Summer

Finally got the chance to experience a foreign country's summer. Bright sunlight and heat are definitely something that I missed. However, summer in Canada is totally different with what we have in Malaysia. Why? Because is so friggin dry here! Imagine the warm wind, imagine the sunlight can actually hurt your skin. Therefore I would say summer in the North America is not friendly, however I am glad that I am able to stand it, some people just could not. Haha.

I think I did not mention it before, I just done with my summer term, took an art history class for intersession during the first month of summer. Intersession is like short sem in Malaysia, which is to finish 4 months study materials in 1 month. Very very intense, especially when you are taking course like art history. I need to memorize 70 paintings and architecture for final exam, as well as it's artist, period, culture, locations and 3 facts. But, I had fun! 

Got Cameron Macdonell as my Renaissance to Modern art history professor. He is like a walking art history encyclopedia, he can answer almost every student's question, just way too awesome. After this course, I am finally can say that, I HATE MODERN ART. LOL. Before modern art, paintings are created upon request or for sale, right now, paintings are more like an expression of the artist itself, only the artist himself/herself understand what he/she is trying to convey. Which is, they do not give a fuck of the audience, and most importantly they are not aesthetically enjoyable. To be honest, I almost puke when I was reading Claude Monet's and Pablo Piccasso. *Great fans of art please don't kill me*

What art history changed me is that, I can now recognize paintings and some parts of architecture! Like while I was watching Monte Carlo yesterday night, when Selena Gomez and her friends visiting The Louvre, I almost shout out the name of the paintings I saw, like Raft of Medusa and Liberty Leading the People, omg. Insane. But, I love this feeling, haha.

However, I am glad that I am done, and I will not take Modern Art in the coming semester instead, Early Medieval or Northern Renaissance, yay.

On the other hand, I got an on-campus job, finally! Applied it through WISE, the job list for international students. LOL. Submitted the resume and went for the interview, the employers were quite impressed with the number of languages I am able to speak, yay for being Malaysian. So yea, right now I am working at the front desk of the International Student Centre. Answer questions to whoever comes in, assign them to see the right person for specific questions.

Besides that, I have been quite busy with AIESEC Windsor as well. Since the vice president of my portfolio, communications is in Toronto, another guy Kevin and me has been assigned as directors to look over the portfolio during the summer.

Therefore my title now is the Director of Public Awareness of AIESEC Windsor. LOL. But I am still doing the old stuff like social media and IT since I am not that leader-ish in anyway. LOL. And after the BoA meeting, I am started to think should I apply to be the vice president of communications or not. Because I have serious stage fright, nothing to do with language, just pure stage fright, I cannot talk to public, especially I know there are some high position people there.

I thought I got rid of this problem when I was in INTI because I do talked a lot, asked questions when having meetings or classes. Just weird though. However, back to the topic. I do not see anyone in communications will apply to be the vice president though except Kevin and me, or maybe Chantelle. Well, I  still need to figure out which to go, either VP COM or go to an exchange in Italy to Turkey.

And right now we are doing a video project, it is going to be a general knowledge about AIESEC, for training purpose. Sometimes I just wish we have more serious members in AIESEC though. It feel sucks when you know you are working alone. It's like a solo cheerleader, cheer alone like a sohai. LOL.

So, what's up for the rest of summer? I don't really have plans yet. Will be going to Texas for 1 week though, few days trip and 3 days Tzu Chi Conference. Then parents are coming at the end of August, which I will be busy working and moving out from this room at that time. WHAT A GREAT TIMING. Hopefully everything will be fine at that time. :/

Especially the housing, it has been a fucking pain in the ass since January. Oh God, please help me this time, I just want to end this suffer.

Until now, I still not sure whether if staying in Windsor for the summer is a right decision or not. Yes I took a course, I got a job, and most importantly, I met you. But home is home, where people who truly loves me belong, where only good food exist! LOL.

I am still in the swirl pool, save me.

准得可怕

金牛座，很会面对现实，说的都是实话。
而往往说实话是最伤人的，而对方也很清楚金牛说的话一点都不假。
比如对方问金牛爱不爱自己，
金牛会回答“有爱过！”“后来为什么没有爱？”“你真的想听吗？”……
金牛的态度会让对方很清楚的知道在继续问下去只是拿刀往自己身上插而已。

请好好珍惜金牛对你的好 当金牛对你好时会好得没有底
但如果你不懂得珍惜 一次又一次的伤害金牛
总有一天你在他的心里就不再那么重要 那时即使你挽回也没有用了
总有一些东西是变了 每当你说出:"关你什么事？"时请想清楚
不然你下次找他的时候得到的回复可能是 "关我什么事？"
牛牛再怎么伤心，难过，他也会笑，没有人看得出是真是假，只有自己知道！
牛牛可以安慰别人，保护别人，但是却用不到自己身上，固执的伤害自己，
牛牛的发泄方式都是对自己的，他不会发泄到别人身上。
他矛盾，他固执，他善良，其实苦的都是自己！

成天混迹在各种热闹的地方来排解自己的寂寞。
可是他们的内心始终都是别人无法靠近的。
他们自己也很矛盾，埋藏了太多的事情，
自己其实也很苦，想找个人倾诉，张了张嘴，却又不知从何说起。
于是索性笑一笑，没有什么大不了的，
天踏了，牛角顶着。所以他们不甘寂寞，却又真的很寂寞。

金牛喜欢人与人之间淡淡地相处 不会太累 也没那么多顾及
淡淡的友情就像淡淡的茶香令人沉醉
金牛喜欢淡淡的文字 流淌着飘逸纯真 有如潺潺清泉洗濯着疲惫的心灵
金牛喜欢淡淡的生活 静悄悄地走过每一天 不要留下什么印痕
金牛也不想被众人瞩目
金牛喜欢站在树下看远方淡淡的风景

金牛座的你虽然天生很会打扮，但是因为天性节俭，
所以从来不会打扮得太过火。
金牛座的女孩通常很有魅力，尤其是和蓄长发。
大圆顶的棉质洋服最能表现出你的妩媚，
颜色以绿色及棕褐色为主，
头发向上梳盘成一个髻，胸前挂上一条木质雕刻的长形项链，
会使你更出色！

金牛往往这样。彼此越喜欢越容易吵架，林黛玉爱贾宝玉爱得不要命，
可一见面就又吵又哭。
金牛喜欢谁就跟谁吵，感情越好对对方越关心，求同的倾向越强，
达到一个峰值也就是最高点，就接近全面求同。
感情越强烈就越不讲理越苛刻，
所以金牛同你吵架，要庆幸你正被爱着。

金牛座最易被误读的地方：
都是守财奴，吝啬到一毛不拔的程度，要他出钱很难要他请客更难,
若是那一天你收到金牛座送你一个大礼物,那一定是做出了什么对不起你的事。。。。。。需要更正的是：
金牛确实很现实，但实际上他们在花钱的时候往往比你想象的要大方的多,
对自己想要得到的东西，再贵都会买的

1、理性。做事很实际，但是很向往不现实的事情。
2、享受。喜欢自然舒适，喜欢美丽而且实用的东西。对于好吃的东西没有抵抗力。
3、独占。占有欲很强，无论是朋友还是爱人，必须让他们感觉到他对于你们是重要的不可替代的，不能确定或没有安全感的时候，会让他们厌倦而放弃。

金牛会很久不再联系你。
如果你在纳闷一个狮子以前每天给你打电话现在却不主动联系你。
以前金牛对于你说的一切都很关注，
现在你对金牛说什么金牛也是在听，面带微笑，
但是思维经常短路……那就请你注意了，
注重交流沟通的金牛已经给你亮起了红灯。

金牛座的人都真性情,爱恨分明,总是口是心非。
如果吵架,没有多想,一定下一句话说的比对方更狠,更没有退路,然后不知道得意个什么。
要命的自尊,喜欢简简单单就好,不喜欢世俗,一根筋想问题。
开心时候什么都能丢一边,不开心时候一句话也不愿意说。

金牛座的敏感特质是隐藏在内心的，并不被大多数人察觉。
牛儿有大地的特质，承担一切，喜欢保护弱小，擅长照顾别人，
简直到了牺牲奉献的地步，尤其对于情人的要求，
会放在第一位，甚至不等对方开口，都能察觉对方心意，事先为对方准备好。
牛牛的心很软，很敏感，会因为悲剧的情节或他人的不幸而流泪。

【1】金牛不是完美的，但是金牛是愿意越来越完美的星座
【2】金牛的固执很难克服，但是并不是说你要改变什么，而是以后在要做这些事情之前好好的想象能不能这样做，做了之后又什么后果
【3】金牛，你要学会保护自己，金牛确实很笨，特别是在爱情里面，所以你一定要好好的保护自己。

Imma Pro

So I just bought this $2 mini fan from Dollarama, thought of maybe it can help cool down my steamy room a little bit. It is a battery operated fan. With so much of expectation, after I put in 2 AA size batteries, this thing won't effing work! I was like wtf, I just wasted $2 + tax on this piece of useless shit. Then, I looked to my left, my green bag full of hardware tools I bought for sculpture class. An thought came to my mind, "why don't I try fix it, I have all the tools I need."

After 10 mins, guess what? IT WORKED! It wouldn't work just now because the red wire detached from the generator, so I just cut a little and pluck it back. I felt so proud, LOL. Is it my first time fixing stuff? I don't really remember, but I have a feeling I fixed quite a lot of stuff back home.


So, say hi to my new yellow friend whom will accompany me for the rest of the summer.
Don't mess with the daughter of hardware guy,or I should totally change my major to something related to this. LOL

Love at the first sight?

I always thought this is some kind of bullshit that only appears in movie. In fact, it is not, because it just happened to me recently.

For the first time in my life, the feelings just strike me like that. It frightens me, I never have this feeling before, it is like a mixture of happy, excited, worried, anxious, etc.

He is the guy I ever wanted, the personality, a food lover, a movie lover, do not talk much, and others. I thought I will never had the chance to meet this kind of guy ever in my life *sounds hyperbole but it's true okay lol*, whom fits my criteria, like score a full mark in an exam. I even prepared to be single forever. It just shocked me.

I advised friends about their relationship problems however myself is a total newbie, ironic eh?

Hopefully both of us can work out something. If not, I will not whine or whatever, at least I got to know that my kind of guy do exist.

This is the first time I fall for someone.

Did not expect me to post something like this eh? 

Me neither. 

TOO GELI.

But, meh.