Saturday, February 28, 2009
i cant let go my hands from you
although you treat me like that
for how many years?
i am still the one who surrender first
the most weak and the most boh-yong is me
being hurt until whole body with ugly scars
i feel hurt and...sad too
but i dont know to respone
silence is my action
my heart is bleeding
disappointing freighted my soul
sadness accompany me day by day
why i keep repeat the same mistake
i know what's the bad effect will come
i know i will get hurt
i know i am doing this
but i dont know WHY
first time? maybe
never do this before? i think so
too softie? yes i am
they tell me to forget about it
stop being stubborn
hurting is enough for me
i failed to do it
i dont want it anymore
rather choose to lost my memory
these is so so so suffer
we happy together before but after leave me here emo-ing
i cant figure it out
my memory now in pieces
many little small pieces
i catched some
some sneaked out from my hand
please stop what now you doing to me
hate that i just cant say that three words
"I XXXX YOU"
infront of you
do you feel my tears?
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Instructions: once u've been tagged, write 16 random things about facts, habits or goals about you. Tag 10 ppl and u can't tag ppl who've tagged u. List their names and why u choose them.
1. date for releasing SPM result coming!! i am so nervous on it!! "lolz"
2. so sick for my blurriness
3. choosy person i am
4. working recently
5. able to drive with one hand and another hand busy on cellphone "i am pround of it!! XD"
6. still struggle on something lame =.=
7. i like bak kut teh a lot!!!
8. wish to own a cafe "once" @.@
9. love my babe nicky~~~
10. i miss my form 5 classmate BADLY!!
11. gonna make some calls later
12. hope what i think same with what i do
13. wish to have a relaxing trip
14. i want a laptop!!
15. hate treated like a slave
16. i want a boyfriend "haha"
reason: i like ah~ haha
Monday, February 23, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
Blue-That's Me! XD
Red-Advices I Should Accept ^^
to my friends
have a try!!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Date: Unspecified (around December 2008)
Reason: Drop to the floor
Physical Damage: Screen Broke
Type: Second Hand Computer
Date: Unspecified (around January 2009)
Reason: Mother Board Loose
Physical Damage: Computer cannot turn on
Date: Unspecified (around January 2009)
Physical Damage: Back and Cancel key not function
Cost: F.O.C (Under Warrenty)
i know a bit lame ("too LAME")
hope you guys know what i'm trying to say lar
these 3 electronics are my personal belongings
3 of them since when so "FRIEND" spoil at almost the same time
i am SO LUCKY man~
the most pity one maybe is my camera
last year until now still dying
and it's repair cost might cost me RM400
that second hand computer
my dad been cheated by the salesman that told him this pc is fast and new
it's worst than my old one
the only advantage is me and my siblings dont need to fight for using computer "yay~"
curious about why this pc keep spoil
everytime take to repair and the technician told me inside something loose =.=
last time was graphic card
this time was mother board
why will loose?
blame my 2 bros itchy legs laa
when play maple until high they will kick the CPU
kolian sia =.=
next time i saw whose leg kicking i chop it off!!
okay turn next
my dar sek810i T^T
brought it on a memoriable date
31 OCT 2008-the day i graduated from Kwang Hua
the 2 keys just not function suddenly
i can't figure it out the answer
i dont even drop it!! EVER!! T^T
seems today get it back from factory
of course is SS TIME!!! "bahahaahaah"
so you all know d lar
these 3 is important for me
cant live without it "not so serious laa"
MY BABIES!! DONT LET ME WORRY AGAIN OHH~~
Sunday, February 15, 2009
i LOST my energy
i LOST my idea
i LOST ME
these day no more energy
what i am living for?
born, study, work, die
i stuck between study and work
what situation i staying now?
everyday stick to computer wasn't my living purpose
what should i do?
i am not good in studying
i am not good in counting
i am not good in doing business
i am not good in communicating
i am NOT GOOD at all
i am just NOTHING
what else i can do?
now nothing can make me feel interesting and excited anymore
even hang out, sing k, shopping, watch movie etc
WTH i am doing
just like a DEAD people
no emotions no feeling
why i failed show my emotions to other?
why i just cant say NO to others?
no any relation with EQ kay?
after left secondary school
felt that winshi not winshi anymore
she already become another person
easy to angry, cry, tired, and no more patient
i dont know what i'm doing
i cant survive and cant make myself live in iife without
when i write this
i'm totally DOWN
dont ask me WHY
because i DONT KNOW what's going on AT ALL
i fear to change
i'm scare to be alone
i dont want to face these changes
i still wanna be a student
adult's world is so complicated
there is many many responsiblity on their shoulder
heavy and tired
everyday need to put much much attention on behavior and acting
should being responsible on every action
i just suitable to be a kid
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
chinese new year ends
and i starting work at my dad office regulary "no more take leave without reason" LOL
one of the customer service already having her 2 month leave "she's giving birth SOON"
company's wedsite finally launch
and i appointed to update the catalogs and blogs
everyday stick to the monitor makes my eyes blur and blur
but meant the increasing of eye sight la "i think" and "hope so"
jess (one of my colleague) teach me to print out Purchase Order
just simple steps laa
my jobs aint so heavy and i can view peoples' friendster everyday
just hanging around LOL~
hope really like what dad says
that website can get more enquiries from other company and broaden the network
if get response from other countries is the BEST~~
i can get commision XD
now going to step by step upload those information lorr
edit product pics
ahhh my eyes T.T
waiting to receive my NS letter
waiting my SPM result
waiting to go for NS~~~
the good news is
i finally decided going to Taylor's
either ICPU or Foundation Of Communication
dont ask me why
dont say i am a extravagant people
allow me to being selfish for one time
"i been used up for my whole life to think about others!"
HOPE I WONT DISAPPOINTING MY DAD
hope what i study worth 100K
good luck for me kay?^^
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
小A: 他虽然没说什么，但是我感觉到他好像嫌那里很贵=.= 而且，我又不是什么天才，读书不需要花到100k吧？
小D: 嘿！请问你几岁了？还有你老爸不是告诉过你很多次吗？语言不是问题！你一定会被环境影 响的，不可能你在那里呆了一个星期还完全听不懂他们说什么吧？那你真的是太烂了！
小A: 你忘了吗？3年前的我=.= 那种死heng...超级被动的...现在再加上语言问题，你要我在学校里怎么过？
小D: 小姐啊，UTAR 是 UTAR，怎么能和TAYLORS比呢？你这样比就好像擂茶和curry那样，差很多好不好！
小A: 可是我的朋友都去UTAR啊~我怕我不能适应新环境 T^T
小A: 其实这不是我的主要原因啦~主要的是“钱钱钱钱”！100k不少叻小姐！感觉到你有点自私 咯~读一个multimedia studies就吞掉100k了，又不是什么能赚大钱的行业，嘁~
小A: 嗯~之前那个CURTIN不错啦！不过它没有JULY INTAKE，而且老爸说那里还不够好，所以就放弃咯！过后有次上网做个“马来西亚学院及大学research”，看到很多学院，最后看中了之前我所提的SWINBURNE，可是好像没人听过这间，就不要冒险咯~
小A: 呃~我想INTI “也许”不错啦！可是资料不够，还有~嗯，新纪元也不错啦！若是英文教学我会考虑...我没猜错，KL好像也读TAYLORS哦~你知道的，她的家庭状况嘛！
小D: INTI好像对MASS COMM不那么专业哦！KL嘛~我不太清楚哦~很久没见到她了