What is Your Shoe Size?

I probably sound pathetic by keep saying I am taking 6 courses, involving in 3 clubs and have an on-campus job in this semester. Yea, those are nothing, I do not deserve to have a rest, I cannot whine, I cannot tell the others how tired I am, I cannot drop all of my responsibilities right now, I cannot disappoint the others, and yada yada yada.

Friends do not understand my stresses, never mind. But mum's ignorance is way too much for me to bear, I am trying my very best to be your so called perfect daughter, so that I can be better than your friend's daughter. All those things I am doing right now is not enough? How can I make you happy and be proud of me? Be a psychology major? Get a boyfriend? Graduating this year? What the fuck do you want from me? All I ever ask from you is just some compliments.

Some people when they are facing problems they will look for someone to talk to, for most of the time I am the listener, I cannot say that I am a good listener, however I do try to put myself in others' shoe when I am trying to give them advice. Why is it never the another way round? Hey, I have problems too! Can't some people just shut the fuck up and listen to me? Or just zip up and let me release stress in my own way? You guys make me feel like I do not deserve being tired, I am not good enough to say I need some rest. Once again this makes me lost faith in human relationships. So called friends? Pfft. Mum? Pfft. I am the one and only person who I can trust and have believe in, no one else.

And it is just the third week of school. Please do not break down, at least not now.

I just want someone to listen, listen, listen, listen, listen. No pun intended.