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Thursday, December 31, 2015

Some New Year New Shit

Have been wanting to find a time to write, to talk to myself again.

I don't remember where I wrote or said this, but when one grows older, he/she will slowly become the person he/she dislike. There was a moment one day I shocked myself because I have turned so much like my mum, luckily it was just one second. Never again, lol.

Life after university honestly is not that great, at all. It's like after you got out from that place and get into this real world so to speak, and you can't see the end. I mean while in school you know you have 4 years to finish your degree, but in this 'real' world, what is the next milestone? The fact that not seeing a midpoint or an end is fucking scary.

Most of the people I know would be like they want to earn 5 digits salary, they want to go to this corner of the world, they want to buy a house, a car, get married, have kids live happily ever after then die in peaceful. Is that all? Is this all life is about? Is it not these are the reasons why I wanted to get out from Malaysia so badly, to get away from all these materialistic-driven lifestyle? If not then why I am here, what am I doing here now.

After graduation and got hired, my lifestyle has been gradually turning back to my Malaysian lifestyle, stay home, Facebook, read random, not educational articles, go out in the weekends. I stopped learning, I stopped dreaming big, I stopped being ambitious, why am I doing this.

Can't ignore how AIESEC has changed my perspective on life; every single life we touch is an impact, I do hope I made some impact though.

Another thing that makes me unhappy is that, after all those things I have done for AIESEC, I thought I will land a good job because of it, I was so confident that I will get a lot of offers and get hired instantly. However reality hit me real hard, there were times I actually broke down and thought of packing all my bags and never come back again, eventually I did not because I know if I go back to my motherland, I WILL NOT BE HAPPY. My parents will be sad to hear this but at first, when I found it hard to accept as well, why won't I love my own country? I mentioned that I did not have culture shocks when I first landed Canada, I immediately felt home. I always feel that my personality and interests are more Canadian, I always feel that I can contribute to this country, sorry Malaysia, it is not about politics, it is what my heart telling me. This feeling became more obvious the longer I left Canada, especially when I know I have very little friends back there now, those so-called best friends? They are 'busy' when I will be back, so yeah, to be honest I do not expect more as in relationship back home, I have been absent in their lives for 5 years, things have changed, people changed as well, I cannot expect them to treat me the same as 5 years ago. If there is a 5 years old child, he/she will be like 'Who the fuck are you? Are we even close?", yup, that kind of feeling.

So yeah, my Chinese New Year plan will be like, stay home, munch cookies, meeting up relatives and bond with family, and of course, give my lil bro a crash course about North America.

They said after working hour it's the time to work on yourself, I really need to get my shit altogether if not I have the feeling that I will regret and turn back to be an ordinary soon or later.

Old as shit but here are the things I want to do in 2016
1. Join Rotary
2. Read marketing and leadership books
3. Controlled eating
4. Move more
5. Reconnect old friends

Basically to have a life in the new year, have something to look forward to, something to work on, something to learn, and something to appreciate.

Ending my AIESEC experience will be fucking painful as it has been with me since I started my journey in Canada. Thank you for the amazing eye-opening experience. I shall grant you a separate post soon, lmao.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Why...because they can.

Not sure why, but I kept seeing this sentence recently.

One is from Promethus:
David: Why did your people make me?
Charlie Holloway: Because we could.

Another one is from the recent Humans of New York - Aya's series
"Why the US government declined her refugee's application?" "Because they can."

Not sure where will this post brings but I am amazed by how we as human being can create and take away things at the same time.

Did anyone think about this when comes to climate change? It is December here in Toronto already, but there is zero sign of snow. I can't say if this is normal because 4 years ago, I experienced a late winter as well, it was my first winter in Canada too.

Maybe this applies to my current life right now as well, can I make a change? I do have choice not to live what I am living in right now, but why I am hesitating? Day by day, I am have becoming complecent to my job, or so to speak, I feel comfortable doing it.

Just looked at Rotary Skyline's chapter today, it does sound intriguing, but the question is, can I committ? Is it true that work life drains your energy? Why do I feel like I did so much in university yet I always still have space for something else; in the contrary right now after I came home from work, I just do not have the energy to even think, despite I have responsbilities piling up - AIESEC works.

Where am I getting into here?

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Playing Catch Up

To be honest, I have been hesitating to compose an entry, because I feel like once I started I will be writing for at least an hour.

It's been a while I have never write for myself and communicate with the inner me. Yup, have been busying writing social media posts and some works that people think that I am wasting my time.

So let's see what have happened since my last entry eh. Well the actual post about myself was published on October 30th, 2013, which is like around 2 years ago, I wrote a sentence, I have been getting a lot of butterflies in stomach these days, just saying." and few days after that kabaam, yours truly is in a relationship, maybe should find a day to write a post about the process and nitty gritty.

2014 was an amazing one, well I had to look back to my Facebook photo albums to find out what I did this year, I can't remember a lot but IC2014 in Taiwan.

Let's start with Winter semester 2014 shall we? So I went to Montreal and Quebec trip with the ISS group, it was fucking freezing but I enjoyed quite a bit despite that was my 3rd time in Montreal. And then Orlando and I single-handedly pulled the first ever (probably the last) multicultural gala in University of Windsor. Working with a diverse group could be frustrating but if you manage the time well and have a lot of patience, you will do just fine. The event was a blast, university staff loved it obviously, they are the one who always brag about UWindsor diversity at the same time keep cutting the budget of ISC. Uhmm and what else? Oh, I ended my term as VISA coordinator, to be honest it was quite a relieve, knowing that I do not have to organize event for EVERY fucking FRIDAY anymore just feel so, ah, awesome. Don't take it wrong, I love my team, well most of them, except one or two people that did not willing to cooperate and keep getting the club into trouble, for example got into a fight with the Indian Student Association, yup, thank you. Well I cried at the end too, not because of sentiment or shit like that. It was because of another team member and some stupid ass recognition, okay at this point I do not know if I should continue writing without names or just make the blog private already. Okay back to the point, your granny - me, I did so much for the school and did I expect to get anything? No, well secretly yes, but I will not go to the extend that I have to force someone to give me that certificate! Yup, someone did that to me and I broke down at the Korean restaurant, no big deal. Overall, I do love my team, and am still connecting with some of them.

Hmm, is that it? I do not remember too much about school because after year 3, my priority has been co-curricular > classes, yup. Wait I do remember that I took couple photography classes that costed me a fortune.

And then summer happened, went to my second NLDC in Guelph, to be frank besides being the Home Group Leader, I did not actually learn a lot of things (sucks being old in AIESEC), but I did get to meet a lot of people that are rising stars today. But it is an AIESEC, crazy shits happens, yup throughout the conference I never sleep in my bed lmao. Someone was being clingy because after the conference I will only get to see him after 4 months, and his roommate is this year Western's LCP, the awkwardness, but I bet he was drunk as fuck, he won't recognize me LOL.

Okay I think that's good enough for today, because the next part should totally get its own entry.

Till then,

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Get Shit Done

Because I have not blogged for a while.



Yeah that’s right; you heard me… I’m talking to you… I’m calling you out.

I’m looking you in the eyes, (ok well, not really since you are probably reading this article, but figuratively, I am burning a cyclops type hole in your face right now) and telling you that you don’t stand a chance.

I’m telling you that if you can read this article, look through this list and not claim it as your own, then you should be a little worried.

Actually, you should be very worried. You should drop everything and immediately question your existence on earth. You should find a mirror, look yourself in the eyes, raise your hand and slap yourself in the face.

Got it? Now repeat that until you come to your senses and continue reading whenever you’re ready.
I’m Talkin’ ‘Bout Street Skills Son!

I’m not talking about the: study hard, party light, graduate top-of-your-class skills.

I’m not even talking about the: slack-off, skip class, smoke weed, drink and party but still graduate, skill-set your $50,000+ diploma has lead you to believe you have.

“I’m talking ’bout, step out your door, make some moves, and get-some-shit-done, kind of skills! Some, move out your mama’s house, quit your job — say “fuck the world” — and then actually go do it, kind of skills”.

The kind of skills you develop in the real world, outside the bubble of your parents protection or the ideological indoctrination that has overwhelmed our entire educational system.

Skills that can be had by anyone willing to pay the price to get them. Skills that are quickly becoming extinct.

I’m talking about skills that cannot be taught in a classroom or in a textbook. Skills you can only learn by doing; by learning how to fly after jumping off the cliff.

Skills that can only be developed when you find your true self. When you put yourself on the line or otherwise expose yourself to the possibility of failure.

The skills you can only develop when you are willing to risk it all in order to do that one amazing thing.

Skills that up until now, you thought you had.

“Basically, what I am trying to tell you is that, in this game called life, you don’t stand a chance…

1 :: Because You Have Not Failed Enough

Because you are comfortable in your mediocrity; because you choose not to try.

Because it is easier to talk about learning that new (programming?) language as opposed to actually learning it.

Because you think everything is too hard or too complicated so you will just “sit this one out”, or maybe you’ll, “do-it-tomorrow”!

Because you hate your job but won’t get a new one; because it is easy to reject rejection.

Because while you’re sitting around failing to try, I am out there trying to fail, challenging myself, learning new things and failing as fast as possible.

Because as I fail, I learn, and then adjust my course to make sure my path is always forward. Like the process of annealing steel, I’ve been through the fire and pounded into shape. The shape of a sword with polished edges and a razor sharp blade that will cut you in half if you are not equally hardened.

2 :: Because You Care What Others Think About You

Because you have to fit in.

Because you believe that being different is only cool if you’re different in the same way that other people are different.

Because you are afraid to embrace your true self for fear of how the world will see you. You think that because you judge others, this means that those people must, in-turn, be judging you.

Because you care more about the stuff you have as opposed to the things you’ve done.

Because while you’re out spending your money on new outfits, new cars, overpriced meals or nights at the bar, I’ll be investing in myself. And while you try to fit in with the world I’ll make the world fit in with me.
Because I will recklessly abandon all insecurities and expose my true self to the world. I will become immune to the impact of your opinion and stand naked in a crowd of ideas; comfortable in knowing that while you married the mundane I explored the exceptional.

3 :: Because You Think You Are Smarter Than You Are

Because you did what everyone else did; you studied what they studied and read what they read.

Because you learned what you had to learn in order to pass their tests and you think that makes you smart.

Because you think learning is only something people do in schools.

Because while you were away at college, I was studying life; because instead of learning about the world in a classroom I went out and learned it by living.

Because I know more than any piece of paper you could ever frame from a university. Because smart is not what you learn, it’s how you live.

Because I might not have a degree but I challenge you to find a topic that I can’t talk to you about cohesively.

Because I could pass your tests if I had to, but you couldn’t stand for a single second in the face of the tests that life has thrown me. Tests that are not graded on a bell curve or by percentages; tests that are graded by one simple stipulation: survival!

4 :: Because You Don’t Read

Because you read the things you are required to read or nothing at all.

Because you think history is boring and philosophy is stupid.

Because you would rather sit and watch “E!” or “MTV” instead of exploring something new, instead of diving head first, into the brain of another man in an attempt to better understand the world around you.

Because you refuse to acknowledge that all the power in the world comes from the words of those that lived before us. That anything you desire can be had by searching through the multitude of words that are available to us now more abundantly than ever before.

Because you are probably not reading this article even though you know you should.

Because the people that are reading this already know these things.

Because you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink.

5 :: Because You Lack Curiosity

Because you get your news from copy-cat members of the state-controlled media.

Because you are unwilling to ask this simple question… “What if it’s all a lie?”, and accept the possibility that maybe it is; that just maybe, the methods of mass media are under direct orders to: keep you distracted.

Because you call me a know-it-all but refuse to call yourself a know-nothing-at-all.

Because I thirst for knowledge, regardless the topic.

Because while you’re busy playing Candy Crush, or Megalopolis, I am reading about string theory and quantum mechanics.

Because while you waste your time with Tosh.o I am learning how to edit video, build websites and design mobile apps.

Because if we were to go heads-up in a debate, I would crush you. I would make it a point to defeat my own argument; from every imaginable angle; in order to understand everything you might be able to use against me.

Because I would dedicate myself to understanding both sides of the argument so thoroughly that I could argue your side for you and win; even after having just handed you a defeat in the same debate.

6 :: Because You Don’t Ask Enough Questions

Because you do not question authority.

Because you don’t question yourself.

Because you don’t understand the power of properly placed questioning in life, respectful disagreements and standing up for what you know to be right in the face of someone telling you otherwise. Unable to question reality; stuck in a self imposed survival strategy within a matrix-style monotony.

Because I know that you will give me all the information I need to destroy you by letting you talk.

Because I study human behaviors and you ignore everyone but yourself.

Because I watch how you say the things you say just as closely as I listen to what you say; and you say way too much!

Because control comes, not from spewing your ignorance like some incurable case of logorrhea, but from properly structuring the context of your questions.

Because I study the premise of your argument and destroy it from the ground level before you even get a chance to establish your ideas.

7 :: Because You Can’t Handle The Truth

Because you refuse to admit that you don’t even know the things you don’t know.

Because there isn’t an article online that would make up for all the time you have wasted in life.

Because even if I told you everything could be different tomorrow you would wait until then to begin doing anything about it.

Because even when you think I’m not, I’m aware of my surroundings.

Because you think that since I have not acknowledged you, it means that I have not seen you.

Because, you walk around with your head up your ass, oblivious to the world around you. Blissfully ignorant of the reality that sits so close to your face that if you stuck your tongue out, just once, you would taste it and realize how delicious the truth actually is.

Because you would become an instant addict. Unable to pull yourself from the teat of truth. Finally able to understand your lack of understanding, and then you would see; then you would know that the only thing holding you back from doing something truly amazing, is you.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

7 Reasons Why You Will Never Do Anything Amazing With Your Life

Because I have not blogged for a while.

Painful truths

Yeah that’s right; you heard me… I’m talking to you… I’m calling you out.

I’m looking you in the eyes, (ok well, not really since you are probably reading this article, but figuratively, I am burning a cyclops type hole in your face right now) and telling you that you don’t stand a chance.

I’m telling you that if you can read this article, look through this list and not claim it as your own, then you should be a little worried.

Actually, you should be very worried. You should drop everything and immediately question your existence on earth. You should find a mirror, look yourself in the eyes, raise your hand and slap yourself in the face.

Got it? Now repeat that until you come to your senses and continue reading whenever you’re ready.
I’m Talkin’ ‘Bout Street Skills Son!

I’m not talking about the: study hard, party light, graduate top-of-your-class skills.

I’m not even talking about the: slack-off, skip class, smoke weed, drink and party but still graduate, skill-set your $50,000+ diploma has lead you to believe you have.
“I’m talking ’bout, step out your door, make some moves, and get-some-shit-done, kind of skills! Some, move out your mama’s house, quit your job — say “fuck the world” — and then actually go do it, kind of skills”.

The kind of skills you develop in the real world, outside the bubble of your parents protection or the ideological indoctrination that has overwhelmed our entire educational system.

Skills that can be had by anyone willing to pay the price to get them. Skills that are quickly becoming extinct.

I’m talking about skills that cannot be taught in a classroom or in a textbook. Skills you can only learn by doing; by learning how to fly after jumping off the cliff.

Skills that can only be developed when you find your true self. When you put yourself on the line or otherwise expose yourself to the possibility of failure.

The skills you can only develop when you are willing to risk it all in order to do that one amazing thing.

Skills that up until now, you thought you had.
“Basically, what I am trying to tell you is that, in this game called life, you don’t stand a chance…

1 :: Because You Have Not Failed Enough

Because you are comfortable in your mediocrity; because you choose not to try.

Because it is easier to talk about learning that new (programming?) language as opposed to actually learning it.

Because you think everything is too hard or too complicated so you will just “sit this one out”, or maybe you’ll, “do-it-tomorrow”!

Because you hate your job but won’t get a new one; because it is easy to reject rejection.

Because while you’re sitting around failing to try, I am out there trying to fail, challenging myself, learning new things and failing as fast as possible.

Because as I fail, I learn, and then adjust my course to make sure my path is always forward. Like the process of annealing steel, I’ve been through the fire and pounded into shape. The shape of a sword with polished edges and a razor sharp blade that will cut you in half if you are not equally hardened.

2 :: Because You Care What Others Think About You

Because you have to fit in.

Because you believe that being different is only cool if you’re different in the same way that other people are different.

Because you are afraid to embrace your true self for fear of how the world will see you. You think that because you judge others, this means that those people must, in-turn, be judging you.

Because you care more about the stuff you have as opposed to the things you’ve done.

Because while you’re out spending your money on new outfits, new cars, overpriced meals or nights at the bar, I’ll be investing in myself. And while you try to fit in with the world I’ll make the world fit in with me.
Because I will recklessly abandon all insecurities and expose my true self to the world. I will become immune to the impact of your opinion and stand naked in a crowd of ideas; comfortable in knowing that while you married the mundane I explored the exceptional.

3 :: Because You Think You Are Smarter Than You Are

Because you did what everyone else did; you studied what they studied and read what they read.

Because you learned what you had to learn in order to pass their tests and you think that makes you smart.

Because you think learning is only something people do in schools.

Because while you were away at college, I was studying life; because instead of learning about the world in a classroom I went out and learned it by living.

Because I know more than any piece of paper you could ever frame from a university. Because smart is not what you learn, it’s how you live.

Because I might not have a degree but I challenge you to find a topic that I can’t talk to you about cohesively.

Because I could pass your tests if I had to, but you couldn’t stand for a single second in the face of the tests that life has thrown me. Tests that are not graded on a bell curve or by percentages; tests that are graded by one simple stipulation: survival!

4 :: Because You Don’t Read

Because you read the things you are required to read or nothing at all.

Because you think history is boring and philosophy is stupid.

Because you would rather sit and watch “E!” or “MTV” instead of exploring something new, instead of diving head first, into the brain of another man in an attempt to better understand the world around you.

Because you refuse to acknowledge that all the power in the world comes from the words of those that lived before us. That anything you desire can be had by searching through the multitude of words that are available to us now more abundantly than ever before.

Because you are probably not reading this article even though you know you should.

Because the people that are reading this already know these things.

Because you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink.

5 :: Because You Lack Curiosity

Because you get your news from copy-cat members of the state-controlled media.

Because you are unwilling to ask this simple question… “What if it’s all a lie?”, and accept the possibility that maybe it is; that just maybe, the methods of mass media are under direct orders to: keep you distracted.

Because you call me a know-it-all but refuse to call yourself a know-nothing-at-all.

Because I thirst for knowledge, regardless the topic.

Because while you’re busy playing Candy Crush, or Megalopolis, I am reading about string theory and quantum mechanics.

Because while you waste your time with Tosh.o I am learning how to edit video, build websites and design mobile apps.

Because if we were to go heads-up in a debate, I would crush you. I would make it a point to defeat my own argument; from every imaginable angle; in order to understand everything you might be able to use against me.

Because I would dedicate myself to understanding both sides of the argument so thoroughly that I could argue your side for you and win; even after having just handed you a defeat in the same debate.

6 :: Because You Don’t Ask Enough Questions

Because you do not question authority.

Because you don’t question yourself.

Because you don’t understand the power of properly placed questioning in life, respectful disagreements and standing up for what you know to be right in the face of someone telling you otherwise. Unable to question reality; stuck in a self imposed survival strategy within a matrix-style monotony.

Because I know that you will give me all the information I need to destroy you by letting you talk.

Because I study human behaviors and you ignore everyone but yourself.

Because I watch how you say the things you say just as closely as I listen to what you say; and you say way too much!

Because control comes, not from spewing your ignorance like some incurable case of logorrhea, but from properly structuring the context of your questions.

Because I study the premise of your argument and destroy it from the ground level before you even get a chance to establish your ideas.

7 :: Because You Can’t Handle The Truth

Because you refuse to admit that you don’t even know the things you don’t know.

Because there isn’t an article online that would make up for all the time you have wasted in life.

Because even if I told you everything could be different tomorrow you would wait until then to begin doing anything about it.

Because even when you think I’m not, I’m aware of my surroundings.

Because you think that since I have not acknowledged you, it means that I have not seen you.

Because, you walk around with your head up your ass, oblivious to the world around you. Blissfully ignorant of the reality that sits so close to your face that if you stuck your tongue out, just once, you would taste it and realize how delicious the truth actually is.

Because you would become an instant addict. Unable to pull yourself from the teat of truth. Finally able to understand your lack of understanding, and then you would see; then you would know that the only thing holding you back from doing something truly amazing, is you.

https://medium.com/life-learning/2a1841f1335d

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

First post of the semester

I have been getting a lot of butterflies in stomach these days, just saying.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Just Because I am a Communications Student

What is communications?
Communication as an academic field relates to all that ways we communicate, so it embraces a knowledge. The information relates both to verbal and nonverbal messages.
Communication teachers and scholars have developed a definition of the field of communication to clarify it as a discipline for the public: 
"the field of communication focuses on how people use messages to generate meanings within and cross various context, cultures, channels and media. The field promotes the effective and ethical practice of human communication."

Did you know...
it is estimated that 75% of a person's day is spent communicating in some way. As a college student, 69% of your communication time in spent on speaking and listening. You spend 17% of your communication time on reading and 14% writing. To put it in another perspective; we listen a book a day, speak a book a week, read the equivalent book a month, and write the equivalent book a year.

Career options:
there are many career paths that a person with Communication major can choose. Here are some job titles that former graduates with Communication majors hold. Use this as an ideas list, remember that is represents some, but certainly not all of the careers you might consider. Some careers may take additional schooling.

Business:
Management
Personnel recruiter
Trainer
Admissions counselor
Sales representative
Public information officer
Negotiator
Newsletter editor
Mediator
Manager
Vice-president human resources
Director of training and development
Benefits administrator
Executive manager
Industrial and labor relations
Customer service representative
Human resources manager
Buyer

Advertising:
Advertising specialist
Copywriter
Media planner
Creative director
Public researcher
Marketing specialist
Account executive manager
Media buyer
Media sales representative

Communication education:
Language arts coordinator
Drama director
School counselor
Audiovisual specialist
Director of college news
Educational fund-raiser
High school speech forensics/debate coach
Speech communication department chairperson
Education researcher
Educational administrator
Educational tester
Alumni officer

Electronic/Media/Radio/Television/Broadcasting:
Broadcasting station manager
Film/tape librarian
Unit manager
Transmitter engineer
Advertising sales coordinator
Actor/actress
Disc jockey
Comedy writer
Producer
Floor manager
Director of broadcasting
Community relation director
News writer
Technical director
Market researcher
Announcer
News and relation manager
Casting manager
Business manager
Talk show host

Journalism:
Reporter
Newscaster
Copywriter
News service researcher
Acquisitions editor
Editor 
Author
Script writer
Technical writer
Media interviewer

Public Relations:
Publicity manager
Marketing specialist 
Corporate public affairs
Account executive
Sales manager
Media planner
News writer
Adverting manager
Lobbyist
Specialist
Development officer
Media analyst
Creative director
Public opinion researcher

Theatre/Performing arts: 
Performing artist
Arts administrator
Costume design
Lighting theatre critic
Stage manager
Theatre professor
Script writer
Performing arts educator
Scenic designer
Makeup artist
Model
Casting director

Government/Politics:
Public information officer writer
Campaign director
Program coordinator
Legislative assistant
Research specialist
Elected official

High Technology Industries:
Trainer for communication tech.
System analyst
Language specialist
Circuit television producer/director
Technical copywriter
Cognition researcher
Audio & visual computer display specialist

Communication and Health Care:
Health educator
Medical grants writer
Clinic public relations director
Research analyst
Health personnel educator
Hospice manager
Activities director
School health care administrator
Hospital director of communication
Health communication analyst
Medical training supervisor
Medical center publications editor
Health care counselor
Marketing director

International Relations and Negotiations:
On-Air international broadcasting
Translator
Diplomat
Corporate representative
Student tour coordinator
Foreign correspondent

Law:
Public defender
District attorney
Legal researcher
Legal secretary
Legal educator
Corporate lawyer
Private practice lawyer
Mediation & negotiation specialist
Legal reporter

Social and Human Services:
Public administrator
Recreation supervisor
Community affairs liaison
Religious leader
Social worker
Human rights officer
Park service public relations specialist
Mental counselor