2013 already? Goddamnit.

And I am 22 already. New year, new semester, new hair, new resolution.

One of the things I need to do this year: have-no-mercy, I have to stop do things that has no benefits for me. I am enough and tired of doing stuff for other, right now, is time to think for my own, only myself. Do I sound selfish? Think of how much you people made use and took granted from me. Now I just want to have more time for myself, I do not even know what I want, who I am already.

Second thing,  try to stay alive. 6 courses, on campus job, 4 extra co curricular activities that I have big responsibilities on, maybe (hopefully) the OC of a big event,  perhaps there are something else but I can not remember right now, lol.

Third, be prepared to be home. I have tried a lot of negative stuffs from people study abroad went back home. Like things changed, peopled changed, yada yada. Ultimate plan, if back home bound disappoints me I will just go on a food trip, concentrate on food hunting only.

Lastly, try not to be single anymore? I think I have this in all of my resolutions but it never work out, so, meh. Does not really put high hope on this though.

So uh, happy new year? Congratulations for being still alive after the so-called Mayan's end of the world.

21st

I am officially 21 years old, have been on this planet earth for 21 years. Long eh? Yea I found it is a little too long as well.

Not sure if staying in Windsor for the summer is a right choice or not. But if just for birthday's sake, I should totally go back home. However, AIESEC has really done a great job in their National Leadership Development Conference in Toronto. And luckily AIESEC Windsor has me occupied if not I am going to death because of boredom in Windsor.

Thanks to these adorable AIESECers of Windsor, they sung me birthday song in a Subway in Toronto :)




Got almost 300 birthday wishes on Facebook, several text messages, and 1 birthday song from Cecilia, my best friend. Oh I got presents from my Japanese host family as well, my parents mailed it to me :)
So, what is it feel like to be 21?
I think my experience is kind of special compare to my fellow friends where they have big big party, shinny clothing, numerous of people attend, awesome looking cake, presents and etc.
Oh wait, I sound like I am complaining. Actually no. I like the way how I became 21, low profile, sometimes I do not like to be treated like the main focus, just do not like it. However, I did not have any cake though, that is the only thing I have concerned. 
I am grateful for what I am having right now. Thank you mum and dad for everything, thank you for trusting me so much, thank you for supporting whatever I am doing. I am trying my best not to let you guys down.
Birthday wishes?1. Teng lang and Kelinga please get out from my life.2. VP Comm hopefully.3. Get the house settled.

2012 Resolutions

 Bye 2011.

Hello 2012.

2011 wasn't that bad for me, had my time in INTI, Winko, got to spend time with best friends before I leave, then to the place where my dreams come true-Canada. 

Looked back at my 2011 resolutions, what had I done so far? Did I fulfill most of them? I would say, I do :) But the clubbing part I failed to do so. LOL. 

So, this year will the first whole year I spend outside my home, resolutions should be very different compared with last year.There you go:

1. Stop being racist

2. Get a job/save money

3. Make more friends

4. Become less shy

5. Stop being anti-social

6. Read more. Should really sit down one day, just read, nothing else.

7. Less Facebook

8. Learn how to draw. Eventho will be teach in class but I really need to learn some basics.

9. Find myself

10. Don't let anyone influence me

11. Travel in the United States of America

12. Exercise more

While goals for life basically the same: 

1. Own a themed cafe/bakery or restaurant

2. Get a certicifate/diploma in pastry and baking 

3. Get a certificate/diploma in pets grooming 

4. Backpack travelling (New Zealand first)

5. Learn more languages

6. Own a house, apartment will be enough, and decorate myself! Have some plans in mind already

7. Get my parents imgrate to somewhere after they retire 

8. Own a company (new!)

9. Visit Italy (new!)

10. Do something extreme (i.e Bungee jumping, CN Tower edge walking) 

I am 21 years old now! That means I am an adult now no matter in what country. HOW SCARY IS THIS?   I don't want to grow up, I don't want to feel old, I don't like the feeling of having many responsibilities on my shoulder, I don't want everything I do is related to money. WA AI ZHO GINNA!

And darn, I am single for 20 years already, and possibly for this year as well #foreveralone Ceh, don't care la, you will get what is yours in the end.

Not really in a mood of writing tho, uploading massive of photos to Facebook is very tiring. 

Patience

I strongly believe that annoying people in your life is to train your patience to encounter more annoying people in the future.

Have been dealing with kinds of people like annoying ones, crazy ones. as in not sampat that kind of crazy but real crazy, for example self abuse, not even kidding, self-obsessed ones, over confident ones. I am still alive and sane, can you believe that? LOL

Sometimes I tell people who I don't really know much yet to test my patience, some of the reasons is that I wanna know my limit. LOL. Like really, have you ever see me get mad until everything lost control? Hardly? Never? LOL. When I get cranky I usually go to a more rational way, it just won't ruined my way terribly, weird. Is like I swore, I cursed, then I forget, I know, I have a little of angrophobia.

I can deal with almost everything, just don't try to reach to the (super low) bottom line or some sensitive parts :D Life is good man!

PEACE!

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Excuse my narcissim, I just plain happy and plain bored.

Tooked a photo of myself wearing singlet and long jeans and uploaded on Facebook.

What I didn't expect it, I actually can get over 40 likes! Woot woot!

First time ever!

Big thanks to whoever liked it, simply made my day!
Woohoo!

成熟的自己

1、遇到不想回答的问题，直视对方的眼睛，微笑、沉默。

2、走路抬头挺胸，心情不好时，不想跟人招呼，点头微笑，径直走过。

3、请记得，好朋友的定义是：你混的好，他打心眼里为你开心；你混的不好，他由衷的为你着急。

4、做自己的决定。然后准备好承担后果。从一开始就提醒自己，世上没有后悔药吃，而我永远有个计划

5、自己分内的事情，努力做到一百分。

6、接受自己不过是个“小小的我”，但眼里要能够悦纳“大大的世界”

7、如果你爱某人请给他自由，属于你的永远会回来，不属于你的永远也得不到。

8、不要试图给自己找任何借口，错误面前没人爱听那些借口。

9、不要随意发脾气，谁都不欠你的。

10、不说谎话，因为总有被拆穿的一天。

11、别低估任何人。

12、你没那么多观众，别那么累。

13、过去的事情可以不忘记，但一定要放下。

14、别人说的记在脑袋里，而自己的，则放在心里。

15、社会是有等级的，很多事不公平。别抱怨，因为没有用

16、你永远没有你自己想象中那么重要。

17、钱能解决的问题统统不叫问题。

18、无论何时说“我爱你”，请真心实意。无论何时说“对不起”，请看着对方的眼睛。

19、永远不要以貌取人。慢慢地说，但要迅速地想.

20、找点时间，单独呆会儿。

21、不是自己的东西不要，就是再喜欢也不行，要懂得放弃。

22、不要觉得是生活亏欠了你，其实是我做的努力不够。

23、努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，愿望就会实现。

24、说话时慢慢地说，但要迅速地想.

Thanks Momma

My mum likes to send random things for me, this is what she sent just now:

2/5/91
You born on: Thursday
Age in year: 20
Age in month: 240
Age in week: 51110
Age in day: 7301
Age in hour: 175235
Age in minute: 10514106
Age in second: 630846351

Not sure if she calculated herself or what, anyway, tak mor (Thanks mum in Danish).

Happy Birthday to Me.

Finally, 20 years old is here, although I want it to come slower, but hey, who can control the speed of time?

So yea, like back to elementary and high school, my birthday always stuck with exams, and this year birthday so coincidentally falls on exam too, hell yeah. screw INTI.

Received several wishes from friends via texts, and bbm, guess they are the only people who really read my Facebook status? Haha. Man, really wonder how is my Facebook wall look like now. Arghh, don't tempt me to log in Facebook!

How I celebrated my big day? With movies "You Again" and "The Lost Future", with my lil bro and his noisy but adorable friends. I just like to hang out with them, sarcasm much, swears a lot, no fake, let me feel so relax infront of them. LOL.

Early morning, I received the best present from my lil bro and one of his friend--drive my Honda go around our place. DAMN. Not sure who is the driver, but pretty sure is my bro's friend, because I know my bro well and his friend is a car freak. =.=

Ahh well, mum gave me a present too--an order to pick her up at Eng Ann. She just came back from Ipoh for some Lion Club thingy. Ok fine, she treated me and my bro Japanese cuisine, without dad, he still outstationing. On the whole eating process and atmosphereis just weird, Japanese food without dad? WTF WEIRD! Anywho, thanks mum, although just now I am not in a Japanese food mood, sorry. =/ And thanks for sending back me to Nilai.

So yea, due to exam, me and my besties decided to postpone the birthday celebrations for another day, the day after I came back from Pulau Perhentian. Gosh, gonna party kao kao that night. Opps, when I mean party doesn't mean alcohol and dancing bla bla shit, just plain food and laughs! Our style of partay!

And also, I thought SFU would give me something special as well, meh, I better off stick my butt on the chair and wait looooonger.

Last but not least, I didn't get wish from 2 person I thought they might wish :(
Oh well, I will just make it this way, either they forgot, they busy, or, they just don't want to. Kthxbai, close case.

BACK TO STUDY!

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OH WAIT!
HOW COULD I MISS SUCH IMPORTANT THING?
I FORGOT TO MAKE MY WISHES LAH! *although without candles*

1. I want to go Canada
2. I want to go SFU
3. My family and friends happy and healthy forever

Ok, bye.

改变

不要因为别人说你女孩子就该有女孩子的样子而改变，
不要因为别人有而你没有就改变，
不要因为别人说什么都以为有道理而改变。

认为自己有需要才改变，不要因为其他人认为要改变才改变。

我的不变哲理就是不变。

p/s: 为什么我会这么说？下回分晓。

Out Of Me

You know, sometimes you just need to be a little bit out of yourself to find the true self.

Yes, is that simple.

How I wish I can have 48 hours for 1 day.

I have no time to blog at all, so I will make it very short this time. Basically everything last week turned out well, not bad, satisfied.

One bad thing is I found out I dreamt a lot when I was sleeping, and every morning when I wake up I will very very tired, I mean exhausted. Types of my dream can be action, scientific, comedy, like movies huh, and some of them have more than 1 episods. omfg.

I dont want any dreams anymore I just want to have a nice sleep! =(

2011 Resolutions

Well, I actually planned to write this after I done all my Denmark posts, however the situation now doesnt allow me to do that. I'm using dad's office computer, therefore no photos for Denmark posts. Aiks.

I need to post this anyway why dont just write it now, since I'm so darn free now. LOL.

2011 Year, might be a very different year for me I guess, gonna celebrate Chinese New Year, Valentine's day and some other events without him, leaving this country for tertiary studies at the end of this year, first year without spec, and mostly importantly, I'm 20 years old now (wtf).

Before I start, lets review my 2010 resolutions first shall we?

- gain weight *this used to be a must for every year, but this year I don't need anymore! =P*
- drive out of this state
- strive in ICPU
- do something extraordinary
- MASTER MY ENGLISH ENGLISH ENGLISH! *MUST!*
- help out my brother in SPM *although he is a super lazy shit*
- spend more time with my another 三朵金花
- make more friends in ICPU
- learn Japanese
- break my current record, drive 140km/h, target: 150km/h
- do more sports lah, bone becoming stone d

copied from Late Regards!!
First, I did gained weight.
And I drove out of Selangor to Negeri Sembilan, but I think still not enough =P.
Did I strive in CPU? Errrrr I guess so. XD
Do something extraordinary, hmmm, joined prom committee, go Pulau Redang with friends that I knew for less than 1 year, joined student government in INTI, what else? Quite a lot for 2010.
As for English, thanks to Dr. Lim Ho Peng, I improved A LIL BIT, note that, a lil bit. LOL.
Next one, okay, I wonder why I wrote that last year that I said I wanna help out my bro for his SPM, this idea is so ridiculous, because he don't need my help AT ALL, he gone through his SPM very smooth *I said this in a very sarcastic way, to people who know my brother well will get what I mean LOL*.
2010 I did spent a lot time with my darlings, in fact we yamcha-ed a lot, chat a lot, laughed a lot. XD
Next item, make more friends in CPU, well, the result is pretty obvious. =)
I failed to learn Japanese, I don't have time. =/ No lar, the truth is I afraid to attend lesson alone, lol. So this item, FAILED!
Hahahahaha, did I exceeded 150km/h? Seriously I-DONT-REMEMBER-AT-ALL. =____=
I climbed Bukit Tabur, jogged a lil bit while I was at INTI, considered sports eh?
Overall I give myself 75% for 2010, if 29/11 doesnt happen it would be 100%.

I have to move on, therefore I'm coming out with this 2011 resolutions.
1. get over the emo-ness
2. study harder, no more slack
3. learn more than one Malaysian cuisine, to cook at Canada
4. stay fit and healthy
5. spend more time with family and friends.
6. improve PhotoShop skill
7. learn to use other editing softwares
8. study more history about this world
9, go clubbing at least once before I leave M'sia
10. reserved

2011 I'm gonna be 20 therefore I wanna update my goals of life, a revised version compare to few years ago.
1. Own a themed cafe/bakery or restaurant
2. Get a certicifate/diploma in pastry and baking (new!)
3. Get a certificate/diploma in pets grooming (new!)
4. Backpack travelling
5. Learn more languages
6. Own a house, apartment will be enough, and decorate myself! Have some plans in mind already
7. Get my parents imgrate to somewhere after they retire (new!)
8. reserved
9. reserved
10. reserved

That's all about it. 2011 gonna be awesome, I hope, I believe and I will try to make it possible. =)

FAT crisis!!!

I AM FAT!! WTF I AM FAT!!! 53 is like the higest weight I got before!! WTF!!
*wait I shouldn't shout like a girl. O_O
*oh wait, I am a girl. =/

Sial.
53kg sounds TERRIBLE to me!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYYYYY
I eat with the same way, same style, same amount and WHY my weight will increased????

Maybe because I always sleep late when I staying at Nilai. =/
SLEEP LATE WILL CAUSE FAT OKAY????

Somehow when I measure at my house I got the result of 46kg, wtf?
Which one should I trust?

And and and, I still feel uncomfortable after the blood donation, feel tired easily.
Even I got difficulties when climbing 4 floors straight. WTF.

I want my body back, I want my body back. =/

First Blood Donation

Leo club Inti is having blood donation drive, it last for 3 days, aimed for 250 donors. They broke their record in the end, 309 donors! Woohoo!

I went for the last day one. =)
Accompanied by Jinn Chuan, since he got 7 times of experience in blood donation and he was free at that time.

Filled up form, stood on weight measurer, blood type tested, is A+, blood pressure tested then proceed to the next step, a room for blood donation.

Saw many people lying on chairs, blood flow through a tube into a bag, ewwww.
One of the Malay nurses asked me to lie down on one chair, then asked my name and blood type, next started to put a lot of stuff on my lap, needles, cotton, tube, plastic thing. GOSHHHH. Scaring me.

After 15mins laying on the chair and do nothing another nurse came, and do she suppose to do-poke into my skin! Ahhhhhh.
Btw, not very pain though, just that I don't dare to watch the process. LOL

According to Jinn Chuan, he viewed the form those nurses wrote on, I need to donate 450ml, which quite many for first timer. While his first time just 300ml. Why the hell I need to donate that many. =/

After 20mins I think, the blood bag already full, I was like "huh? that fast?". Had some milo and bread. after that So yea, my first blood donation just ended like that.

Wait, do you think is just like that?
Let me tell you,
NO!

Terrible things happened.
I wanna go back to my place to put the certificate because I didnt bring my file with me.
It was a sunny afternoon, I walk walk walk, then my eye sight started to blur, and blurer, blurer, blurer, until I could hardly see things infront of me.
Oh well, I shouldn't describe this as blur though, is something like, uhhh, I call this "solarize effect".
So whatever I saw is with this effect, grey background by the way.
And at the same time cold sweat keep on coming out from my body, as well as head ache.
WTF right.

When halfway, I finally cannot take it anymore, just sit on the road as if it can make me feel better and I don't and I can't care how people will look at me by that time.
After few minutes, I got back my vision and I stand up continue walking.
Later then, same thing happened again, and this time even terrible, BLACK OUT! WTF. I can see the tree infront of me just turn disappear just like that. OMFG!

Don't care, sit on the road again. In total this happened 3 times, and the road from cafeteria to my place is just so short and it can happen for THREE TIMES? WTF.

Well, actually this "solarize effect" happened to me before, and this is the third time.
First time was the time I having chicken pox, I actually yelled my mum for help but she was busy for something. Bah, lets dont talk about this, sad case.
Second time was after I drank red wine plus Carlbergs, and by that time no one notice my unusual.
P/s: I drive after the party. LOL

Oh yea, I don't really know what's happen.
And the pain in my head caused me to skip CSC101 lab class.
Annie and Duffy said I looked sick.
Blehhhh.

So in conclusion, should I donate blood again next time?
=____________=

Photo time!

Yay! Blood cert! =)

=)

For supplementary.

If you notice, I don't take picture recently, because I look SIBEH CHAM nowadays.
Thanks to tests and assignments.

I still feel a bit uncomfortable now.
Uekkkkk.

I am majoring Media Arts! =)

Quite a lot of people seems not really know what Media Arts is, I often just said it as "design", or something like mass commnunication.

So yea, what is Media Arts actually?

New media art is a genre that encompasses artworks created with new media technologies, including digital art, computer graphics, computer animation, virtual art, Internet art, interactive art technologies, computer robotics, and art as biotechnology.

In short, media artist design by using computer or technologies! =))

I like design, and I am now in charge in designing t-shirt, and posters to Intima. Hahahaha, damn proud. =P

DOUBLE

I have double personalites, you make the judge. =P

I Am A Collector/Nostalgic Person, so what? =P

I can say shifting house might be the most suffer thing ever in my life, because I have so many things to pack! Double of my brothers!

No, not cloths, you guessed wrong. =P

Basically, I don't throw things easily, especially those someone gave it to me, I will keep it until I die I think. =P

I don't remember since when I have such habit. O_O

Meanwhile, I collect things, I collect every nice things around me, even nice looking sweet wrappers. LOL

However, this hobby is decreasing year by year, and most of the time I don't have time to arrange them. =/

BUT, I still keeping them, most of them, from Standard 1 UNTIL NOW! =)

Shifted them safely from old house to new house.

Well, I do throwed some, which made me heartache much. =(
But no choice I have to throw, if not I will suffer with my mum non-stop nagging.
She used to call me 'lap-sap po" (trash woman) because I collect a lot of "trash". LOL.

So yea, let me proudly present my collections!

My stamp albums! I have 5 in total.

My collection journey started at Standard 1. *How messy is my handwritings when I was Standard 1* =.=


These cute lil booklets were very famous in primary school, we used these to write our biodata on it, how cute. LOL. The one with "Bobdog" was Standard 3's. While “Qoo" was Standard 6. Full of memories, can act as source to connect them back. =)


Birthday cards! I never throw them away, any one of them! =)
Earliest one was Standard 5, received from Xsu Ting and Shin Yee.


*Uhmm Nicky came disturb when I was busying packing =.=*
So yea, Chinese New Year cards! I still have ALL with me though. Hahahahaha. X)


Files! Duh! LOL. Includes Form 4 and 5 exam papers, trial papers, SPM questions papers, CPU materials.

Other than that, I collect stickers, red packets (ang pows), buttons, sweet wrappers, books (especially about dogs or animals), postcards, handcraft things, cute things, containers, bla bla bla all shits like that.

And yea, I still have every birthday presents with me, I think, majority of them I can say, and also sovenir from friends, gifts from host parents at Okinawa, booklets from camps, certs uhhhhmmmm.

So, if you come into my room you might be like, "whoa, you got like all kind of stuffs in your room". LOL.

When I'm free/bored, I like to take them out and look, can really kill time. =)

GOSH, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T SHIFT HOUSE AGAIN, I DON'T WANT TO THROW ANY OF THEM AWAY. =(
Plus, too many to pack lahhhh.

That's The Way I Like, Aha.

-Changed security settings on Facebook, only allow friends to comment and view photos.
-Deleted anonymous on Facebook and Msn.
-Appear offline on Facebook.

I like the result after I have done all these.
No more annoying people, perverts, desperados and so on. =)

I should do this earlier, way earlier. =.=

First webcam-whore in my room! =P

Stupid is as stupid does.

I am that kind sohai that do sohai things.
This is called 傻人有傻福。

Received this special postcard from Australia! =)

Stupid is as stupid does-Forest Gump.

This is not random post, just want to shout out.

I am not really stupid, people can act.
I know every happening around me, I am not senseless.
Sohai is just my mask. You will never know the real me.

What You Got?

Apparently, I found out that I usually surrounded by people who are much better than me, no matter academically, or they have special talents.

I haven been asked lately
"What are your talent(s)?"
Man, seriously, I had stunned for few seconds just to think of the answer.

What I am good at?
To be honest, I don't really know.

Some said I am good in writing,
while you reading my blog do you think that I have the writing skills?
LOL
But, tell you something,
one of my articles been published when I was in primary school,
I got rm3.50 as allowance. =D
Chinese essay lah of course!

Some said I am creative.
You know, design thingy.
This is one of my interests,
but I don't dare to say I am good at this,
my creations are just so so.
But hey, my mum said I'm sensitive with colours!
And that's why she asked me to choose paint colour for the new house. =)

And music,
Ish, now everyone around me knows how to play at least one instrument!
However, I didn't regret that I gave up piano at Grade 2,
because I have no interest on it at all. =/
Anyhow, people who can play instruments are always attractive than people who don't know. =P

What else ahhhhh.
See! Told you I don't have any!
Blerghhh, I'm just emo here.

Fine la, I'm joker okay?
I can make you laugh! Blehhh.
Well, it depends on my mood lah.
I can be very psycho at sometimes. =)

Okay, the point of the post is appreciate what you got la,
don't like me apa pun tak tau. XD

Ehhh, I just remembered there is one more!
My driving skill and I can speed! Whoooooshhhhhh~
The fastest record: 160km/h at Kesas Highway.
Really, the fastest can only be 160km/h, for the Honda.
More than that, the Honda can produce bubble milk tea if I placed a milk tea inside. =D

I wanted to learn MORE!!
I want to learn how to speak and write Japanese or other foreign laguages.

Oppsie! I forgot that I can bake! Woot!
Anyone wants to order my cheese cake?
It's pretty famous among my friends and my family.
Hohohohoh.

Damn, I felt much relieved now.
I'm useful okay?
It doesn't matter if I cannot score well in exams or I can't play instruments or what-so-ever,
I am me! I am the one who control myself!

!@#$%^&*
Fine,
I admit,
I am jealous at people who can play instruments. =.=