“自从你从4M下来后你变得好胜，爱比较…”-思恩
对，4M的确是我人生多个转折点中的其中一个。我曾经不闻不问，不世俗，万事都随便，走一步算一步的态度快让老妈子抓狂。那个时候的我，可以说是精神上的邋遢，在加上金牛座的固执性格，没人说得动我，改得了我。
M班是当时小学的精英班，很多那班的学生现在都在接受着政府的奖学金在国外深造。可想而知，以一个普通学生的身份加入精英班是多么的有意思。压力和紧张是每天环绕在4M里的元素，学生在一角落狂背课文，学生在另一角演算数学题…没有一刻轻松空闲的时候。
久而久之，我知道我的随性在这里是生存不了的。所以慢慢的我也学会了一些M班生活法则。拿到测验后的比较在M班似乎是不可避免的，几乎每个人在班上都有他们认定的考场上的“对手。”虽然之后我在班上的排名一直垫底，在M班培养的习惯也已经摆脱不了了，也造成我现在这种个性-他妈的要强。
4M不是唯一造就我这种性格的因素，另外一个是我爸，背后原因是我家。黄家虽然大，可是真正成大事的没有一个。感觉上老爸对我的期望很高，可能是我的成绩是他三个孩子中最好的一个吧。但是老实说，我的成绩一点都不好，真的不好，我不想被归类成那种假惺惺的人，上学期CGPA 8.79 (2.5)，如何？不知道为什么别人总以为我是那种很会读书的人。若我没常常去图书馆，我现在应该已经被退学回去马来西亚了。我是唯一也是第一个在国外上正式的政府大学的人，毫无前例。上大学一直是老爸的梦想，所以在各种情况下我警告我自己，不可以他妈的倒下。
老爸也说加入社团，在学校找个工作。现在我两个都有了，而且都做的很好。但是我很累，真的很累。但是我不能随便退出，不想被人说不负责任。而且在工作和社团里都得到了非常大的成就感，慢慢地学业就落后了，second year真的是他妈的一点都不容易，他妈的多readings，他妈的image课老师以为我们只上一堂课总是要我们用两天完成他妈的多东西。老娘是完全没有时间啊fuck。
不知道这个是我的limit了，还是我还可以有进步的空间，还可以做比这个更多的。我希望是二者吧，至少在未来生活不会跌个狗吃屎。
Monday, September 24, 2012
Thursday, September 20, 2012
金牛座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说金牛座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，金牛座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了金牛的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，金牛座就是这样的试验品！
Oh god, I am still in this deep whirlpool. I like the current situation, though I am looking forward for what's up next.
I do not feel like let go, at all, for 21 years, you are the first one ever that gives me feelings like this.
Now the thing is, should I hold on? Do you worth my time? Are you the right one?
Oh god, I am still in this deep whirlpool. I like the current situation, though I am looking forward for what's up next.
I do not feel like let go, at all, for 21 years, you are the first one ever that gives me feelings like this.
Now the thing is, should I hold on? Do you worth my time? Are you the right one?
Friday, August 10, 2012
It's Just A Name
If you are stalking my Facebook, you probably remember that I posted something about Chinese addresses people in full name, no matter how close their relationship is. However I found this extremely irritating, because in Malaysia when people call you in full name means you are in deep shit, right? I guess same as in North America, when a mum shouting at her rebellious son yada yada, she yelled at her son in full name.
So, I asked one of my Chinese friends for the reason. She said it's because some of the people only have 1 character after their last name like Ma Chao, Yu Hang, etc. It would be awkward if we just call them by their first name only, like Chao, or Hang, you won't want to call them Chao Chao or Hang Hang right? Which makes a good point though, because most of the Chinese people in Malaysia has 2 characters after last name, like mine, Wong Win Shi. So people would like call me Win Shi. For them, by just addressing people in first name will give them goosebumps because they think that sounds too intimate, LOL.
But still, since I have so many Chinese friends in Windsor, whenever they call me in full name I feel uneasy, felt like they are being rude, like how mum usually yell at me back home. LOL. However, that's my side of story. My friends feel uncomfortable too when local people call them in first name, so most of them got themselve an English name instead. And another problem is non-Chinese could not pronounce Chinese name correctly.
So yea, that's the cultural-shock.
So, I asked one of my Chinese friends for the reason. She said it's because some of the people only have 1 character after their last name like Ma Chao, Yu Hang, etc. It would be awkward if we just call them by their first name only, like Chao, or Hang, you won't want to call them Chao Chao or Hang Hang right? Which makes a good point though, because most of the Chinese people in Malaysia has 2 characters after last name, like mine, Wong Win Shi. So people would like call me Win Shi. For them, by just addressing people in first name will give them goosebumps because they think that sounds too intimate, LOL.
But still, since I have so many Chinese friends in Windsor, whenever they call me in full name I feel uneasy, felt like they are being rude, like how mum usually yell at me back home. LOL. However, that's my side of story. My friends feel uncomfortable too when local people call them in first name, so most of them got themselve an English name instead. And another problem is non-Chinese could not pronounce Chinese name correctly.
So yea, that's the cultural-shock.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Bye Bye Black
So, if you are following me on Twitter, you might know that I am officially a brunette right now. Well, half brunette.
Yup, I dyed my hair, like finally. Most of my friends dye their hair immediately right after secondary school graduation. I think I am the only one who dye her hair at this age, lol. Not that I don't want to dye my hair, I had the attempt but not that strong. And also one sentence from my mum actually stopped me from dying my hair. She said it would be a waste to dye my hair because my hair is naturally black, not many people can get as black as mine. I was like, whoa, I am privileged. That's the reason I am black hair for, uh, 21 years. LOL.
So, why did I decided to dye? Lame answer: because it was on promotion. LOL. Yea as simple as that. I am an uber stingy person just so you know, I love buying cheap stuff, I love pasar malam cloths! lolwtf. Yea anyway, so I am no longer black hair.
So here's the outcome.
Yup, I dyed my hair, like finally. Most of my friends dye their hair immediately right after secondary school graduation. I think I am the only one who dye her hair at this age, lol. Not that I don't want to dye my hair, I had the attempt but not that strong. And also one sentence from my mum actually stopped me from dying my hair. She said it would be a waste to dye my hair because my hair is naturally black, not many people can get as black as mine. I was like, whoa, I am privileged. That's the reason I am black hair for, uh, 21 years. LOL.
So, why did I decided to dye? Lame answer: because it was on promotion. LOL. Yea as simple as that. I am an uber stingy person just so you know, I love buying cheap stuff, I love pasar malam cloths! lolwtf. Yea anyway, so I am no longer black hair.
So here's the outcome.
I hate taking photos in my room, the lighting sucks to the max, LOL. However, you can see it from my recently uploaded photos on Facebook.
But, I don't think people noticed it, is it because I didn't announce it publicly? As in on Facebook? If yes, omg, what has this society became? All rely on social media? LOL.
What I will do is, patiently wait until someone points out, hopefully that person will be le guy. lolwtf.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Way Back to Tzu Chi
I cannot believe I was actually there. At the United States of America Tzu Chi Collegiate Association Leadership Conference 2012in Dallas, Texas, as someone who haven't been in touch with Tzu Chi for 2 years plus. As someone who is not an official Tzu Ching.
Never thought about I will have the chance to stay in touch with Tzu Chi again in the North America. My mum told me to get involve with after I arrive Canada but after all the searchings the closest one I could get is Detroit Chapter, and nearest one in Canada is Toronto's chapter. At the end the thought of joining Tzu Chi slowly faded out from my mind as school stuffs come all together.
How I did join Tzu Chi? Well, I joined as a Tzu Shao at first, kind of forced by my mum because her friends are sending their kids to their as well. I was pretty igorant because I already an athiest at that time, Buddha's teachings are just a no-no for me. As time goes by, month by month lecture and activities, (Why I never skip class every month? Because I am a obedient kid, lol) Tzu Chi showed me a different world. Buddha's teaching has nothing to do with religion, it is a philosophy, a way of life.
Later on, I was given a position, as a photographer, plus senior Tzu Shao. From that moment, my perspective of Tzu Chi has changed totally. Because of Tzu Chi, I started to care more about the society, at least be aware of what is happening at the surrounding. And I started to do volunteering because of Tzu Chi. I remember one of the Shi Gu said volunteering can be addictive, which is very true. Volunteering brought me to a whole new journey, I became active, more sociable, the change is even obvious when I was in INTI. Until now, I hold 2 executive positions in my university, and possibly 1 more incoming.
The conference was epic. Met back with Fion and SynDee was awesome, got to know people from all over the states was fantastic! It is so heartwarming when seeing those Shi Gu and Shi Bo contribute their time and hardwork without asking anything back, they never complain! This really touches my heart because Shi Gu Shi Bo back in Malaysia, at least in Klang Chapater weren't this helpful until this extend. Shi Gu Shi Bo in the states are like living in a Tzu Chi world, willing to do anything for Tzu Ching and Tzu Chi, selflessly. In the conference, they mentioned about communications between Tzu Ching and Shi Gu Shi Bo is difficult because most of the Tzu Ching does not understand Mandarin and Taiwanese while Shi Gu Shi Bo are not fluent with English. However Shi Gu and Shi Bo promised to try their best to improve their language. From my point of view, shouldn't Tzu Ching try to learn Mandarin and Taiwanese instead? Since youth can learn things easier and faster.
This conference mostly talked about vegetarism and leadeship. However, I think the coolest part in this conference was we got to skype with Master Cheng Yen during the morning ceremony in Taiwan. It was a very special moment, and I almost cried, lol. Master Cheng Yen could actually see us! :') Leadership part of the conference did not really apply to me since I am not a real Tzu Ching LOL. However vegeterism class striked me quite hard. I had the thought of being a vegetarian but I don't have the perseverance to do it, I couldn't give up meat. But one thing I can promise myself is that I try to reduce the amount of the meat I consume, that is at least what I am able to do now.
Anywho, I have made friends from University of Michigan and University of Toronto, hopefully they will tag me along when they have Tzu Chi events coming.
Another thing I learnt from the conference. "To forgive others is to be kind to yourself." - Jing Si Aphorism
Never thought about I will have the chance to stay in touch with Tzu Chi again in the North America. My mum told me to get involve with after I arrive Canada but after all the searchings the closest one I could get is Detroit Chapter, and nearest one in Canada is Toronto's chapter. At the end the thought of joining Tzu Chi slowly faded out from my mind as school stuffs come all together.
How I did join Tzu Chi? Well, I joined as a Tzu Shao at first, kind of forced by my mum because her friends are sending their kids to their as well. I was pretty igorant because I already an athiest at that time, Buddha's teachings are just a no-no for me. As time goes by, month by month lecture and activities, (Why I never skip class every month? Because I am a obedient kid, lol) Tzu Chi showed me a different world. Buddha's teaching has nothing to do with religion, it is a philosophy, a way of life.
Later on, I was given a position, as a photographer, plus senior Tzu Shao. From that moment, my perspective of Tzu Chi has changed totally. Because of Tzu Chi, I started to care more about the society, at least be aware of what is happening at the surrounding. And I started to do volunteering because of Tzu Chi. I remember one of the Shi Gu said volunteering can be addictive, which is very true. Volunteering brought me to a whole new journey, I became active, more sociable, the change is even obvious when I was in INTI. Until now, I hold 2 executive positions in my university, and possibly 1 more incoming.
The conference was epic. Met back with Fion and SynDee was awesome, got to know people from all over the states was fantastic! It is so heartwarming when seeing those Shi Gu and Shi Bo contribute their time and hardwork without asking anything back, they never complain! This really touches my heart because Shi Gu Shi Bo back in Malaysia, at least in Klang Chapater weren't this helpful until this extend. Shi Gu Shi Bo in the states are like living in a Tzu Chi world, willing to do anything for Tzu Ching and Tzu Chi, selflessly. In the conference, they mentioned about communications between Tzu Ching and Shi Gu Shi Bo is difficult because most of the Tzu Ching does not understand Mandarin and Taiwanese while Shi Gu Shi Bo are not fluent with English. However Shi Gu and Shi Bo promised to try their best to improve their language. From my point of view, shouldn't Tzu Ching try to learn Mandarin and Taiwanese instead? Since youth can learn things easier and faster.
This conference mostly talked about vegetarism and leadeship. However, I think the coolest part in this conference was we got to skype with Master Cheng Yen during the morning ceremony in Taiwan. It was a very special moment, and I almost cried, lol. Master Cheng Yen could actually see us! :') Leadership part of the conference did not really apply to me since I am not a real Tzu Ching LOL. However vegeterism class striked me quite hard. I had the thought of being a vegetarian but I don't have the perseverance to do it, I couldn't give up meat. But one thing I can promise myself is that I try to reduce the amount of the meat I consume, that is at least what I am able to do now.
Anywho, I have made friends from University of Michigan and University of Toronto, hopefully they will tag me along when they have Tzu Chi events coming.
Another thing I learnt from the conference. "To forgive others is to be kind to yourself." - Jing Si Aphorism
Gan En :)
Thursday, July 12, 2012
10 Myths About Introverts
You considered yourself as an introvert? Read these 10 myths and think about it again. Because I know I am.
Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk. This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
I can talk non-stop if it's food or movie related. Topic about hot/cute guys will do too.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy. Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.
Yes, just fucking talk to me, what I need is just someone taking initiative.
Myth #3 – Introverts are rude. Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.
I hate hypocrites. If you wanna act, just go act in a drama, not in front of me.
Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people. On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.
I take relationships SERIOUSLY, if you fucked it up, sorry, no more chance.
Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public. Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.
It's like I get excited very fast and this excitement usually dies pretty early, like 1 or 2 hours of the event. Maybe because I cannot fully concentrate to have fun, I observe the surroundings while I am having fun, pathetic eh.
Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone. Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.
I like to be alone for most of the time however I want to have someone that I can rely on whenever I need help or talk. Also, I am an unicellular, I can only concentrate on ONE PERSON AT A TIME. Sorry if I let you feel abandoned, I tried my best.
Myth #7 – Introverts are weird. Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.
I have my own taste on things, deal with it. Stop telling me to wear makeups, heels, and dresses. If you like it so much, suck it yourself. And yes, I love to challenge the norm, I like to do things differently. LOL.
Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds. Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.
And this is why I daydream all the time. Surrounding of mine is just not that interesting.
Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun. Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.
LOVE THIS. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. However, this is kinda off, because I love roller coasters LOL.
Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts. A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.
I am comfortable being what I am now :)
READ FULL TEXT HERE
Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk. This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
I can talk non-stop if it's food or movie related. Topic about hot/cute guys will do too.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy. Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.
Yes, just fucking talk to me, what I need is just someone taking initiative.
Myth #3 – Introverts are rude. Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.
I hate hypocrites. If you wanna act, just go act in a drama, not in front of me.
Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people. On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.
I take relationships SERIOUSLY, if you fucked it up, sorry, no more chance.
Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public. Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.
It's like I get excited very fast and this excitement usually dies pretty early, like 1 or 2 hours of the event. Maybe because I cannot fully concentrate to have fun, I observe the surroundings while I am having fun, pathetic eh.
Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone. Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.
I like to be alone for most of the time however I want to have someone that I can rely on whenever I need help or talk. Also, I am an unicellular, I can only concentrate on ONE PERSON AT A TIME. Sorry if I let you feel abandoned, I tried my best.
Myth #7 – Introverts are weird. Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.
I have my own taste on things, deal with it. Stop telling me to wear makeups, heels, and dresses. If you like it so much, suck it yourself. And yes, I love to challenge the norm, I like to do things differently. LOL.
Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds. Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.
And this is why I daydream all the time. Surrounding of mine is just not that interesting.
Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun. Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.
LOVE THIS. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. However, this is kinda off, because I love roller coasters LOL.
Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts. A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.
I am comfortable being what I am now :)
READ FULL TEXT HERE
Friday, July 6, 2012
雨与强者
昨天傍晚雷电交加可是却迟迟不下雨，于是就逞英雄/很白痴的只带上钥匙，手机和钱包就往学校走。
原因纯粹是想淋雨。
我完全低估了加拿大的雨。它并不像想马来西亚那样倾盆，而是像有人拿着一桶水往你身上泼！再加上暴风，从四方吹来，有多恐怖就多恐怖。最后会议去不了，还被中国女生轻视地看我狼狈的样子。躲在Toldo看半个小时狂风暴雨，之后雨小了点才浑身湿透地走回家。
在那30分钟里，我做了一件平常不太会做的事情。在Facebook发了条“What/s better than this? All wet and stuck in school. Bravo.‘的状态。然后满怀期望地以为会有人来英雄救美，当时脑里心里就只想着一个人。还为此emo了好几个小时 TMD。
电影看太多吧，有谁会24小时在你身旁standby呢？失望是肯定有的，可是我还察觉到了另外一点。
我-变-弱-了
我一直以来都在很努力的塑造”我很强“的形象，成功地骗了不少人包括我自己。如果是以前的自己我可以肯定我不会因为这种鸡毛蒜皮的事情感到失望/emo。你老妈我就是不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽
引用CC的一句“如果真的喜欢，狠狠去一次是值得的。有时候，太理智真不是件好事。” 太理智的确不好，可是我做不到，因为我知道如果我失去理智我会变成一个超级大白痴，找不回理智的那种，所以我对我的理智hold得很紧。不过照现在看来，理智在慢慢消失。
因为我是单细胞，只能专注于一件事情。我似乎有生以来就知道，爱情在我的生命里有十分重的份量。对于爱情我只有两条路走，一是避开，二是陷进去。是的，我慌了。我已经不知道我在做什么了，满脑子只能想着一个可能或不可能喜欢我的人。*虽然有人已经爆料，但是本人就是没信心* 主动？被动？等？不知道？！你老娘我不知道不知道不知道啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
本来以为可以一直逃避，逃了21年终于还是被捆住了。
这就是我单身了21年的原因，被拒绝的男生们，谢谢你们的喜欢，对不起我们的缘分不够。
唉，不过，能遇到你，我人生值了。
This is not a blog post that you would expect from the Win Shi you know. Welcome to my dark side.
原因纯粹是想淋雨。
我完全低估了加拿大的雨。它并不像想马来西亚那样倾盆，而是像有人拿着一桶水往你身上泼！再加上暴风，从四方吹来，有多恐怖就多恐怖。最后会议去不了，还被中国女生轻视地看我狼狈的样子。躲在Toldo看半个小时狂风暴雨，之后雨小了点才浑身湿透地走回家。
在那30分钟里，我做了一件平常不太会做的事情。在Facebook发了条“What/s better than this? All wet and stuck in school. Bravo.‘的状态。然后满怀期望地以为会有人来英雄救美，当时脑里心里就只想着一个人。还为此emo了好几个小时 TMD。
电影看太多吧，有谁会24小时在你身旁standby呢？失望是肯定有的，可是我还察觉到了另外一点。
我-变-弱-了
我一直以来都在很努力的塑造”我很强“的形象，成功地骗了不少人包括我自己。如果是以前的自己我可以肯定我不会因为这种鸡毛蒜皮的事情感到失望/emo。你老妈我就是不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽
引用CC的一句“如果真的喜欢，狠狠去一次是值得的。有时候，太理智真不是件好事。” 太理智的确不好，可是我做不到，因为我知道如果我失去理智我会变成一个超级大白痴，找不回理智的那种，所以我对我的理智hold得很紧。不过照现在看来，理智在慢慢消失。
因为我是单细胞，只能专注于一件事情。我似乎有生以来就知道，爱情在我的生命里有十分重的份量。对于爱情我只有两条路走，一是避开，二是陷进去。是的，我慌了。我已经不知道我在做什么了，满脑子只能想着一个可能或不可能喜欢我的人。*虽然有人已经爆料，但是本人就是没信心* 主动？被动？等？不知道？！你老娘我不知道不知道不知道啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
本来以为可以一直逃避，逃了21年终于还是被捆住了。
这就是我单身了21年的原因，被拒绝的男生们，谢谢你们的喜欢，对不起我们的缘分不够。
唉，不过，能遇到你，我人生值了。
This is not a blog post that you would expect from the Win Shi you know. Welcome to my dark side.
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