A Little Bit of Everything

我并不恨你，

甚至未曾思考过原谅不原谅的问题，

你只是我生命中的一个过客，

一颗尘埃。

伤害已经造成，

覆水难收。

我和你未达生死不相来的决裂，

我却永远无法在靠近你，

再见不是朋友。

quote this from SinChewDaily novel

kinda match with my recent situation

before this i kept blaming myself on whatever i've done

either the wrong and the right one

but keep on blaming doesnt bring any positive effect

only insomnia

maybe i put too high expectation

or just no forever friendship exist?

i dont know

curiousing why only me feel deep deep sadness on this

i think it doesnt matter on soften heart

just

i am too weak i think

i'm sucks in handle friendship matters

always the one who been led

there is only 2 human being tolds me that i have problem on expression

they both said my words comes with needle

but

what's wrong with peoples out of this 2?

or something wrong about this 2 person?

gosh

human being are so so complicated

dad said

旧的不去，新的不来

but i'm the nostomania

typical taurus habit

it just same with my collection

old letters, old teddy, old cloths, old spec

i do not want to throw them away

its mean a lot for me

this sentence relieved me

i think is time to let it go

last one

BYE BYE

THANK YOU

&

SORRY