a crush? So what if I just want to remain silent? What is your stand point of telling me to confess? Is that necessary? For you, right? Now, you don't have to worry about this issue anymore. I am giving up, giving up everything, I don't want to be in love, I have no interest to be in a relationship, at least for now. I don't care if you call me a homo or asexual, whatever, I don't care, I don't have more attention to care about this anymore.

Simply tired, bored to be a stalker, waiting someone's text, check Facebook everyday to see whether there is someone's name in the notification. I actually enjoyed all these, until you guys brought the issue up. Everything is like exposed to the air, and seems like you guys are trying to manipulate my style, even my direction, like what the heck. I understand what I am doing, although it seems pointless, not like what you guys think is the best-to confess.

I have plans for my life, just so you know. To be in a relationship in not in the plan until I graduated from university, so please get it. And why, ultimate reason is I think I am not well prepared. Firstly, I am a person with loads of flaw, I need to either correct it or face it. There is a Chinese proverb said that, before you love someone, you have to learn to love yourself first. Apparently, I found that I hate myself, dislike for what/who I am now. I furious for not being perfect, not good enough, not awesome. You might say, no one is perfect. Indeed, so I have a standard of perfect for myself, as long as I couldn't achieve that, I am forever a loser. For my situation now I am not suitable to have another person in my life, to be honest, I am overwhelmed with what I have now, too many advices, too many gossips. Exhausted.

-case 1-
One day I didn't receive the offer letter, one day my mind will not have peace.

-case 2-
If you like to be a secret collecter, so be it, and be responsible. What's the point of start a point and then cut it off halfway and tell us that's a secret? If is a unspoken one, why would you tell us at the first place?

I want my life back, and peace too, thanks.

Monday, June 13, 2011

成熟的自己

1、遇到不想回答的问题,直视对方的眼睛,微笑、沉默。

2、走路抬头挺胸,心情不好时,不想跟人招呼,点头微笑,径直走过。

3、请记得,好朋友的定义是:你混的好,他打心眼里为你开心;你混的不好,他由衷的为你着急。

4、做自己的决定。然后准备好承担后果。从一开始就提醒自己,世上没有后悔药吃,而我永远有个计划

5、自己分内的事情,努力做到一百分。

6、接受自己不过是个“小小的我”,但眼里要能够悦纳“大大的世界”

7、如果你爱某人请给他自由,属于你的永远会回来,不属于你的永远也得不到。

8、不要试图给自己找任何借口,错误面前没人爱听那些借口。

9、不要随意发脾气,谁都不欠你的。

10、不说谎话,因为总有被拆穿的一天。

11、别低估任何人。

12、你没那么多观众,别那么累。

13、过去的事情可以不忘记,但一定要放下。

14、别人说的记在脑袋里,而自己的,则放在心里。

15、社会是有等级的,很多事不公平。别抱怨,因为没有用

16、你永远没有你自己想象中那么重要。

17、钱能解决的问题统统不叫问题。

18、无论何时说“我爱你”,请真心实意。无论何时说“对不起”,请看着对方的眼睛。

19、永远不要以貌取人。慢慢地说,但要迅速地想.

20、找点时间,单独呆会儿。

21、不是自己的东西不要,就是再喜欢也不行,要懂得放弃。

22、不要觉得是生活亏欠了你,其实是我做的努力不够。

23、努力向前,再努力向前,再努力一下下,愿望就会实现。

24、说话时慢慢地说,但要迅速地想.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Vision & Lost

You know sometimes when you imgine yourself doing something, you can see the "you" in that situation. Few months ago, the "me" in the imgination world still the old look, I mean, with that blue spec. Until few days ago, when I start imagine things, I shocked and trembled, since when I start using this look? The look without spec? Without any realization.

Does it mean that I already forgot the old me? Does it mean that I am now used to this look? I am afraid, I am worried to lose myself. I really hate this kind of insecure feeling, being not myself anymore.

These 8 months, whenever I look in the mirror, at the first second, most of the time I can't sure what I am looking at is real or not, feeling at the moment is just so illusionary.

I started to wear the powerless blue spec I bought in Malacca EVERYDAY, I mean, at least try to do it everyday. Just don't know why spec can really fix all these problems, eventhough a fake one. I won't/can't to poke my eyes anymore when I am trying to do the "take off spec" action, I won't have the uneasy feel that my eyes exposed to the air *I know this is a bit exagerrated but this is exactly how I feel* and etc. Also, when I am meeting with old friends I will put on spec, maybe because I think they might not used to my new look, or I just don't want to let people what I've done to my eyes, the blue think spec was my trademark.

Last year November until now, I still having the creepy feeling that I can see myself so clear when sitting in saloon, I can see the person who cutting my hair so clear. Also when Perhentian, I don't have to use goggles with power like in Redang, goggle with power of 600 still not enough. Besides goggles, sunglasses also freaks me out! OMGWTFBBQ argh, that feeling! Everything from November 2011 is just so not right, things happen with not the way I want, my mind is just like floating, can't find a stand point, couldn't get a place to stable down. All these just drive me so so frustrated!

Apart of that, night vision! Argh! I can't drive as smooth as before when night time anymore! I can't have 100% accuracy when I drive at night! One of my relatives who did this operation told me that this is a common problem, it will only back to normal after 1 or 2 year, because the wound need some time to heal. So within these period, the amount of light reflect into the eyes will not stable. WTF!

My dad asked "how do you feel after the operation?" "I don't really like it" I replied. He showed a disappointed face. Sorry dad, I really don't mean to do it, just that, 15 year of accompanion of spec just cannot disappear just like that. This transition is not easy for me to cope with, really.

I need to find myself back again, but I don't know how, completely lost direction.

I refuse change.
I reject change.
I fear change.

Monday, June 6, 2011

最准的星座终极分析-金牛座

幽默是金牛的天赋
与一般星座书上描写的金牛们相反,其实金牛座非常具有幽默感。他们天生就有搞笑的才能,善于制造轻松的氛围,不要再将牛牛们认为成是一群僵硬腐化的人,相反他们很可爱。还记得在《满城尽带黄金甲》的发布会场上不断耍宝的金牛发哥吗?他的幽默感绝对令资深娱记也大跌眼镜,人缘好不是随便说说的,金牛座有着宽厚的胸怀。

其实他们有着叛逆的灵魂

金牛基本上看起来都是乖孩子,仿佛脚踏实地,固执老实,但是,谁曾想到,其实他们的内心都有着一个小邪魔在作祟?他们虽然是一板一眼的生活,但是在他们的内心里却喜欢着调皮的恶作剧。不要金牛们想象的太沉闷,他们其实内心五彩斑斓,而且特别钟意制造出各种人生的小小乐趣。也正是这样叛逆的灵魂,让有些金牛让人吃惊。所以,一般的容貌姣好的乖乖女,或者一般人理想中的文静男,其实,都不属于金牛的鉴赏范围,他们总会奇异的喜欢些标新立异的人。这点在金牛男上表现的较为突出,也因此而衍生出不少瓶女和牛男的佳话吧。

思考是金牛的具象

在贪图享乐的外表下,金牛有一颗哲学家的心。他们看问题的方法与众不同,他们有着唯物主义的思考逻辑,不会轻易人云亦云,也正因为如此,他们让人觉得固执非常。

但是千万不要因为固执就否认金牛们的智慧,有马克思,列宁,康德……为证,金牛们完整的理性思维往往能建立严密体系,只是有时候他们太容易钻牛角尖!不过即使是钻牛角尖的牛牛也具有鲜明的个人特质,李敖就是这类金牛的代表:)

务实的人生不需要浪漫武装

跟牛牛生活是一件比较乏味的事情,如果你钟爱浪漫的仪式

因为牛牛无论金钱或者生活,他们都踏着务实的步伐。他们不会轻易说我爱你,他们不会随便送花,他们甚至不记得你的生日,更别提情人节等什么形而上的各种纪念日,这让人大为光火。因为没有了形式的爱情,又怎么能证明是爱情呢

但是,金牛们会告诉你,其实有时候真正的帮助其实好过鲜花香水,有时候挺身而出的担当其实胜过所有的甜言蜜语。所以金牛们的爱情,也许让人闷到感觉不出火花,但是,在贫乏的爱的表象下,却藏着他们深刻的滴水不漏而且日久弥坚的关怀。

享乐人生的信仰

金牛们懂得生活。他们虽然很执著,但是该放弃的时候,他们并没有太多犹豫。从利益出发考量的方式,让他们在现实生活中相当的如鱼得水,而懂得平衡自己的贪念,而追求物质的享受和一心的宁静,是金牛座中的极品。这样的金牛能够在逆境中坦然,在顺境中懂得顺应。他们有着预见性的智慧,使人生得到完整的规划。在适当的时候寻求闲适,所以金牛座很少有面临困境无法自拔的困兽,他们相当的懂得自我调节和生活。他们有着自己的节奏。

能够轻松生活的智者

金牛们在星座排行中表现一般,但是其实他们都很出色,金牛座的孩子往往是班干部,金牛座的爸爸妈妈都是模范爸妈,他们在生活中尽职尽责,富有责任感,虽然有时候稍嫌古板,但是正是他们撑起了所谓规矩的框架。

严肃生活认真思考却有能享有生活乐趣的金牛们其实非常可爱,当然,如果他们不那么市侩,那就更好了!

***
好好地认识一下我啦! :D

Friday, June 3, 2011

Secret-Love

I have no idea why and how my gang of friends started to be so open in discussing love relationship topic. Is like our problems on boy girl relationship happened at the same time or I should say EXPOSED.

This situation last from that day I came back from China, UNTIL NOW. So whenever we meet our topic definitely will be this, couldn't escape.

FYI, I had crush on 3 people before, and the first one lasted for 8 years, yes, 8 years, you didn't see wrong. While second I would say it is just a small little admire, it lasted uh, no idea, was a very short period. And the third one, hmm, I am still having crush on him now. LOL. And if I don't tell anyone about this, others won't think that I actually have someone in my heart.

My way of admiring people just so stupid or I should say stubborn. I stalk people. I know everything of his details, family, car number, bla bla shit. And ironically, no one know anything about this. LOL. So now you can know why my first crush can be 8 years long, and that guy don't even notice, until now. Bwahahaha.

And, I think I am different with others, I won't want that person to know my feelings. Damn, I am so sick! LOL. But that's my way and I am happy with that, so, please stop convincing me to change my mind or telling me this is wrong. There is nothing wrong about in this case, right right?

So yea, I don't really want to be in a relationship for this moment, I think I am not mentally prepared enough, I need to play more, learn more, observe more, hello, I am still young!! :D