那样就不用每天徉装着笑容，
明明不快乐，还要笑嘻嘻着。
何时觉得自己变得安静，
不爱说话了。
面对一些事，却是无奈的面貌。
何时觉得自己是那么没用，
面对自己不想做的事却还要去做、
自己却无能为力。
何时觉得自己是那么没用，
曾想改变身边的一切但自己不得不向社会的残酷现实低头。
不得不向别人低头。
何时觉得自己变得
对待身边一切事情不在乎了，
是因为自己以无力在乎。
何时觉得自己让自己活的那么辛苦，那么堕落。
别人的种种眼光。
是好是坏、自己都分不清楚。
青春的阳光不再明媚，只因自己无力改变。
曾想改变自己这无谓的生活、曾想曾想...
但是却被身边一切残酷的现实给摧残了。
自己内心所受的伤、别人永远也无法懂。
即使自己表面露得多坚强、笑的多开朗，装做多不在乎。
但是在夜里、自己却掉下了多少眼泪。
何时我们的梦想变得不再像是我们的，
我们带着家人朋友的期望下做着自己心里厌恶的东西。
曾想我们变叛逆，但是却一次次想到身边的家人。觉得变坏对得起她们吗。？
我想做个坏孩子，
今天复制昨天，不愿再勉强自己。
我想做个坏孩子，
这样谈何容易？要多大的勇气？
可现实说明我多无能多胆小。
本想自己还算是过的好了，
但是措手不及的伤害又一次次突袭，
让你一次一次痛的快窒息。
曾想我也能像别人生活得那么快乐，
曾想让自己变得快乐一点，但是事与愿违。
让你一次次万般失望，也许这就是命运在捉弄。
不要以为我很坚强，很快乐。
如今淡漠只是武装自己不受伤。
我不喜欢别人把我看的脆弱，
也不喜欢别人以为我很不快乐。
坏孩子的天空到底是怎样的？堕落？迷茫？颓废？
还是外人无法欣赏的美好？我向往着…
我怕自己变成坏孩子！
我怕最爱我的你们会不再爱我，不要我，会离开我。
我害怕你们的离去，所以我没有变坏，而是尽力让自己变成你们期待的。
其实每个人都不是想学坏的、可是现实对我们太残酷了。
坏孩子？变成家人、朋友不喜欢的人？
你们还会爱那个坏孩子吗？
但我可以说
这一切也是你们直接或间接造成的、
是你们亲手把一个好孩子拉进坏的边缘。
自己何尝不想成为大家所喜爱的好好孩子，只是自己做得到吗？
越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断
也不得不收回曾经的话问自己
青春就是这样吗？
自己的人生就是这样吗？
自己就这样认命吗？
其实我们本质并不坏，
只是压力大了，难以承受，
只是自己承受不了身边一些不好的事情。
一些不如意的事情，才会想要自己变坏，变叛逆，
让自己离别人的期望越来越远，以为这样就可以逃离你们给我们的压力，
现在你们对我们的期望更大，收回的失望更是大。
如果我说
''我累了，我可以变坏吗？'''
就这一秒钟，
让我为自己的骄傲而活着！
做个好孩子我们真的在努力了。
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As a child, when we failed to meet our parents' expectation,
we will feel sad and guilty too.
Sometimes when we can't make things right,
or things that parents thinks has benefits to us,
is not entirely our fault.
We've been trained to become how to make more money in the future,
instead of how to face the real world, as known as the reality.
Without this ability, we will find difficulties to handles pressure, stress, criticism from others,
and next lead to depression, maybe ended up commit suicide.
Really,
does an obedient child able to adapt to the society when he has grown up?
We learn to obey what the elderies say,
we listen to their experiences,
does those really can help us?
In this century,
in this era?
Perhaps it does, but just a little bit of them.
This world is changing everyday,
information,
way of life,
technology,
just everything!
Look at Bill Gates,
look at Mark Zuckerberg.
Are they good kids when they were young?
NOT REALLY.
Their way of seeing this world made them extraordinary,
they are not restricted by school regulations, the norms,
instead they create their own way,
do their own things.
Basically,
they just don't care those restrictions.
And now, both of them are freaking rich!
So yea, basically they are the role model for being disobedient kid!
CRAP, WHY AM I TALKING ALL THESE.
SOMETHING WRONG IN ME.
LOL.
As a child, when we failed to meet our parents' expectation,
we will feel sad and guilty too.
Sometimes when we can't make things right,
or things that parents thinks has benefits to us,
is not entirely our fault.
We've been trained to become how to make more money in the future,
instead of how to face the real world, as known as the reality.
Without this ability, we will find difficulties to handles pressure, stress, criticism from others,
and next lead to depression, maybe ended up commit suicide.
Really,
does an obedient child able to adapt to the society when he has grown up?
We learn to obey what the elderies say,
we listen to their experiences,
does those really can help us?
In this century,
in this era?
Perhaps it does, but just a little bit of them.
This world is changing everyday,
information,
way of life,
technology,
just everything!
Look at Bill Gates,
look at Mark Zuckerberg.
Are they good kids when they were young?
NOT REALLY.
Their way of seeing this world made them extraordinary,
they are not restricted by school regulations, the norms,
instead they create their own way,
do their own things.
Basically,
they just don't care those restrictions.
And now, both of them are freaking rich!
So yea, basically they are the role model for being disobedient kid!
CRAP, WHY AM I TALKING ALL THESE.
SOMETHING WRONG IN ME.
LOL.
你的文章都很有感覺，我邊看邊回想起我以前的日子，還有隨著年齡增長的歲月，你說的一切竟然和我經歷的愕然有所相同！有時做個坏孩子並不完全是件壞事，叛逆又怎樣，只要我沒做傷天害理的事，我才不管別人的眼光和所謂的什麽社會要求等等。每個生命都是獨立的個體，老天給我們的腦袋是要我們有自己的思想和主見，而不是跟著主流像罐頭一樣每一件都是標準的產品！Standard thinking will only create standard results. I guarantee you that most successful people in this world and in history has non-standard thinking that often go against the norm. They're often "rejected" by the people around them who think they're right just because they follow the norm.
ReplyDeleteI, for one, have learned the hard way when I was younger. Many years have passed but IF time can go back, I'll do a lot of things differently, and this would inlcude never listen to ill-advice or social norm that appear good on surface. Always listen to your heart and "question" everything that come your way. They may be true or good for you, but there's always a 50% chance that it may go the other way round.
Well, to be honest, as a student now, you might not be able to do whatever you think is right (due to certain very real-life restriction) but the least you can do is believe in yourself that there'll come a day when YOU YOURSELF can be your very own master of destiny. Believe the power of believe, and don't ever lose the faith in yourself. 祝福您！