Way Back to Tzu Chi

I cannot believe I was actually there. At the United States of America Tzu Chi Collegiate Association Leadership Conference 2012in Dallas, Texas, as someone who haven't been in touch with Tzu Chi for 2 years plus. As someone who is not an official Tzu Ching.

Never thought about I will have the chance to stay in touch with Tzu Chi again in the North America. My mum told me to get involve with after I arrive Canada but after all the searchings the closest one I could get is Detroit Chapter, and nearest one in Canada is Toronto's chapter. At the end the thought of joining Tzu Chi slowly faded out from my mind as school stuffs come all together.

How I did join Tzu Chi? Well, I joined as a Tzu Shao at first, kind of forced by my mum because her friends are sending their kids to their as well. I was pretty igorant because I already an athiest at that time, Buddha's teachings are just a no-no for me. As time goes by, month by month lecture and activities, (Why I never skip class every month? Because I am a obedient kid, lol) Tzu Chi showed me a different world. Buddha's teaching has nothing to do with religion, it is a philosophy, a way of life.

Later on, I was given a position, as a photographer, plus senior Tzu Shao. From that moment, my perspective of Tzu Chi has changed totally. Because of Tzu Chi, I started to care more about the society, at least be aware of what is happening at the surrounding. And I started to do volunteering because of Tzu Chi. I remember one of the Shi Gu said volunteering can be addictive, which is very true. Volunteering brought me to a whole new journey, I became active, more sociable, the change is even obvious when I was in INTI. Until now, I hold 2 executive positions in my university, and possibly 1 more incoming.

The conference was epic. Met back with Fion and SynDee was awesome, got to know people from all over the states was fantastic! It is so heartwarming when seeing those Shi Gu and Shi Bo contribute their time and hardwork without asking anything back, they never complain! This really touches my heart because Shi Gu Shi Bo back in Malaysia, at least in Klang Chapater weren't this helpful until this extend. Shi Gu Shi Bo in the states are like living in a Tzu Chi world, willing to do anything for Tzu Ching and Tzu Chi, selflessly. In the conference, they mentioned about communications between Tzu Ching and Shi Gu Shi Bo is difficult because most of the Tzu Ching does not understand Mandarin and Taiwanese while Shi Gu Shi Bo are not fluent with English. However Shi Gu and Shi Bo promised to try their best to improve their language. From my point of view, shouldn't Tzu Ching try to learn Mandarin and Taiwanese instead? Since youth can learn things easier and faster.

This conference mostly talked about vegetarism and leadeship. However, I think the coolest part in this conference was we got to skype with Master Cheng Yen during the morning ceremony in Taiwan. It was a very special moment, and I almost cried, lol. Master Cheng Yen could actually see us! :') Leadership part of the conference did not really apply to me since I am not a real Tzu Ching LOL. However vegeterism class striked me quite hard. I had the thought of being a vegetarian but I don't have the perseverance to do it, I couldn't give up meat. But one thing I can promise myself is that I try to reduce the amount of the meat I consume, that is at least what I am able to do now.

Anywho, I have made friends from University of Michigan and University of Toronto, hopefully they will tag me along when they have Tzu Chi events coming.

Another thing I learnt from the conference. "To forgive others is to be kind to yourself." - Jing Si Aphorism

 

Gan En :)

10 Myths About Introverts

You considered yourself as an introvert? Read these 10 myths and think about it again. Because I know I am.

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

I can talk non-stop if it's food or movie related. Topic about hot/cute guys will do too.

 Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Yes, just fucking talk to me, what I need is just someone taking initiative.

 Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

I hate hypocrites. If you wanna act, just go act in a drama, not in front of me.

 Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

I take relationships SERIOUSLY, if you fucked it up, sorry, no more chance.

 Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

It's like I get excited very fast and this excitement usually dies pretty early, like 1 or 2 hours of the event. Maybe because I cannot fully concentrate to have fun, I observe the surroundings while I am having fun, pathetic eh. 

 Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

I like to be alone for most of the time however I want to have someone that I can rely on whenever I need help or talk. Also, I am an unicellular, I can only concentrate on ONE PERSON AT A TIME. Sorry if I let you feel abandoned, I tried my best.

 Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.


I have my own taste on things, deal with it. Stop telling me to wear makeups, heels, and dresses. If you like it so much, suck it yourself. And yes, I love to challenge the norm, I like to do things differently. LOL. 


Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them. 


And this is why I daydream all the time. Surrounding of mine is just not that interesting. 

 Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

LOVE THIS. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. However, this is kinda off, because I love roller coasters LOL.

 Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

I am comfortable being what I am now :)

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雨与强者

昨天傍晚雷电交加可是却迟迟不下雨，于是就逞英雄/很白痴的只带上钥匙，手机和钱包就往学校走。

原因纯粹是想淋雨。

我完全低估了加拿大的雨。它并不像想马来西亚那样倾盆，而是像有人拿着一桶水往你身上泼！再加上暴风，从四方吹来，有多恐怖就多恐怖。最后会议去不了，还被中国女生轻视地看我狼狈的样子。躲在Toldo看半个小时狂风暴雨，之后雨小了点才浑身湿透地走回家。


在那30分钟里，我做了一件平常不太会做的事情。在Facebook发了条“What/s better than this? All wet and stuck in school. Bravo.‘的状态。然后满怀期望地以为会有人来英雄救美，当时脑里心里就只想着一个人。还为此emo了好几个小时 TMD。


电影看太多吧，有谁会24小时在你身旁standby呢？失望是肯定有的，可是我还察觉到了另外一点。


我-变-弱-了


我一直以来都在很努力的塑造”我很强“的形象，成功地骗了不少人包括我自己。如果是以前的自己我可以肯定我不会因为这种鸡毛蒜皮的事情感到失望/emo。你老妈我就是不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽


引用CC的一句“如果真的喜欢，狠狠去一次是值得的。有时候，太理智真不是件好事。” 太理智的确不好，可是我做不到，因为我知道如果我失去理智我会变成一个超级大白痴，找不回理智的那种，所以我对我的理智hold得很紧。不过照现在看来，理智在慢慢消失。


因为我是单细胞，只能专注于一件事情。我似乎有生以来就知道，爱情在我的生命里有十分重的份量。对于爱情我只有两条路走，一是避开，二是陷进去。是的，我慌了。我已经不知道我在做什么了，满脑子只能想着一个可能或不可能喜欢我的人。*虽然有人已经爆料，但是本人就是没信心* 主动？被动？等？不知道？！你老娘我不知道不知道不知道啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊


本来以为可以一直逃避，逃了21年终于还是被捆住了。


这就是我单身了21年的原因，被拒绝的男生们，谢谢你们的喜欢，对不起我们的缘分不够。


唉，不过，能遇到你，我人生值了。


This is not a blog post that you would expect from the Win Shi you know. Welcome to my dark side.

49 Things to do Before You Leave University

1. Feed the campus wildlife 
Squirrels 


2. Have an epic karaoke night at your house using just YouTube, booze, and your natural star quality 
Planning to do this after I move out from this house, LOL.

3. Go on a date with someone you would normally say no to - give them a chance
I did, and I won't do it again.

4. Hand in an essay early
Will try this semester, LOL.

5. Busk on campus for a charity (even if you have zero talent)
Uhh, this is quite challenging.

6. Teach someone something
Language? Malay, Mandarin, Hokkien, Cantonese, bla bla bla.  


7. Read a book that isn't study-related 
Half way.


8. Hire a bike for a week and see how it works out for you 
Planning to buy a bike


9. Study in every library that exists at your university (like you're ‘on tour' - but studying)
University of Windsor only has 2 libraries, so yea. 


10. Drive to a beach. Swim. (If your uni is miles away from the coast, you'll just have to stay over) 
But I am not the driver.


11. Make your own booze 
Ahhh, if financial available, LOL.


12. Go to a university sports team's game. Get vocal and animated with your support. 
Kinda did it when school starts.


13. Have an incredibly elaborate picnic on a uni green space one lunch time 
Something that I always want to do, even just lie on the grass and do nothing.


14. Sit in on a lecture that's completely out of your field, but that you've always been fascinated by 
Philosophy or computer science.


15. Join a society for something you've always wanted to do, but never got round to 
Already fully occupied by societies. 


16. Apply for internships and jobs 
Working in International Student Centre right now.


17. Turn up at a 9 am lecture along with all the other students dressed in your PJs and dressing gowns
Maybe..? 


18. Go to the careers office and speak to them completely honestly - whatever your thoughts and fears, loves and hates...
What's the point? LOL


19. Go on a weekend country jaunt with friends - get as remote as possible 
Pelee Island!


20. Start a conga at a big union night. See how long you can get it, before leading it as far from the music as possible (if you can get it to a house party or another club night, you can officially retire from doing stuff. Your work here is done) 
Nay, this is stupid.


21. Go and see the art departments' end of year shows
Visual arts student speaking here. End of year shows are mind-blowing!


22. Go to a play put on by the drama department or a uni society
Miss one last year, will try again this year. 


23. Get involved in a play or some kind of performance (e.g. fashion show, etc.)
Someone actually asked me, I rejected LOL Will think about it again next time.


24. Visit all historical building and monuments in your town (including churches)
If I have a car LOL 


25. Go out sober and dance all night (at least once, repeat as required) 
Sober all the time


26. Swim in a fountain (campus if possible, town will do)
How about river? 


27. Go paddling on a hot day
Would love to! 


28. Hold your own Come Dine With Me with other student houses
Planning.


29. Take part in a protest
Missed one last semester LOL 


30. Write in to the uni radio station or newspaper
No one really listens to CJAM though  


31. Dress up! As a fictional character, an animal - anything
Halloween? 

32. If you think a lecture was particularly good, try and instigate a standing ovation 
Oh my, this need a lot of courage.


33. Do something – anything! – silly, for charity
Shinerama is the best start. 


34. Give your parents a in depth tour of all the great stuff you do and love at University (It'll make for an amazing trip for them, and make them feel happy whenever they think of you at uni) 
Yes, they are coming soon! 


35. Have a sleepover 
At Fantine's


36. Play an elaborate prank on a housemate 
Poor Fantine LOL


37. Win a pub quiz (whatever it takes)
 Won a t-shirt


38. Make a kite and fly it
Okayyyy 


39. Have an 80s montage house cleaning session, with appropriate outfits and music blaring
LOL WTF challenged accepted 


40. Go on a blind date 
Uh, through?


41. Find out the names of all those people you know far too well to not know their names 
I am good at names.


42. Dye your hair 
Thought of highlight them.


43. Sleep out under the stars 
If weather allows 


44. Make a movie starring your friends and your favourite places 
Might be a project for one of the courses :P


45. Celebrate something by doing the classic shake up a bottle of champagne and spraying it all over yourself and everywhere (or at least do it with sparkling wine..!) 
Ons!


46. Make friends with a student from a country you've never known someone from or been to before 
India? Pakistan? Dubai? And the list goes on.


47. Go inside (and have a little explore of) every building that is part of the university 
Bitch please, my uni is so small.


48. Become a wise mentor for a Fresher doing your course. Tell them what you wish you'd known 
Applied and got accepted to be a mentor, will be having a mentee this coming fall :)


49. Learn a new sport or instrument or activity that you never thought you would
Would love to. 




So I got 16/49, not that bad right so far? :)