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Winter Semester Week 4 Report

2012-01-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging for about 2 weeks already after the Thirsty Scholar's post, and I am still with a thing with Ryan! :P

A 'good' start!

Academic
So yea, I am taking 5 courses this semester, which is 15 credits in total. They are FAW II, Intro to Media and Society, Media Literacy, Studio Practice and Ideas/Space, and Studio Practice and Ideas/Drawing.

Foundations of Academic Writing II is just annoying as FAW I last semester, although it is online but the workload is crazy. Damn. Luckily this time is all about writing, less focus on grammar.

For Intro to Media and Society, to be honest, class have not really started yet. First class was the introduction, class expectation, bla bla stuff then second class supposed to have a presentation by someone from the library and then that person couldn't make it then the class was cancelled. This week in class talked something about media and stuffs. I think the professor is an American tho, the way she speaks is different with my other professors. And she looked too young to have a PhD! *salute* And she is darn skinny and fashionable! Wooooooo~ However, the bad news is, I need to write a research paper for this course #fml But the good thing is, I have so many companion in this class! Thao, Jakob, my RA-A Heidi, the China guy in my sculpture class, Sarah whom I just met today and the list goes on. LOL. So yea, hopefully this course will be easy :X

As for Media Literacy, I have to say. THIS IS MY FAVOURITE CLASS IN CANADA SO FAR! I have the same feeling towards Media Literacy like how I feel towards Computer Science in CPU and Philosophy in AUP! The professor is not the major reason, but the content, it is more like World Issues because we talked about Noam Chomsky, environmental issues, stuffs like that. The main thing about this course is to study those lies that media tell us. And most importantly, we will be going to have a chapter about DISNEY'S! Although is going to reveal the evil side of it but I am looking forward for it! Haha! And I have Thao again with me in this class! Wheeee~

Studio classes are pain in the ass, and purse at well! T.T Which makes me think of am I really suitable to Visual Arts. Studio Practice and Ideas/Space is sculpture class tho, most of us have no idea why is it called 'space'. LOL. Sculpture class is quite fun tho, the lecturer is indeed an artist, as in his characteristic-weird, haha! I kind of enjoyed the first assignment, except for walked 45mins just to get a light bulb. Why light bulb? Because our first assignment is to create an ugly lamp out of a lamp. Got a free lamp from Bethany because I have no idea where to get a lamp, couldn't afford to buy a new one because all of them are damn expensive and those secondhand stores are so far away :/ Don't feel like show you guys my sketch of the original lamp, instead I show the parts of it :P

Parts of the lamp

Sketch for idea.

Outcome.

The light bulb for the lamp is not typical one though, which caused me a lot of trouble. It is a biax, then I blasted it because I removed the ballast from the original, I know shit about those voltage and power stuff. Then paid visit to Zeller and Canadian Tire, zero result for a biax light bulb because Canadian normally use incandescent light bulb, part of the reason is Canadian Tire sell it for friggin $15 just for one. Emo-ed for few days then found a hardware store that sells biax light bulb, and cheaper too!But the place is located at 45mins of walking distance from my residence. Why I decided to walk but take public transportation or cab? First, I am uncertain with the bus route, and bus ticket for back and forth is friggin expensive :/ But still, I took a cab back to school because it is really far! Plus snows on the ground make it unpleasant to walk on it :/ In the end, the light bulb still dies off 1 day after the installation in SoVa Gallery! LOL. Not sure what grade I will get for this, hopefully is not a C because I saw a C on the lecturer's notebook O.o

One of the lamps, epic right?

Working on the lamp.

Lastly, DRAWING! It is exactly what I expected! Lots of drawing pros in the class and I am the worst! T.T And the first day was suck, I have to carry all these back to my room, and spent $100 for all these shits!

SHITS.

The cardboard height is until my armpit, and the 2 mill boards is darn heavy, I had hard time carrying them from LeBel Building back to the residence. I was like walked for few steps, stopped to adjust the position of the cardboard because it kept slipping down, and also wind that day was damn strong! It blown the cardboard fold into half, which saved my work because I need to fold it into half and tape the edges to make it a folder. DAMN. For the first month, alll we do is just draw lines, consist of squares, cubes, spheres, bla bla bla, by using pencil, she likes to call it graphite, charcoal and sharpie marker. On Wednesday class, she introduced the first independent project, which is to draw the psychological self. DAMN. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO DRAW. I KNOW SHIT ABOUT MYSELF. AND I AM SO GONNA FAIL THIS FREAKING STUDIO. o0o

Forced to sketch a lot.

Don't expect me to post my sketches online, I don't want my readers die because of this! Haha! No la, in fact I feel inferior =.= When you have people like Debra, Chantel, Elliot, XiaoYing on Facebook posting their so called 'simply' sketches, you will go 'why in the hell you can't draw?!' then stabbing yourself in mind for a million time. Okay la, I just don't want to embarrass myself =________= I am a pro in digital arts not fine arts okay? #mukatebal

Clubs/Social

Finally got a position in AIESEC! As a web manager! Hohohohoho!

First task of the position-flyer!

And they have a Business and Technology conference in Toronto soon, not sure if I want to go or not, cost is the thing in mind, secondly, I-don't-know, just feel awkward to step in Toronto again :X But I am looking forward for National Congress tho, but don't know when yet! :P

Attended the residence Winter Formal. Reason why I want to go because I want to experience the high school prom feel, as what they describe it on their posters. LOL.

Rome theme.

I was wearing Kira's dress, don't even bother to buy dress.

The event was BORING! No entertainment, no performances, NOTHING! But terrific food tho, especially the dessert!

Wearing like this in the weather of -5 degree Celsius. Couldn't feel my toes at all that time, haha!

Also, don't know why I missed all the VISA meeting, LOL, but I am joining their tubing trip at London! LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT! Besides, I applied to become a committee of UNICEF in Windsor, don't know if I should go to the interview or not because I foresee that AIESEC and those studio stuffs gonna kill me soon.

Random/Others

Kinda settled the housing for next semester? Still dealing with the housemates problems and the possibility of might get cheated because the landlord did not pick up his fucking phone since the day he collected our $100 each for deposit. Promised to meet up this Saturday for pay for last month and discuss the remaining problems, hopefully he is not a jerk. #prayhard

346 Askin

The location is perfect! 3 mins away from university, close to shops! But longer time to reach Lebel, sad art student's life. And everything is included, except internet. The best part is, no one has to live in the basement! COOLEST!

PLEASE, I REALLY WANT TO STAY IN THIS HOUSE, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! BAD THINGS PLEASE DON'T HAPPEN.

Windsor finally snowed! FINALLY!

Unknown sock and shirt in my laundry bag, creepy.

And, I NEED MONEY! Went to Eros, BimbimToGo, Seoul Windsor, HingLung, etc to ask if they need people or not. Apparently only HingLung called back, but my schedule doesn't allow, gahhhh gonna put all the hope on BimbimToGo as the lady said she need people on February! :D Not that I have no money in account, just that I feel bad to withdraw them :/

FINALLY! I AM GOING TO ATLANTA FOR READING WEEK! Jealous? :P I am going with Fantine, a girl I met in AIESEC, migrated to Canada from China since she is 8, wheeeee~

SO YEAAAA, THAT'S ALL FOR THE FIRST MONTH OF WINTER SEMESTER!

A Night In Thirsty Scholar

2012-01-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

Oh my godness, I haven't had this feeling since, 9 years ago? Is like electric shock, it goes all over my body. The smile, although he was a little bit tipsy, he still looked so attractive to me.

I know I shouldn't do this too often, but it just feel so good every time after I stepped out from the pub.

I think, I have a crush on him? I would definitely want to see you again, Ryan.

Sorry for spamming your timeline, my twitter followers. And and and, why guys who called Ryan normally looks cute? WHYYYYYYY

MACAROONS, Y U NO CHEAP?

2012-01-12T14:22:00.001+08:00

Okay, to be honest, this was the first time I tried macaroons, and I have no idea why girls so crazy with macaroons. They are just, normal, for me. LOL.

So, in order to show it's value, I took a picture of me eating one macaroon when I am eating. LOL. Seriously, 6 pieces for 9CDN? Is it a little expensive? Which means 1 macaroon is 1.5CDN, convert it to RM is around RM4.5 for 1 macaroon. Cheaper eh? Well, my roommate always buy macaroon from Starbucks, and it has a special name called Red Velvet Whoopie Pie. The price? 1.50CDN for one. Yea, my roommate is friggin rich.

And, did some research on Google, I found out macaroon is actually pretty easy to make, and it's ingredient is kinda simply. So tell me, why are they so expensive? WHY?

I will never buy myself macaroons anymore next time, I will rather spend my money on poutine! Haha!

This is LOVE?

2012-01-05T12:48:00.002+08:00

Talked too many about relationships these days, these days as in during final periods and days after I come back from Toronto and Montreal.

Often times I confused what is love, what is it different with like, and what exactly is like? I am sure that I like that guy for 9 years, freaking 9 years. How about after that? Got in touch with so many guys, in Facebook chatbox, message, MSN, Skype, text messages. Does these mean anything? Is it chat too much with a guy you will fall in love with him? Or is it because you already used of his existence then it explains why if he reply you late you will feel anxious? If it does mean something, then I have to admit that I used to like two of the guys that I always get in touch with.

But really, they chat with you is because they are just bored, or they really interested with you? That's the thing I never know, and I don't want to know now, it will only ruin our relationships now, it good to remain everything.

As for now, I am going to leave everything behind, forget about him, forget about that two, and move on. Most probably not going to be in a relationship in these years, Caucasian are too heavy for me, Malaysia is too far, long distance relationship is too hard, Windsor doesn't have Malaysian, not interested with China Chinese and Indians. #foreveralone

LOVE. I will never know how to define you.

2012 Resolutions

2012-01-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

Bye 2011.

Hello 2012.

2011 wasn't that bad for me, had my time in INTI, Winko, got to spend time with best friends before I leave, then to the place where my dreams come true-Canada.

Looked back at my 2011 resolutions, what had I done so far? Did I fulfill most of them? I would say, I do :) But the clubbing part I failed to do so. LOL.

So, this year will the first whole year I spend outside my home, resolutions should be very different compared with last year.There you go:

1. Stop being racist

2. Get a job/save money

3. Make more friends

4. Become less shy

5. Stop being anti-social

6. Read more. Should really sit down one day, just read, nothing else.

7. Less Facebook

8. Learn how to draw. Eventho will be teach in class but I really need to learn some basics.

9. Find myself

10. Don't let anyone influence me

11. Travel in the United States of America

12. Exercise more

While goals for life basically the same:

1. Own a themed cafe/bakery or restaurant

2. Get a certicifate/diploma in pastry and baking

3. Get a certificate/diploma in pets grooming

4. Backpack travelling (New Zealand first)

5. Learn more languages

6. Own a house, apartment will be enough, and decorate myself! Have some plans in mind already

7. Get my parents imgrate to somewhere after they retire

8. Own a company (new!)

9. Visit Italy (new!)

10. Do something extreme (i.e Bungee jumping, CN Tower edge walking)

I am 21 years old now! That means I am an adult now no matter in what country. HOW SCARY IS THIS? I don't want to grow up, I don't want to feel old, I don't like the feeling of having many responsibilities on my shoulder, I don't want everything I do is related to money. WA AI ZHO GINNA!

And darn, I am single for 20 years already, and possibly for this year as well #foreveralone Ceh, don't care la, you will get what is yours in the end.

Not really in a mood of writing tho, uploading massive of photos to Facebook is very tiring.

Je t'aime Montreal

2012-01-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

Spent 9 days in Montreal, Quebec. I have no words to describe my feeling towards Montreal, it is just breathe taking. Love the peacefulness, love the old buildings, love their friendliness.

Depart from Toronto right after the Disney's On Ice. It was a 5 hours trip by bus, since my camera and phone already die out of battery, the only thing I can do is sleep! Arrived at Ottawa Central Station at 4am, took the opportunity to charge both of the camera and phone. LOL. Pathetic eh?

Charging.

Ottawa Central Station.

Then took a transfer from Ottawa to Montreal, whole trip is about 2 hours and 30 minutes. Did the same thing on bus as well, sleep. Then one of our host in Montreal, Keat Yang picked us up at the Montreal bus station then brought us to our hostel.

Berri Uqam station. Bought a 3 days subway ticket here since we will be going to take subway to travel around Montreal.

After put our luggage in Auberge Alternative, the name of our hostel in Montreal, we headed to Chinatown for breakfast. It was cold in Montreal, like the day we arrived, temperature was like -12°C, and thin snow on the ground. And I was wearing my red Converse sneakers, with 1 pair of socks only. It-was-freezing! My toes got paralyzed for most of the time! Crazy!

On our way for food!

We had dim sum! It has been 4 months I never had dim sum :/

After eating, we walked around to kill some time because we can only check into our room at afternoon.

Snow everywhere!

Went to visit McGill University, where KeatYang and another host, HuiJing studying.

The main entrance of McGill.

Arts buidling.

Back to our hotel. They have common room with kitchen and serves free flow of coffee and milk. Love it!

Warm and homestyle feel.

Kitchen.

Dinner we had it in a Chinese restaurant with Andrew, Victor and Wawa together.

Next morning, it was Christmas day, so most of the shops are closed. We had no choice but to have our meal in McDonald's.

McChicken, always. LOL.

Then walked around in one of their shopping malls, Eaton Centre. As predicted, it was quiet, with all shops closed, well prepared for tomorrow's Boxing Day's sale.

Empty mall.

Snowflakes.

Then took a local bus to visit St. Joseph Oratory.

It was really cold that day. I put on 2 pairs of socks. Forgot to bring my boots sial. LOL.

Main attraction of the oratory. The heart of Saint Brother André, the founder of St. Joseph oratory.

This is the place where bunch of us had crazy times, played the song game, snow fight, etc.

Third day in Montreal. It's Boxing Day!

Quiet street, shinny sun, lovely buildings.

Not-so-lovely-crowd.

13 of us split into 3 groups, I guess. I was with KahWai, CheeWeng and Thien. Then later KahWai left us to look for his Lego set. We shopped around, got myself a purple sweater and 3 pairs of socks from Garage, and a Montreal shirt.

In order to save cost, tonight's dinner we decided to cook ourselves! Montreal's tax really can kill people :X

We had spaghetti! :D

The only thing is, the gang I go with loves onion and garlic very much. But the good thing is, I found my mates! Odd people like me who dislikes onion and garlic! Woohoo! This kind of people is like 1/10 of the world. LOL. Ok, well, exaggerated a little. Haha. However, we had fun picking out onions for dinners days after.

The next day. One of the best days of mine in Montreal. POUTINE DAY! I had Poutine couple of times back in Windsor, at first it was introduced by Soham in CAW. Then tried some in Croc's, but they make it too salty so I wasn't really like it that time. CAW's was good tho. People said that if you go to Montreal you must try their Poutine and Bagel. Here we are for this day, La Banquise, famous for it's Poutine! Good thing about this shop is, they open for 24 hours! Geeeee, Y U NO OPEN IN WINDSOR?!

Look at the line!

My Poutine Mart, consist of french fries, cheese, gravy, mushrooms and sausages! OMG YUMS!

So, after I had this Poutine, I am craving for Poutine for most of the time. Even the meal I had after I came back to Windsor is Poutine, and I just had a Poutine today. F-M-L. I have control myself to have only 1 Poutine per week. Is not about the fatness, it is really unhealthy, no nutrients at all :/ OMG POUTINE I LOVE YOU LAAAAAA! Every time I type the Poutine, Poutine will just pop in my mind, then, my stomach start to make noises, geeeeeeee, dengggg. STOP IT! STOP ITTTTT!

Okay, as for dinner. We bought stuff from a China marketplace in Chinatown. Saw lots of weird things, for example, ginger ice cream, ewwwww.

Before dinner, we headed to one of the tourist attractions of Montreal, Notre Dame Basilica!

Outside.

Inside. We were sort of forced to watch the stupid sound and audio show, which is darn stupid and wasted my $20. Basically the show is about the history of this basilica, they made it in a very cheesy way. LOL.

The real WHOA is after the show, which is after they remove the screens and open up the lights.

TAA-DAA!

And they have the biggest organ in North America! Take that!

It is built in Gothic style, which I should have learn it in my Ancient to Medieval class, but the lecturer didn't manage to get there. The feeling of reading the textbook itself is just not that impactful like how when I was in ROM. But still, I whoa-ed a little inside when they opened the lights, it is just...erm...whoa. Love how they use the blue colour in everything. Love how they put the gold stars on the ceiling. Wooooohooooo. It makes me want to go to visit the Pantheon even more!

Dinner we had rice with bean sprouts, crab sticks, taufu and many many garlic and onion =.=

Next day, first spot we visit was the Biosphere. We only went there for photo shot because it is not open for winter.

Biosphere.

Then headed to Bio Dome and Olympic Park.

Montreal Tower. Couldn't get up to this on this day because the weather was too foggy, if we go up we couldn't see a thing.

BioDome is basically like an indoor zoo, with 4 seasons, spring, summer, fall and, winter.

Saw monkeys, fishes, birds. penguins, beaver, porcupines, starfishes, ducks, seagulls, and etc.

Monkey!

They also exhibits things like eggs, nests, bones, fossils, amber and bla bla bla.

Tiny eggs.

Dugong's bones.

Visited the Olympic sized swimming pool as well.

My lucky day? :P

Then we had fried rice for dinner, as usual, with garlic. Meh, that night I really suffered a little bit, almost throw up. Blame my stomach for rejecting garlic. LOL.

It really taste good, I could finish all if without garlic seriously, sorry chefs T.T

Luckily we had awesome egg tarts for dessert! It's so delicious! Reminds me of the bakery in Bekerley T.T

6th day in Montreal is the coldest day, most of the guys were reluctant to go out hence KeatYang, Edmond, SuPing and me decided to go somewhere else rather than staying in the dorm do nothing. Introduced by KeatYang, we went to Juliette et Chocolat in St. Laurent. This place is totally a heaven for chocolate lovers,omgggg.

Chocolate! Chocolate! Chocolateeeee!

Got myself banana chocolate crêpe and The Liegese Chocolate. With dark hot chocolate, melted milk chocolate, and topped with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.

LOVEITLOVEITLOVEITLOVEITTTTTT! Their chocolate tastes soooo niceeee, so pureeeee, so chocolatelyyyyy. OMGGGGG. Sorry you guys have to bear with my this food lover, lol.

TAA-DAAAAA~

It's kinda small inside tho, very home-style feel :P

XiaoYing and HuiJing made us cornflakes cookie! It was so yummy, with peanut butterrrr, wooooo!

Had Nasi Briyani for dinner. Which I didn't eat, I eat white rice instead :P

Nasiiiii.

Glad we had decent dessert tho. Fruits with yogurt!

Thien, SuPing, KahWai and me was high on these, I don't know why. Haha.

Next day, we went to one of the Montreal's specialty-smoked meat!

My smoked meat.

For me I think is just so-so. Nothing special. LOL.

But this shop is really famous. A looooong queue outside right after we are done.

Then, took subway to hunt for Orange Julep. A drink consist of orange juice, vanilla, and egg.

This is how the shop looks like, super cute right.

Then, headed back to the Montreal Tower that we been to that day. It is the tallest inclined tower in the world, in Guinness World Record somemore, fuyoh!

Up up here we go!

Snowy Montreal :)

One of the best shot I ever got! Switch on your flash light when snow falling, that simple :P

Dinner, woots!

Fried rice, I think.

Finally, our last day in Montreal. First thing of the day was Beaver tail hunt. Is a must-eat-food in Montreal as well. Not really beaver's tail tho, it is like a fried flat bread, they make it look like beaver's tail :D

I had a chocolate flavour one, a little too sweet. LOL.

Then, paid a visit to Gay Village in Papineau.

I see muscles, woowoo!

:PP

Had bagel on the street was kinda a new experience for me :D Eating while cold wind blows, wooooo~

Sesame bagel with cream cheese, heaven!

People said if you never tried Montreal's bagel then you are considered never been to Montreal before. Indeed, Montreal bagel, somehow, taste better, more bread-ish, I don't know how to describe in details, it is just way better than other bagel I had! You must try it yourself if you have the chance.

Next stop, Point G, famous for their macaroons.

Colourfullllll. 6 pieces for $9, memang gila. LOL.

And this night's dinner was the best! Sushi all-you-can-eat! Woohoooo!

That restaurant is located somewhere here.

Sashimiiii. Omg their salmon is darn awesome, tastiest salmon I ever had, even in Malaysia!

I was kinda lucky to sit with those big eaters, hmmm, or it is just Thien and me? Anyways, I really enjoyed! Didn't really pay attention to all the conversations, just eat eat eat and eat. LOL.

Had the last hour of 2011 at Old Port, Montreal.

People mountain people sea.

And with a gang of Mexican shouting here and there like crazy people. Most importantly, there was no count down, just fireworks, and the whole fireworks performance lasted for 30 minutes, damn weird. LOL.

One of the shots.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Although this is not the first time I celebrated New Year Eve in snow, but this is the first time I celebrated in snow with a bunch of friends! The group hug was awesome, I never had it back in Malaysia :'D Thank you people of UofT!

The entire Montreal was fun! Love their buildings, love the poutine, Chinatown, French-style. Oh did I mentioned above? Quebec is a French speaking province, so road signs, buildings, even the people all speak in French, even Chinese in Chinatown! It feels damn weird to hear French from a Asian face. LOL. The only bad thing in Montreal is I didn't wear boots while walking on the snow, I forgot to bring, just sneakers with 2 pairs of socks inside, which is not sufficient at all. When the weather gets colder, my toes cramped like hell, walked like a puppet, dammit. And uh, remind myself next time try to avoid travelling with gamers or those who only like to play with their computer when travelling. Because, is kinda waste of time tho, and money as well, also is quite unfair for people who doesn't bring their laptop. Therefore most of the night those who didn't bring laptop played Chor Dai Dee to kill the time :/ My personal policy is never bring laptop when traveling, even when travelling in Malaysia. Other than that, they are pretty awesome travelling gang tho, definitely would love to travel with them some other day. Haha. And something I need to confess, I am in love with...

...

POUTINE!

And the crave has been started from the day I back in Windsor, the first meal I had in Windsor is poutine as well. GG. Need to control myself for only can have 1 poutine per week, if not I will die from heart attack one day, too much fats. LOL.

Nyeeeee, whatever, Montreal, I will visit you again, no matter what! :)

4 days in Toronto

2011-12-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Finally got to step my footprint on the busiest city in Canada. First feeling after I get off from the train was overwhelmed. The train station is so big, people here and there, busy walking to their destinations. If I were alone, I will definitely lost my way. Then took subway to meet up WeiChien, Philip, and SuPing in a sushi restaurant.

Our first place to visit of that day is Casa Loma, the former estate of Sir Henry Pellatt, a prominent Toronto financier, industrialist and military man. It is a castle style house, with 98 rooms inside, including master room, maids room, study room, etc. It is designed in Gothic style, too bad Dr. K didn't manage to teach Gothic chapter if not I will know more about the styles when I am visiting Casa Loma.

SuPing, Me, Philip, WeiChien and Edmond

My accommodation for these days was in 141 Brunswick, XiaoYing's room. People in 141 Brunswick consist of XiaoYing, KaYan, KahWai, WaiMeng, Allen, YiMing, JunSheng and another 2 juniors. They invited me to join their dinner on the first night of me in Toronto. Home-cooked food! Forgot to take photos because was too busy eating :P

Got the visit around University of Toronto campus. They have interesting buildings. Mixture of old styles and new styles, love it. How I wish U of Windsor can have classrooms like this as well. Bored with the squares already.

UofT Bookstore

Graduate building. Look at the glass bridge. Oh my my.

Robarts Library. Complicated patterns.

Very Hogwarts feel eh?

Victoria College. Castle style ♥

Okay, don't wanna flood this post will all photos, so I will stop here for UofT buildings.

After the UofT tour, went back to 141 Brunswick for Tang Yuan making.

Stuffs.

Making in process.

Pattern banyak banyak.

Dice-shaped Tang Yuan by WaiMeng

Cute owl snowman by XiaoYing.

It feels really good to have the opportunity to make Tang Yuan with a bunch of Malaysian people, it makes me feel home, feel like I am in Malaysian again, speaking mixed language, doing stuff that only Malaysian understand, laughing at Malaysian's jokes and etc. Definitely gonna miss it whenever festivals come. :/

Visited CN Tower in the evening, the tallest free-standing structure in the Western Hemisphere.

I am standing on 553.33m from the ground :)

Busy traffic under me.

Lights

CN Tower and me :)

It's been a while I see those busy city lights, from high, too much lights of Ambassador Bridge in Windsor, too little cars in Windsor, too quiet. The next time when I visit to CN Tower, definitely will try the Edge Walk.

Last day in Toronto. Visited the Royal Ontario Museum (ROM) in the morning.

Spiky building

First section in ROM, consists of Japan, Korea, and China.

Level 2, dinosaurs, T-Rex.

Tanystropheus

Smile with the beaver :D

One of the favourites: Minerals

One of the favourites as well: Greece

Etruscans' Sarcophagus

Egypt section. Listening to Hatshephut's story. Studied about she in Ancient to Medieval arts :D

Byzantine empire's Virgin (Theokotos) and Child. Had this in textbook as well :D

I enjoyed ROM very much, especially when I can relate to stuffs that I learnt in class. That's the experience I never had before, awesomeness! Definitely going to visit it again! :)

Had Hong Kong style dinner at King's

Then headed to Rogers Centre for Disney's On Ice. We missed the first part though, kinda sad. But never mind, better than nothing right? :)

Green soldiers.

Buzz, Woody and Jessie.

I don't know what is this, Anastasia?

Pinocchio.

Mulan.

Forgot to charge both of my camera and phone last night, both ran out of battery when I was watching Disney's On Ice, so didn't manage to take more picture for it. :/ However, watching things that is related to Disney's is indeed touching, feel like wanna cry, I sang along quietly when the show goes on :P DISNEY'S ROCKS!!!!!

Hopped on bus to Ottawa then Montreal after Disney's On Ice, another amazing part of my winter break 2011! :)

一句话

2011-12-20T15:24:00.001+08:00

我向来都是个记性很不好的人，可以有些话，我都会永远记得，好的坏的，作为警戒的，用来提防的。

“自从你从M班掉回B班后，我觉得你变得骄傲，好胜和喜欢比较。”
好吧，当时看这纪念册上的这句话的时候我是蛮震惊的，因为那整一年我都没发现我的改变。从第二班升上第一班再从第一班掉回第二班的感觉，不是每个人都可以经历到的。在第一班的那一年，每一天都是一种磨练。班里的每一个人都想用分数杀死对方，每一个老师都想尽办法想要把各类的书塞进学生的脑袋里。每一天，都过的战战兢兢的，然而第二班就轻松很多了。老实说，我不后悔我变成这样。这是我几年后才想到的，如果我不这样，我的人生就真的是没有目标了，没有战斗的理由了，不是吗？我曾经，什么都不管，什么事都随便，过一天算一天，这是人生吗？是啊，我过去式的人生。:)

“谢谢你愿意代替他来。”
听到这句话的第一个反应：WTF？我居然是代-替-者？真的是想都没想到，这句话真的完完全全破坏了我的那时的好心情。说的也是，明明就是一般的朋友 @.@ 算了，就怪自己不该把期望放得太高吧。:/

“他说你很强。”
这句话是老爸跟我说的。告诉他这句话的是我的前housemate，也就是我爸其中一个租客，也是我在INTIMA的老大。能被一个强的人说强我真的吓到了，让我不禁怀疑，我是不是真的有点强？无论如何，这句话的确改变了老爸对我的看法，以前一直想证明给他看，我不是，也不想当普通的女生。我要强到别人的话伤不到我，我要强到我什么是都做得到。20年来，我只痛哭过一次，也希望那一次会是最后一次。我是非常人！LOL

其他的，留到下次吧。这3句是印象最深刻的，其他的不太记得了，想到再写吧。

I Have Come So Far

2011-12-20T06:12:00.003+08:00

My Fall term 2011 in University of Windsor, Ontario, Canada is officially ended. Strange, it just strange, I feel like I still feel like I just arrived here few weeks. Back in INTI, 4 months for me is like a year. 4 months, the longest time I leave home ever, before was just 3 weeks. It just surprises me when I know my dad miss me more than my mum miss me. He told me more than 1 time in Whatapps that that he feels lonely without me at home. I am glad that I made a decision few years ago. I wasn't that noisy at home before this, troubles that brother brought made them very worried and depressed. At that time I try to make noises, talk to them a lot, try to bring the feeling of being in a family back together. Lil brother is exactly who I am before this, faces computer everyday, ignores parents' caring, doesn't care about the happening around. The attachment I made between me and parents seems kind of effective, and the good thing is brother's situation becomes better. He is now in Taiwan, not only study but also active in badminton competitions, which is, a big relief for my parents. Then coincidentally, we both depart at the same time but to different countries. All the time, I feel they like him more, or is it because they put all the concerns on him because he always cause problems? As my role, a so called big sister who follows whatever the parents said. Both of my brothers never actually treat me as their sisters, more like a friend.

Oi damn it, how in the hell I start with all these. Shush, back to the main point.

Okay, so, final exams finally finished. 4 months away from home is indeed a new experience for me, especially live in a country that is so so much different with Malaysia.

-Curriculum-

Never disappointed! I always looking forward to go to classes, especially German and Ancient to Medieval. Well, kinda feel like screw German hard because the final test is damn difficult. Was thinking of taking German as minor, but after the exam, nah, forget about it. As for Ancient to Medieval, ohmygod, it makes me want to go to Italy, Egypt, Turkey, German so so much. Learnt so much about the art history and the architectures and stuff. I don't want to talk many about Contemporary Visual Culture, because it is the weirdest course I have taken so far. It is about the art in modern days, learned spectacle, kitsch, postmodernism, field of vision, punk western bla bla bla. Inserted with so much of Canadian culture which I have zero knowledge of. Anyhow, I enjoyed the last assignment very much. And lastly, Foundations for Academic Writing I, an online course, nothing interesting but heavy workload.

Notes of Ancient to Medieval. Home Notes VS Lecture Notes

Assignment 3 of Contemporary Visual Culture: Visual Culture Book

-Lecturers and TAs-

My German language lecturer is Dr. Helbing. A 50-60 woman, seems like blur all the times, can't catch students' question most of the time. But I like her, she is very adorable, always give us small gifts like gummy bears, German coins, chocolate and etc. For Ancient to Medieval, I had Dr. Giles, I think he is around 40-50. Seems like a bored guy but always like to crack jokes. One of them is the Barbarian one. TA was Bruce, presented Byzantine chapter in the class. He is normal, nothing special. Haha. And lastly, I had Julie Sando for Contemporary Visual Culture, is a big class and I sit at the back, so have not much comment for her. While the TA, Tommy Mayberry, a total art guy. The way he walks, talks, very artistic. LOL. All of them are very friendly, no doubt.

-Classmates-

For an Asian like me, I think I did pretty well, at least I talk to people, unlike those Chinese, only mix with their own kind. It is fun to have Jakob, Steven, and Sarah in the German class. Because they are a bunch of smart and funny, especially Steven, a Mathematics major, deng eh, Mathematics wor. In Ancient and Medieval, I am all alone, I like to be alone in class actually, no distraction. And Thao! My Contemporary Visual Culture mate. Although She dropped this course but she still come to the class to accompany, awwww. We really talked a lot, and her dad sent my back when there was a heavy rain day. The good thing is she changed her major from Business to Communication, yay! We gonna have 2 same course together next term! :)

-Co-curriculum-

I joined some clubs too. In fact, I signed up a lot of clubs, but only a few of them are really active and respond to my emails. So yea. The 2 clubs that I am very active in are VISA and AIESEC.

First AIESEC General Assemly.

AIESEC Bowling social

I was honored to make the new VISA board :D

Volunteering for Seeds of Hope.

Something to show off? :P

VISA end of term potluck!

-Roommate-

She just left this afternoon, while I am having lunch with WeiJiea. Well, my feeling towards her, I don't want to publicize it here, if you always concern on my Twitter you will know. LOL. Anyhow, thanks for the memories, good luck and all the best in LA!

-Friends-

Technically, Diego is my first friend in Windsor! We know each other from Facebook, how awesome is that? :D Secondly, would be Soham and his gang. Then is Timonthy, then Kira and Shirley, then William, the guy next door, then lastly Andrew. These are all the people I usually hang out with. Other than them, they are Zaid, Trixe, Kendyll, RA-Stephanie, and many more! :)

Diego!

Timothy!

Soham!

Kira, Vickie, Diego, me, and William.

Kira, Shirley, and Vickie.

Kira, me, and Andrew :P

And of course, Mac 10!

-Food-

I usually love Western food, my perspective totally changed after I came here, Malaysian food is the best. I am sick of grilled meat and potatoes already. =.=

First meal in CAW.

Appetizer of Seoul.

Noodle from Seoul.

Chicken cutlet rice from Seoul.

Chicken burger and chocolate milk from CAW.

Mushroom with white sauce rice from Eros.

Terriyaki noodles from D'mall.

Fruit juice and sandwich from CAW.

Japanese buffet!

Thanksgiving meal.

All time favourite: 10 timbits and medium regular coffee.

Yums.

My very own recipe for maggi mee :P

Dumplings from Chinese store.

Starbucks!

All time favourite as well: Philly roll from CAW

Midnight treat: Chocolate sundae from Croc Grill

-Family-

I know is not easy for my parents to adapt with the feeling of 2 of their children are far away from them. Dad is now busy with his new brand, while mum, having fun with her Lion's people, while lil bro, as usual I guess. LOL. I don't want them to worry about me, I guess they are surprised how well I have gone well here. LOL. Gee, have fun in Bangkok, mum and dad. And stupid bro, enjoy Singapore. Lastly, fatty bro, strive hard in Taiwan, don't disappoint us!

-Best Friends-

Lots of things happened after I left, someone broke up, someone is in a relationship, someone graduated, someone worked, someone argued, some misunderstandings. But, all these already become history, I am glad that we are still together. I love you guys! :)

Melvin, HuaXiang, CheeLin, SengQian,Terry, me, ChiauHong, SiewFoong, WayNa, and Cecilia.

Lastly, allow me to say again.

FALL TERM IS FINALLY FINISHED!!!! HOLIDAY HERE I COME!!!!!

DRAW

2011-12-17T07:58:00.000+08:00

Okay, I have a confession to make.This thing have been haunting me since I registered my winter term course. This problem is one of the reasons that I can't sleep well every night.

I am taking Introduction to Drawing next semester. Look carefully, DRAWING. The truth is, I-can't-fringgin-draw. Just can't, I can paint, but drawing is really out of my league. My mentor said we will learn to draw things like perspective, portraits and etc. I am so scared that my poor skill will lead me to fail this course, I even had nightmares about I turn insane because I can't draw what the lecturer asked, I also dreamed that I failed this course too =.= I can write stuff artistically, make crafts, design stuffs, but drawing is really a no no. This is how I usually draw things--by using a ruler. =.=

How I wish I don't need to take this course, but I am in Visual Arts, no choice :/ Grrr. Anyhow, we can't know anything yet before the class, maybe I have talent in drawing but just need some enlightenment? LOL

Okay Wong Win Shi, stop thinking, please give yourself some good sleep, your face looks terrible.

Eine Einladung

2011-12-16T17:51:00.001+08:00

Lieber Cecilia,
endlich habe ich Zeit für eine Karte. Seit 4 Monate haben ich in Windsor, Kanada. Windsor ist eine schöne und ruhige Stadt. Kommen Sie hier für eine Reise. Du kannst im mein Schlafzimmer schlafen mit ich.
Herzliche Grüße,
WinShi

p/s: fragen nicht, das ist mein Antwort für Pfüfung am Samstag. Danke!

3/4

2011-12-12T14:41:00.001+08:00

Talked to my mentor this afternoon, she told me a little about 40-101 (Intro to Communication) and 40-225 (Media Literacy) which I am going to take for next term. She said, in these 2, they are going to introduce some about Disney! AHHHH isn't that INTERESTING? Intro to communication more like communication companies bla bla stuff, media literacy impressed me A LOT, is about those behind-the-scene, hidden messages of those productions, like movies, ads, bla bla bla.

OMG OMG OMG I AM SOOOOO EXCITED! FIRST-TIME-IN-MY-LIFE-I-AM-SO-EXCITED ABOUT-SCHOOL!

Thank God I dropped production class, such a waste of time! Bwahahahahah! Damn, I am all hyped up now, just finished High School Musical 1, 2, and 3. Yea I know I should be studying, but hello, my next exam is like next Saturday, 6 more days to go. LOL. I so gonna slack a little bit! Hahahahahahahaha.

I watch old movies these day, especially those kind I already watched. I don't know why, nostalgia all of a sudden? Blerggghhhhh.

Oh oh and my roommate left! For a few days, will come back on the 16th then officially leave Windsor on the 19th!

Uh huh, what else. Oh oh and I found the book on her table! THE BOOK! "You Are the Apple of My Eyes"!!!!! So gonna "swallow" it, nope kidding, I am going to read it, probably read it for more than one time then place it back where it should be before she comes back. LOLOLOLOLOL.

Okay, I am just being so hyper now I don't know why. I should go to sleep. NOW.

*toodles*

The more I like this place, the more I feel like don't want to leave.

1 year

2011-12-10T06:25:00.001+08:00

Just realized, it has been 1 year I live with the life without spectacle, oh wait, more than 1 year, the operation was on 27th of November 2010, the last day of first semester in INTI.

Holymia, time flies eh. After than lightning, sneakily slipping away. Gahhhhhhhhh, I still effing hate the feeling of accidentally poked my eyes, or something that come to close to my face, I still feel insecure.

Is like my eyes are more sensitive than before, easily get tired, dry, most importantly, the feeling of sore, is really knnccb. Back then I can just take off my glasses then feel nothing, 1K of power is that amazing, provide you the feeling of half blind, also the feeling of paralyzed, feel no sore, feel no dry. But now !@#$%^&*()_+ Ihavenoglassestotakeoff and whatever eye mo eye glo just doesn't help. And also the night vision !@#$%^&*()_+ go die go die

And whenever I flashed back the 10minutes on the operating bed, !@#$%^&*()_+ it just gives me goosebumps. Grrrrrr.

Okay, probably I am the only person in the world would complain about this matter. Don't say I am not being appreciating for my parents for paying the fee, I-just-feel-ARGHHHHHHHHHH. This whole thing is not even on my plan of life!

Just please, stop being so dry, stop being so sore, then I will stop complain, okayyyyy?

And fluffy honey, I miss you.

Whenever I think about my eyes, I thought of you. Because the date of both of the occasion happened so close, like 3 days after the operation, and I have yet to see you clearly.

I am in a continent that without your presence, you are at somewhere looking at me, I believe, always. I always wonder, is it me? Or you are just aging then gone? If is really me, I should not go to INTI Nilai, should have go to Subang's, so that I can take care of you 24/7 without them feeding you things that you should not eat.

And surprisingly, I did not really had hard times gone through your gone, I don't know why. Yes I did cry like hell, but I was asked not to because of the stupid fucking operation. Well, one of the reasons I hate that operation is because of you, because I could not see your face last time, clearly. If I didn't do stupid things to my eyes, does it going to change everything? Does all these have something to do with causality?

Life without you is good, but not as awesome as before.

***

Still struggling with finals, 2 down, 2 more to go.

13 days to Toronto.

15 days to mum's birthday.

22 days to year 2012.

26 days to start my second semester.

44 days to Chinese New Year.

心中的家

2011-12-04T12:32:00.001+08:00

当我逐渐习惯这样的生活模式感觉很奥妙又特奇怪我似乎忘了自己哪里来我熟悉的床我亲爱的家人我平时的消遣我来往的朋友们我多变的情绪我起伏的心情我国家那长年炎夏的气候这样的变化很悄然亦很平静静得让我怀疑自己的身份往哪来又往哪去潜藏的担忧是回家的那一刻会放不下会舍不得这里的一切。--seeyinlove.com

那些年...

2011-12-04T09:52:00.001+08:00

终于啊，感谢那个勇于上传且冒着被Youtube删掉这电影的人，你造福了那些在西方国家的留学的华人学生们。*SALUTE*

就像很多改编自小说拍成的电影都和小说本身有很大，很大的差别。但是，我满足了，真的。虽然得到的感觉比从书上少了些，至少视觉感官上收了益(柯震东帅毙了~)，不再只是凭空想像，再者我是个学视觉艺术的人(什么跟什么啊？)

本来还蛮想看到那个“一起回家”的片断，想知道刀导会想以什么样的方式去诠释那个一起回家，肩并肩走在一起的那种感觉。结果完全没有那个片断，只有继续自己想像咯。

那些年，在班上的嬉闹，毕业典礼，毕业后的海边，拿到成绩后的失落感，历历在目，都好熟悉。恨不得可以马上回到中学时代，在经历这一切。如果有人问我，“中学时期开心吗？”，我当然会说：“开心，非常开心！”。可是如果有机会的时光旅行话，我会想回到中三那时，告诉那时的我，“拜托，真的，考试考好一点。” 这可以说是我唯一的遗憾。好啦，不是唯一啦，但算是最大的。LOL

如果中二中那年我接受了那个超过180cm的寿司男会怎样？
如果中二尾那年她没有来我们班的话，我和眼镜男会怎样？
如果中三初那年我不理那个变态男的话会怎样？
如果中三中那年，因为不甘心而告白了，我们现在会怎样？
......
如果中五中那年，我没有放弃喜欢你，我们现在会是好朋友吗？
如果09年那年我们没那么熟，我们现在会怎样？
如果。

可能因为太多年的喜欢，照成了现在我很难找到像你这样的人，或者说，我很难再喜欢上别的人。也许，你根本就没注意过我。

“被你喜欢过很难再觉得别人有多喜欢我。”--沈佳宜
“喜欢过你很难再觉得别人有多喜欢我。”--黄颖诗

“你喜欢的人都是怪胎。” “也许吧，因为我就是一个怪胎。”
活了20年，我只喜欢过3个人，都是怪胎？可能吧。

我人生中的3男，要好好生活哦，愿你们和现任女友长长久久 :)

“也许，在另外一个平时空里，我们是在一起的。”--柯景腾
在这个时空里，我会等，不管你会是谁。

人海中遇见你

你的爱值得信赖

你的心靠在身边

只要你在我就有许多梦想

只要你在我就有更多力量

亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望

就从这一刻起和你分享所有感觉

亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望

就从这一刻起和你分享真心的感觉

你的爱没有保留你的心献给了我

只要你在我就有更多理想

与你同在就好像拥抱天堂

oh亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉

亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望

每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉

你的爱没有保留

你的心献给了我

只要你在我就有更多理想

与你同在就好像拥抱天堂

oh亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望每一天在这里永远永远有家的感觉

亲爱的

我多么幸运

人海中能够遇见你

亲爱的

我多么盼望每一天在这里和你分享

现在除了温习，我最想要的是，再一次把《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》小说读完。问题是，现在我那本书在谁的手上我也不晓得。再买一本吧 (加拿大会有咩读你的课本吧你 =_=)

人。生。就。是。要。不。停。的。战。斗！
FINALS, 哇擦叻！

Pre-final Stress

2011-12-03T11:17:00.002+08:00

Study, study, study.

Fun, fun, fun.

Okay, it does not get together.

Oh, whatever.

No, Facebook.

2011-11-28T23:37:00.001+08:00

12th day without Facebook and I actually loving it. Although this is not the first time I keep myself away from Facebook for such a long time, but first time doing this when I am in Canada, far away from everything I familiar with.

To be honest, I am disappointed. I am trying not to make Facebook the first or main source to contact me but apparently, it is. Which leads me to one decision, I will still less active on Facebook although I finished my finals.

Really, if I do not on Facebook you guys will not even bother to read my blog, tweets, even Google+ right? Why you guys have to so depend on Facebook. Or distance really weakens friendship? I really hate that feeling when I want to know what is happening around you guys and you guys just wanna shut me off the door. What, what is this all? Words can't tell the exact story? Don't want me to worry? Is like, I am giving out everything I feel here but none of you guys bother to tell me what are you up to recently, unless I asked. Right?

I always try to update as much as I can because I treat this task as a responsibly, to let you guys know how am I doing. Ever since I came here, wrote about the Indian guy, my annoying roommate, and some other issues on my blog, do you guys ever read? I am not talking about comments, even if I brought up some problems that I mentioned in blog in our conversation, you guys will like, huh, you never said that, tell us more.

Busy is the lamest excuse ever. Is not like you are working or studying 24/7 right? I am studying too, I am in an university, man, not goofing around. Does post a post on wall cost you an hour? Does comment on a status cost you 10 minutes? You don't even need 1 minute to post a comment okay. Just, at least, show some concern, like, I, do. Those posts on secret group are not bullshits. Like I told you guys about the daylight saving time, which of you remember how much is the time difference between us?

I trying not to write this in a complaining way, but it seems hard.

All these factors strengthened my will to stay here when summer, either take summer course or work. At here, I really feel comfortable, like I am capable to do everything, literally everything. Life here is more like the life I ever wanted, except food.

Last thing, I am not trying to be harsh. If you think I have changed, is because you never know me well.

Peace out, back to study.

p/s: I got this thought long time ago, not recently.

Who Are You, Really.

2011-11-27T11:28:00.005+08:00

Personality Type Results

EI: 12 out of 17

Extrovert |----------------------------------------| Introvert
70%

SN: 9 out of 17

Sensation |----------------------------------------| iNtuition
52%

TF: 6 out of 17

Thinking |------------------------------------------| Feeling

35%

JP: 3 out of 17

Judging |-------------------------------------------| Perceiving

17%

Your personality type in INTJ.

INTJ-Scientist

The INTJ is the most self-confident and pragmatic of all types. Decisions come very easily and they are very independent. They love logic and ideas and are drawn to scientific research. 1% of the total population.

INTJs’ precision thinking and need for accuracy causes them to be inflexible at times. Having thought out a strategy, the INTJ may stubbornly disregard those who they think have not spent as much time reflecting on an idea as they have. This, along with their drive to produce something significant, can make them demanding and difficult. If their plans and solutions fall short of their high standards, INTJ's feel pressured — as if everything is on the line. "Everything," for an INTJ, is the competence and ability to produce something significant. Fear of not living up to this expectation will increase their stress and possibly dissuade them from risking or trying out their ideas. They may then find themselves thinking about ideas that do not have a meaningful or productive end.

When stress increases, the INTJ can become argumentative and disagreeable. Social interaction, which is not their strength, becomes increasingly difficult for them. Not trusting their own abilities, they become preoccupied with obsessive notions. The INTJ may then find themselves spending an inordinate amount of time fighting horrible thoughts, tempting absurdities, and feelings of worthlessness.Fearful of others recognizing their perceived failure, the INTJ incessantly ruminates about mistakes, inadequacies, weaknesses, ineptness, and incompetence. Because this distracts them from risking what little confidence they may have left in themselves, it therefore keeps them from obtaining the success and achievement they so desperately need.

Careers
This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.

management consultant
economist
scientist
computer programmer
environmental planner
new business developer
curriculum designer
administrator
mathematician
psychologist
neurologist
biomedical researcher
strategic planner
civil engineer
intellectual properties attorney
designer
editor/art director
inventor
informational-graphics...designer
financial planner
judge

***

So so true, What can I say else more? :)

Try this test, and tell me your result!

http://www.careertest.net

Patience

2011-11-26T14:21:00.003+08:00

I strongly believe that annoying people in your life is to train your patience to encounter more annoying people in the future.

Have been dealing with kinds of people like annoying ones, crazy ones. as in not sampat that kind of crazy but real crazy, for example self abuse, not even kidding, self-obsessed ones, over confident ones. I am still alive and sane, can you believe that? LOL

Sometimes I tell people who I don't really know much yet to test my patience, some of the reasons is that I wanna know my limit. LOL. Like really, have you ever see me get mad until everything lost control? Hardly? Never? LOL. When I get cranky I usually go to a more rational way, it just won't ruined my way terribly, weird. Is like I swore, I cursed, then I forget, I know, I have a little of angrophobia.

I can deal with almost everything, just don't try to reach to the (super low) bottom line or some sensitive parts :D Life is good man!

PEACE!

Life Is Not That Short

2011-11-22T08:00:00.002+08:00

but it is god damn short.

I wish I knew when I was your age, and I know you’ve heard a million times, ‘life is short’, but let me tell you something. What this, what this is teaching me is that life is god damn short and you can’t waste a minute of it.

-Friends with Benefits

SO DAMN TRUE

Current Obsessions

2011-11-21T05:38:00.003+08:00

So, I have been deactivated myself from Facebook for 3 days already, I need to find some other things to do right? Besides study, of course.

1. Disney's Movies (especially classics)
Way better than my roommate's favourite--Barbie okay?

2. Rabbits! Bunnies!
Whenever I am free, I will just go on Kijiji.ca and check out who is giving out their bunnies for free. Just view for own pleasure tho, can't have a pet right now, but soon! After I move out from the residence! My desktop wallpaper! Awwwwww

3. Tim Horton's large double double
H-E-A-V-E-N

4. Sleep!
Usually sleeps more than 10 hours without alarm.

5. And tweet like nobody business
No social networking can die.

The Global Warming Survival Guide

2011-11-20T16:11:00.002+08:00

What I am doing
What I plan to do in the future
What the heck?
Not what I can do

1. Turn Food Into Fuel (I shall let those scientist do this LOL, what can I do is walk as much as I can)
2. Get Blueprints For a Green House
3. Change Your Lightbulbs
4. Light Up Your City (My house use LED lights, so yea)
5. Pay the Carbon Tax (Personally don't support this, this is more like a political thing :/)
6. Ditch the Mansion
7. Hang Up a Clothes Line (when in Malaysia lah)
8. Give New Life to Your Old Fleece (Not available in Malaysia lah this)
9. Build a Skyscraper (I don't agree with this, oh well, I love kampung!)
10. Turn Up the Geothermal Heat
11. Take Another Look at Vintage Clothes (I don't really care about clothing, pasar malam cloth will do lol)
12. Capture the Carbon (Not what an ordinary citizen can do :/)
13. Let Employees Work Close to Home
14. Ride the Bus (drive a lot in Malaysia, ride buses in Canada)
15. Move to a High-Rise (Really? I still prefer rural areas okay)
16. Pay Your Bills Online
17. Open a Window
18. Ask the Experts For An Energy Audit of Your Home
19. Buy Green Power, At Home or Away (Is possible in Canada, but Malaysia, uh)
20. Check the Label
21. Cozy Up to Your Water Heater (Uh, my dad's job)
22. Skip the Steak (I can't accept this :/ is sad I know, I just love meat :/)
23. Copy California (Neutral, no comments :/)
24. Just Say No to Plastic Bags
25. Support your local farmer (Pasar Pagi/Malam FTW!)
26. Plant a bamboo fence (Or sugar cane will do :D)
27. Straighten up and fly right (Pilots' job)
28. Have a green wedding
29. Remove the tie (I don't wear ties)
30. Shut off your computer (I-just-can't-----)
31. Wear green eye shadow (Really? The heck?)
32. Kill the Lights At Quitting Time (Might suggest my dad to do this)
33. Rearrange the Heavens and the Earth (What what reflection thingy? Deflect sun energy?)
34. Rake in the Fall Colors (After I move out from the res :D)
35. End the Paper Chase
36. Play the Market (Play with the cap again, economic-ish, political-ish)
37. Think Outside the Packaging
38. Trade Carbon for Capital (O.O)
39. Make Your Garden Grow
40. Get a Carbon Budget
41. Fill'er Up With Passengers
42. Pay For Your Carbon Sins
43. Move to London's New Green Zone (Siao eh, later overpopulation in London how?)
44. Check Your Tires
45. Make One Right Turn After Another (I always did this stupid mistake :/)
46. Plant a Tree in the Tropics
47. If You Must Burn Coal, Do it Right (Oh well, is my dad, not me, use good engine oil will make a difference! *promoting* XD)
48. Drive Green on the Scenic Route
49. Set a Higher Standard
50. Be aggressive about passive
51. Consume Less, Share More, Live Simply

For details, please view http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/environment/0,28757,1602354,00.html

***

I am kinda an environmentalist? But not really hardcore that kind. People who has worked with me before in publicity know how environmental I am lah. LOL. CPU's World Issues and INTI's Green Knights taught me quite a lot, as in what are the things happening in other countries, more things like cap trade, Kyoto Protocol and bla bla stuff lah.

But really lah people, do as much can you can okay? Like reuse paper, recycle plastic bottles, card boxes, bring your own container to school bla bla bla.

Okay? GO GREEN! :)

Winner, not.

2011-11-17T23:37:00.003+08:00

although I have a "Win" in my name.

Had this thought yesterday night before I go bed, so I decided to blog about it.

To be honest, I still found amazing that I really made it to Canada. Got a 7 in IELTS really was a shock in my life. Really, how many people like me can study abroad? Firstly, I am not from a English speaking family. Secondly, I am not a smart student, my class 5A4 was like the 11th of 17 classes in whole, the 4th in 6 account stream classes. And oh hey, I was in a Accounting plus Chinese Literature class! (take that). Next, I know shit about Western countries thing, like actor, actress, singers, histories, buildings, bla bla bla. I was raised in a traditional Chinese family, speaks Chinese and Hokkien, sometimes Hakka. I got a friggin B4 for English in SPM and English before CPU was like 1% of my life.

I still remember those time I suffered when I was in CPU, first time having Caucasian teacher, first time being in an English speaking environment, first time being so pressured while expressing opinion. English classes back school were like never existed, no one ever paid attention in class, most of them don't even hand in homework or whatever shit the teacher asked. Well, I did, a little. However, I don't think those English classes are useful, not at all. Teachers' problem maybe?

The moment when Canadians here said I speak good English, I really feel pleased, and a little tears in eyes. I strived, I suffered, and being teased? (don't remember)

Wonder how I gone through this? Well, don't laugh okay. LOL It might sound pathetic to you. Okay, the truth is, I imitate how people speak, and use Google as my grammar checker. And lastly, follow my instinct.

The point of this post is, I already a loser in the beginning, I ain't gonna lose until the end okay. At least I try to improve, try to make my life better, try to reach my dream.

To those assholes who laughed at me, looked me down, go die lah.

I speak like a Caucasian, fuck yeah.

遗失的

2011-11-11T16:14:00.004+08:00

最近才发现，我好像已经没有了发花痴的举动，换句话说，我好像变成无性恋了。=____= 上是以前接触太多了，现在对这些事情都提不起劲，甚至有点反感。LOL

现在不知道是我的室友和她的朋友不正常还是我不正常。她为了：“亚洲人先做朋友再发生关系；西方人先发生关系在做朋友” 的观念烦了我几天。我想说的是，hello 我也是个亚洲人，搞不好思想比你更保守okay? 这种东西不-要-一-直-问-我。还有，去pub的男生难免都有那种想法，既然你去认识了就要有那种心里准备好吗？

我一向来对通过电脑/手机来联系感情都不赞成（远距离恋爱除外），我的意思是，用简讯告白？会不会太逊了点？告白了之后一切都在手机里进行？见面就尴尬？WALAOEH 这叫和手机恋爱好不好？我老是在想，如果我以后有了男朋友一定要先和他说清楚。想见我？约个地方见面吧。想和我说话？约个地方见面吧。总之手机绝对不会是我们两个之间的主要媒介，虽然我有点social awkward但是感情上的事情我都要求面对面。可能是接触虚拟世界太多了吧，造成我有这种想法。

这就我是想说的，了吗？

SHIT 本来想写文艺一点的现在好像变成了说明文 LOL

不管了啦继续

这几个月来，看到有些人在一起了，有些人分开了，有些是想像中的，有些是想也想不到的。

那我呢，先暂时单身吧 :)

XXX 不要再约我出去了

XXX 不要再来找我了

XXX 不要一直Facebook message我

谢谢拜拜

p/s: 如果你觉得我说的不对，那就是我不正常 :)

11.11.11 快乐

Most Terrifying 1 hour In Windsor, so far.

2011-11-09T03:40:00.002+08:00

What an intense hour just now! Oh my godness! I did a very big mistake 1 hour ago, might known as the biggest mistake in my life (probably I couldn't recall others, lol).

So, what have I done?

Apparently, tomorrow (November 9th) is the last day to withdraw subjects voluntarily. However this has nothing to do with me as I love all of my subjects this term. On the contrary, my registration time for winter term is on November 7th, which mean I only can start register for courses after November 7th, so these days I have been busy planning my winter term schedule and uwindsor portal is lag like hell. Got registered into all the courses I desire yesterday, was still happy happy happy like a siao zha bor because I have no morning class next term.

And just now, while texting with Thao checking what else we can take together next term, she asked if we can take 40-275 (Foundations of Communication Theory) or not because it might need a prerequisite. So I tried to drop FAW II (Foundations of Academic Writing II) and add in 40-275. Then, MANA TAHU, WHO KNOWS, the FAW dropped is FAW I (Foundations of Academic Writing I) which is the subject I am taking now, not FAW II. I DROPPED FAW I, ACCIDENTALLY AND TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF VOLUNTARY WITHDRAW. Scary, damn scary. My heart feel like all scrambled together, with the yelling of "oh my god, shit, oh my godddddd!" It feels like the end of the world, full of horror. (LOl maybe I should take a drama class). I will not want to repeat all the same thing again in the next term okayyy, super wasting time.

I quickly emailed the lecturer and registrar office to see what they can do. While waiting for their reply, I ranted on Twitter about this. Luckily, fortunately, Wei Jiea saw my tweets of depressed, devastated, bla bla bla. He asked me to go to the registrar office immediately because they usually reply emails very late. Without second though, grabbed all the important stuff, student ID, room key, phone and run all the away to the office. I was still panting while talking to the lady. LOL. Later found out, someone already put me back to the list! OH? I did not mad because I ran all the way through but ended up the problem already solved. In fact, I APPRECIATE. Thank you Elaine (the one who put me back into the list)! Thank you thank you thank you! I would say thank you to you in face if I know who you are, really really thank you!

Lesson of the story is, although computer is super convenient, but remember to DOUBLE CHECK BEFORE CLICK ANYTHING!

PHEW! :)

Malaysian Pride

2011-11-07T06:56:00.002+08:00

Have never feel so proud as a Malaysian after I come to Canada. Like seriously, I used to complain about Malaysia a lot, those policies, spicy foods, etc. Well I did not complain that much like some people who loves to post things about Malaysia's politics on Facebook, those are very annoying.

Back to the point, I love the feeling when I can communicate well between local people, China Chinese, Hongkee, and Taiwanese, no matter in English, Chinese, Cantonese, bla bla shit :D

I love the feeling when I pwned those China Chinese with my multilingualism, below is one of the examples:

"你雅思(IELTS)考多少啊？"

"7"

"天啊" (He actually whispered this :P)

"她还会说白话" (the another girl said to him)

”Oh“ with the whoa oh my god expression LOL

Bwahahahah, damn proud! LOL

Honestly, I kinda hate the presence of these Chinese, kinda ruined the quality of University of Windsor. Is like they always speak in their own language, does not hang out with others, apply their bad habits like spit everywhere here. Sometimes I feel like, China so gonna be ______ if all of their teenagers are like this. Or is it because I have not met a China Chinese that can impress me? LOL

Another thing, one of the social club V.I.S.A (Volunteer International Student Assistance) most of it's founders are Malaysian, omg so proud :')

Like really, if I can choose, I want to be a Malaysian again in my second life. :)

MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Barbarian

2011-11-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

I learnt something today :D

So, how did the name "Barbarian" come from?

Because, their language sounds like "ba-ba-ba-ba", so people call them Barbarian.

Have you laughed? I glad you did, I laughed too when my lecturer of Ancient to Medieval talked about this :)

DRUNK

2011-10-30T11:12:00.003+08:00

Of red wine, white wine, Jack Daniels, Arizona Green Tea, chicken wings and spaghetti.

10 Tips For Being The Best You Can Be

2011-10-28T11:17:00.004+08:00

What do Susan Boyle, Paul Potts and J K Rowling all have in common - apart from they happen to be British? Their success did not come about overnight, or easily. Not for any of them came instant fame, and recognition in the spotlight.

"The soul is placed in the body like a rough diamond, and must be polished,
or the luster of it will never appear"
Daniel Defoe

No matter how frustrated, troubled or dispirited on the surface, deep down everyone I have met is truly extraordinary. However hidden, the human spirit, the diamond is always there; in you, in me.

For many of us, these times are rough. Perhaps now we can come to know and appreciate more fully our capacity for endurance and the brightness of our human spirit. What is more, we can take the polishing more into our own hands.

Here are some tips you might like to consider:

1. Know what you want
Maybe you have a talent you have longed to express and develop. If not, you probably know how you would like to be experiencing your life - perhaps with more happiness, better communications with the ones you love, greater fulfilment in your work.
Knowing is deeper and stronger than wishful thinking or hoping. It is a conviction so solid that you can base your life on it.

"There are three things extremely hard: steel, a diamond, and to know one's self."
Benjamin Franklin

2. Engage with your intention
Daily nurture your vision - see, feel, hear how you will be experiencing the fulfilment of your the life you want, both inwardly and in the world. Use your imagination.

3. Practice your passion - take action
If you have a talent, keep working with it. If you would like to be happier, do things that make you happy. Better communications? Be willing to learn, practise, improve - and make mistakes from time to time. Your intention will speak volumes. Fulfillment? Adjust your attitude.

"Nothing will work unless you do."
Maya Angelou

4. Raise your energy - turn up the heat
Love yourself and be grateful for all you have in your life, right now. Pay attention to your blessings. Look up. Learn to forgive and laugh at the mistakes you make along the way. Each day, feel the enthusiasm for your vision, as if it has already happened. Stay open for the remarkable to take place. It will.

"There are two ways to live your life - one is as though nothing is a miracle,
the other is as though everything is a miracle."
Albert Einstein

5. Gather positive people around you
At the very least, spend time with people who are supportive and for you. Enrich yourself by getting to know others who are actively creating the best for themselves, and learn from them.

"If you have zest and enthusiasm you attract zest and enthusiasm.
Life does give back in kind."
Norman Vincent Peale

6. Get rid of what is unnecessary
Clear the clutter! Live lean with only that which you need around you. The feeling of freedom you gain will liberate you closer to what you really want.

7. Organize yourself for success
Find ways of dealing with life's necessities so that you are not distracted by them. Only agree to do what you will actually do. Learn to say no to what does not fit for you.

"If we did all the things we are capable of doing,
we would literally astound ourselves."
Thomas A Edison

8. Set no time limits
Learn to live in the present moment and respond to your intuitive guidance. There are times when to act; times when to hold. You will get to know which is which.

"We have time enough if we will but use it right."
Johann Wolfgang von Geothe

9. Believe in yourself - believe in your vision
Feeling doubtful? In these challenging times, young children may teach us something. As adults, we can also be persistent in going for what we value.

"A visionary is one who can find his way by moonlight,
and see the dawn before the rest of the world."
Oscar Wilde

10. Treasure yourself
Do the things that show you care for yourself: eat foods that serve your body; drink plenty of water; get enough sleep; exercise regularly; make time and space for fun; stay focussed on your vision and intention. Taking care of your health is a wise investment of your time and attention.

"The diamond you are, you wear within you.
You can call on its beauty and power when you want to stand forward and dazzle."
Random Soul 7

I am on my way! :)

The Avengers (2012) Teaser Trailer HD 720p

2011-10-27T06:59:00.001+08:00

The trailer is finally released! OHMYGODNESS! I have been waiting for this since the release of the Captain America: The First Avenger movie 2011. The movie of this will be release on May 4th 2012, which is 2 days after my birthday! OHYEAHYEAH! Chris Evans! Robert Downey Jr.! Scarlett Johansson! Wait for me!!!

Can You Feel My World?

2011-10-26T06:50:00.000+08:00

你只喜欢我微笑
你决定我的需要
我要怎么说才好
我不是为你制造
关心像是泥沼
拉住我往下掉
还是漂亮口号
诱惑你的视角
你把我的喜欢好随便删掉
变成你要的调调

你为我好我知道我都知道
我的烦恼我的骄傲你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑
不能满足于拥抱

can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
can you take my hand
真诚你会感觉到

can you feel my world
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好
你才觉得我重要

你只要我有礼貌
其它假装看不到
我要怎么说才好
当我的情绪低潮

关心像是泥沼
拉住我往下掉
还是漂亮口号
诱惑你的视角
你把我的喜欢好随便删掉
变成你要的调调

你为我好我知道我都知道
我的烦恼我的骄傲你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑
i keep coming back for more

rap:
日日夜夜我闭着双眼祈祷
为什么只有我的音乐能够让我依靠
我知道我的世界已经变得越来越小
跑不掉逃不了
怎么面带着微笑
怎么面对着你才好
怎么眼泪都在掉
怎么嘴嘟著好严肃这不是哭著就好
什么旋律在我的脑袋一直转一直绕
意志力一直撑著我再一次祷告
帮助我

***Life, no matter yours or mine, will always been blocked or restricted by something or someone else.So when people say, live your life! Is that even possible?

Midterms yay?

2011-10-22T08:47:00.002+08:00

Finally done with all the midterms! Feel so relieved in a sudden! To be honest, I did not really study hard tho, and I got my karma already,

I know my marks for 28-214 Ancient to Medieval Art already, 43/75 = 57.3% CRAP! lol But I kinda sure the last 25 questions I got all right, definition questions, heh.

For German, urgh, forgot how to spell plate, sausage and menu! Gahhhh and the verbs with the vowel changed. Hopefully this test will better than the previous one :/

As for Visual Culture, seriously I don't know LOL

Ancient to Medieval art assignment 2 due on next Thursday and I haven't start a shit! Bwahahahaha!

5 things I hate about my room mate

2011-10-21T11:20:00.003+08:00

Hello my dearest room mate, since you have been travelling around the world and how the hell you do not know how big is this world? Don't you know there are other kind of people live in this earth as well other than Chinese?

1.Get used to the culture of Canada

What's wrong with people asking you "go up or go down?" Is a way to show polities okay? This action is not retarded at all! And greetings from strangers is totally nothing wrong with people greeting you, even strangers, got it? They just wanna be nice, being nice to you doesn't make them pervert or what.

2. Branding of snacks

Never heard about Twisties I don't mind, but why do you so mind that I don't know your country's 粟一烧? Am I supposed to know? Hate the how-could-you-don't-know expression.

3. Do your own assignment

Stop asking me non-stop. You should know how to do since those are what have been taught in class.

4. Stop criticize how people look like

I hate this part the most. THIS IS FUCKING ANNOYING. No matter when you are in front of computer or walk on the street, don't be like an analyzer, saying that guy looks awful, that girl looks weird, if so, you are not even a decent one. Too much! Is really too much!

5. Don't sigh

It affects my emotion too, a lot!

Seriously, go back to China, learn your English properly before you go to the United States of America. Or else, live there will be more suffering than here.

Initiative

2011-10-19T09:11:00.008+08:00

If you are lazy to do so, just say "I am lazy la" or whatever, crap a lot and do nothing will only piss me off. Worst, wait for the government to change. Eh please, just a phone call will cost you how much? Throw away your blackberry la.

Ever since me and my brothers own a cellphone, my dad taught us to save down police station, MPK and JPJ's phone number. He said, if everyone is waiting someone to call, then who is the someone. Why don't you be the someone, save your time and others as well?

Simply a responsibility of a citizen.

Back to the topic. What if the government changed and no one make the report about this? Still government's fault? Dude, please, although clean up is what the government should do but when come to the point that how they going to know what happened at particular area if no one report to them? Ask more people to circulate that area often? Who is going to pay for them? Then come to taxes problem again, and the problem goes on and on and on. See?

When encountered open burning, one, you make a call, two, you put off the fire. If I am there I will definitely do something but not take a photo then upload to Facebook and DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. Pffftt.

Graduated from Kwang Hua kot, mempersiasuikan sahaja.

Is kinda rare that I talked about politics, uhmmm, when comes to society, I do care okay.

Hey Girl

2011-10-15T08:41:00.002+08:00

For most of the time in my life, I hate myself for being a girl.
I hate the contrary feelings in myself, when I want to say something but it turned out in an opposite way, ALL THE TIME.

Why? Why can't I be less emtional? It's annoying.

I hate being characterise as the girl who like to shopping, medicure, pedicure, say "Uh huh, you are preventing to grow pimples don't you?" when I say I don't eat spicy, say "Ah ha, trying to keep fit huh?" when I say I am not hungry. Seriously, STFU, you don't know a shit about me.

FOREVER

2011-10-13T08:33:00.000+08:00

不要跟我说永远，
因为我不会相信。

连王力宏也说了，
“千万不要说天长地久，免的你觉的我不切实际”

举出一个永远的例子吧？

In fact,
I lost faith in love.
All kinds of love.
I could not bear with heart breaks,

All I want is
SIMPLICITY

5 things that made me recognizable

2011-10-10T00:56:00.002+08:00

My orange, yellow and blue wrist band.

Whte Phiten and 10:10 necklace

Spec (used to)

Palm sized face

Long legs long fingers

I am awesome like that :)

奶奶說，怎麼當個好女人

2011-10-07T10:05:00.001+08:00

奶奶說，生氣的時候不要吵架，可以不說話，不洗他衣服，但是，不要和他吵架。

奶奶說，和男人吵架了不要跑到外面去張揚，他向你邁進一步，你就向他走兩步。

奶奶說，家是女人的大本營，發生什麼事情都不要走。因為，回來的路很難。

奶奶說，兩個人在家不要老想著面子，兩個人過日子，面子很重要？那在外面怎麼生活？

奶奶說，不管一個男人多有錢，他還是希望可以看到乾乾淨淨的你 , 在乾乾淨淨的家等他。

奶奶說，好男人很多，他不會去抱別的女人。但是這社會，很多壞女人會伸手去抱你的男人。

奶奶說，女人一定要出去工作，不管錢賺得多或是少，工作就是自己人生價值的體現。你一直在家，就讓男人有機會在你面前說：“是我在養你。”

奶奶說，你在外面工作，家裡的事情再忙也要做，不然就花錢請個工。家裡的事情一定要好好做，小孩也要好好教。

奶奶說，他為你做了意想不到的事情，你可以感動，可以誇獎，千萬不要嘲諷的說“太陽從西邊出來了”，如果這樣，也許以後他不會為你做任何事情。

奶奶說，誰都不是誰的另一半，你的想法不說出來誰會了解？需要什麼感受，討厭什麼事情，你告訴別人，別人才會懂。

奶奶說，他的父母也是你的父母，就算他的父母對你不是很好，你也要對他們好。因為他們是他的父母。

奶奶說，決定和什麼人在一起了，就不要去埋怨苦日子，既然你選擇了他，就不要去埋怨他。

奶奶說，那麼有錢有什麼用，人呢？人在哪裡？

奶奶說，我們這輩子能花多少錢？不要買什麼奢侈品，過得幸福就好。

奶奶說，不要唬小孩“ 媽媽不要你”，不要生氣地時候把小孩推出門，如果他真的不見了，你會很痛苦。

奶奶說，盡量不要打小孩，更不要在外面打。

奶奶說，什麼都是緣分。

奶奶說，生命無常，要好好珍惜每一天，珍惜自己的家庭。

奶奶說，她年輕的時候，她外婆總是教她怎麼做好一個女人。

奶奶和爺爺在一起有五十多年。她說，她是先結婚後戀愛的。

奶奶說，爺爺年輕的時候很窮，別人給他一顆糖，他都小心翼翼帶回來，拗一半給她吃。

奶奶說，她年輕的時候不懂什麼是好，覺得爺爺本來就應該這樣。

奶奶說，有一次有人想欺負爺爺，她生氣的衝過去拿掃把打人一頓。*

她說的時候哈哈大笑，我感動得雙眼模糊……

***
What a great piece, I copied this from Facebook.

Officially 1 month

2011-10-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Adapting very well, classes are interesting, food are just simply, bath at midnight, blergh.

Mid terms are approaching, I don't know I can do well or not.

Kinda screwed the first German test, got 67 out of 100.

Pretty fine in Contemporary Visual Culture, got 11 out of 10 for assignment 1.

Don't know about Ancient to Medival yet, havent get back my assingment 1 and 2.

And don't feel like give a damn to FAW I.

Reminder for myself: no more morning class for next semester

Make a spray paint text in Photoshop

2011-10-03T10:14:00.001+08:00

I made it myself! Super cool isn't! I modified a lil bit :)
Is time to get my ass back to design, real stuff, no more playing around.

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-vmMs4jvDA&feature=related

5 differences between Malaysia and Canada

2011-09-29T04:22:00.000+08:00

1. Very less insects.
2. People in Canada are damn friendly, strangers will greet each other.
3. Tax here is effing high, 13%.
4. Food here all are in very big portion, I could not finish them most of the time.
5. All China people behave the same regardless where they are.

lameness

2011-09-28T01:46:00.003+08:00

This has freaked out my room mate, pity her. However I am pretty sure is written by a girl because this handwriting looks damn familar.

Don't know why girls here seems like to seduce guys a lot, and vice versa, sex-oriented? Yucks. A girl who hates guy smoking called children, don't drink called immature. Is it because I come from an Islam country or is it because I am not open minded enough? Or, I am so old that spirit of playfulness already gone?

***

My room mate brought up a very nice topic yesterday. She said most of her friend in ELIP only hang out with their own kind, they don't go out social at all, didn't join clubs, doesn't know what is happening on the campus. What the hell right? They are like so rich enough to waste their time over here. She again said she is lucky because I am her room mate, a Malaysian, who doesn't like to mix with own kind a lot and likes to join activities and events. Hmm, proud? However, this is not the main point of yesterday's topic. She told me that sometimes she will feel guilty for spending so much of money to study here, either do I. Whatever I spending here it has to be times by 3 times, which means that my dad have to work hard triple times. I don't know how to do, I can't ignore the fact that my dad have to work so much to pay for my tuition fee, it makes me feel so pressured and guilty.

German test is coming up on Thursday, bless me.

1 of the 7 wonders of the world: Niagara Falls

2011-09-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks to University of Windsor's International Student Society so that I have the chance to visit one of the seven wonders in the world. Can't really find a word to describe the feeling of this experience, more like touched, appreciate, amazed, etc.

Took off from Windsor at 7am. Harassed by an Saudi African, go dai. I think he is drunk or something, he told me he didn't sleep yesterday. lol.

Dawn.

Autumn is approaching.

First photo of one of the falls.

Look at the water vapour, magnificent isn't?

Awesome weather.

Fat bird.

Tip of the fall.

Gonna celebrate my first Halloween real soon :)

Behind of the fall. Feel blessed that we able to see rainbows.

Visited the Wax Museum.

Skyscraper :)

Had dinner in Hard Rock Cafe.

Took a ride on sky wheel.

Souvenirs I bought :)

Overall the trip is okay, I am satisfied. However the feeling is totally different to travel with people you are not really familar with. My gang back home is the most compatible travel gang with me, they are crazy enough, playful enough, just perfect for me. My room mate is a typical, very typical, who likes pink stuffs, dresses, high heels, perfumes, flowers, wears make up everyday, take a long time to decide what clothes to wear to the day bla bla bla. So, what's the point of mentioning these. BIG POINT! We spent most of the time in souvenir shops, wtf! And she doesn't want to go for the boat ride because she said she don't wanna get wet, wtf! Not only these, most of our conversation is about "oh hey, that guy looks hot!", "ohmygod, that guy look darn ugly." Childish/immature/shallow bahhhhh. SIEN 7, KER LAN SIEN, opps. :X

So yea, I will definitely visit Niagara Falls again in the future, of course, not with my room mate. LOL

It's who I am, don't have to try hard.

2011-09-20T12:52:00.001+08:00

Exactly 3 weeks in Windsor, Ontario, Canada.

#homesick
Whenever people asked me "do you miss home?" I always replied, "not yet". Is true, I haven't really miss home. I love my family and home a lot but somehow is quite difficult for me to have that kind of miss home feeling, no matter where am I this will just happen.

#curriculum
I am currently stucked. I have no subjects to take as most of them already full, have 2 subjects on waiting list, 1 is 5/5 while another one is 13/13, gosh, I wonder how long I have to wait :/ Now I am taking Foundation of Academic Writing I, Contemporary Visual Culture, and Intensive German for Beginners. I need 1 or 2 more subjects, 3 subjects is just too wrong. Some senior taught me just go to the class even though I am in the waiting list and then ask the lecturer that if he/she can sign me into the class or not however it does not work on me, is a night class and the classroom is so far away, like wtf, your class full? Only like 10 people something :/

#roommie issues
So my roommate is a Chinese from China, come from ShenZhen, does speak Cantonese. Apparently, she is a normal type of girl, not to say I am obnormal, just that I am a little different okay. LOL. My definition for normal girl means, like pink, wear dresses, wear high heels, gossips a lot, bla bla bla. GOT IT? LOL And her friend from Shanghai swears a lot, A LOT. Like 妈，靠，操，操海, goshhhh. But overall is still okay, so far so far, except for I have to be their translator some of the times. LOL On top of that, three of us and some friends on the same building went to the university pub yesterday and last friday. And yesterday both of these girls attracted by 2 Poland guys, and one of them is my classmate in German class omg such a coincidence. My roommie falled in love with the one who has same German class with me, and she even asked me to pass a hand written letter to pass to him tomorrow. Gosh. However the good thing is I have people to sampat with. LOL.

#F-O-O-D
To be honest, I had a lot of beef for meal here. If not mistaken is almost every meal. O.o I think I am doomed. Have to set one day as vegetarian day to balance it. And since I am staying in the residence so I am on their meal plan, which is kinda nice. Except I don't wanna have pizza, teriyaki, burger everyday. This is not the major problem, the thing is, food here all come with BIG PORTION, like small size here is large size back in Malaysia. 4 out of 10 times I could not finish my food wtf.

#being Asian
Maybe is cultural differences or what, I seem like can't mingle with local Canadian girls, no problem with guys tho. They like to gossip a lot, uh, speaking in a different tone, I don't know, just different with Asian/Malaysian. Meh, and whenever people heard me and my roommie talking Chinese they will like super excited and some times will greet us with 你好. So jakun =.= I am not gonna care much about this issue because I am more comfortable to hang out with guys, even back in Malaysia. I am not usual girl. LOL. So far no racist issue tho, good thing!

p/s: I walked to downtown with my pair of legs, used up 1 hour plus back and forth. LMAO

That's all for now! :)

15,000km away from home

2011-09-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

Trip from Malaysia to Windsor was not that terrible, but until now I still couldn't find a proper word to describe the entire journey, because is a combination of excitement, nervous, anxious, thrilled, and some bit and pieces. Really grateful for whoever shown up at the airport. Leaving on the morning of Monday is indeed a very awkward time, thank you so much for wake up so early and drive all way long from Klang :) And also my grandmother, she came to my house 2 days before I fly, touched.

Due to time restricted, we didn't have sentimental moment. Missed the chance to hug everyone of them :/ Thank God Ah Xiang called my cellphone after I passed the security check, I saw them on the upper floor, all watching me, then he sang a song, just a few sentences, but carries lots of meaning. Cecilia ended up crying :P I don't know about others, haha.

From KLIA to Hong Kong is just about 4 hours, easy pissy.

Arrived at Hong Kong on 1PM something

There is one thing I didn't mention to anyone yet, which kinda ruined my Hong Kong to Toronto flight. The seat I got was perfect, second last window seat and beside me is an empty seat. Then I was too kind to exchange this perfect seat to a couple. Gahhhh, I shouldn't have change it!

The only playlist I am familiar with. LOL.

The another reason why I should not change my seat. Grr. Girl from China, go Canada as exchange student. She is like first timer on plane. One word to describe, sua gu. Can't help to be mean because she annoyed me quite a lot.

Finally got to watch Kung Fu Panda 2! :)

Mashed potato and beef!

Down there is suppose to be desert, ahhh. Fascinating.

Clouds.

Flying across the Pacific Ocean.

Can you imagine? Air Canada serves instant noodle! =.=

Coin operated computer. 5 minutes $0.50, I spent there like $2? Because my next flight was like 3 or 4 hours after.

Waiting.

Before I fly I keep telling myself not to mingle with too much of Chinese, however I kinda forced to do at the night I reached Windsor airport. There were a few of students from China took the same flight with me from Toronto to Windsor. My very first plan was to call for designated cab by the school to pick me up at the airport but after I heard the conversation between them I decided to follow them instead of travelling alone to Days Inn, because we will be at the same destination afterall. At first I remain silent all the by, I can hear some girls were saying "她是华人吗？" things like that, I ignored, pretend I didn't hear. However this situation didn't remain too long, because I couldn't bare they were like have something to say to me but don't dare to say. They were like so relieved when they know I can speak Chinese, like wtf? =.=

Got to online in Days Inn! :P

A great applause to U of Windsor International Student Centre for paying our cab and one night stay in Days Inn, everything is well arranged :)

Somehow, I don't have much feelings on leaving or not, can't figured out why.

I haven't miss home YET.

梦想的距离

2011-08-25T16:05:00.003+08:00

别问我还有多少天，我只能回答你我会在9月5号离开马来西亚。
我不做倒数这东西，它只会让我panic。

前几个星期真的过到很惨，和一大堆deadlines在死拼着，弄到心力交瘁，心神不定，不过现在全部都搞定了，只剩下收拾行李了。感恩老爸老妈。

说真的，这一切都发生的好像梦，很不真实，到现在还不是很敢相信，两个星期后我就会在另一个国度了。

有人说：“那个时候你一定会想家到哭。” 我想反驳 =.= 我想说，想家是一定会的，哭嘛，倒不会。因为去那里是我的选择，是我想要的，所以哭着说要回来不会发生在我身上，这也是给我自己的一个警惕 :)

随着时间一天一天的过，我觉得SFU reject了我好像是一件好事。虽然温哥华是我一直很想去的地方，但是在那里我一定会和自己的种族混在一起 p/s: 温哥华的亚洲人大约有50%以上吧然而，靠近底特律的温莎，见到黄皮肤的几率几乎只有10%。不是我有种族歧视还是什么，我觉得到外国留学就是要体验当地的生活，和相同肤色的人在一起固然好，可是这样的话就没了留学的意义了，对吧？好在在Taylors的时候已经摆脱了华人口音，起码到那里的时候不会太奇怪。=.=

在FB的新生网页里认识了一个男生，之后会是我的floormate。到现在我还未遇见一个有亚洲人名的人，啊，真的好少 :/ 想到终于要住学校宿舍了，希望我的室友好相处，最好也是亚洲人啦，我不要和黑人住，生活习惯会真的很不同 =.=

啊，第一次里梦想那么近 O.O

Doorway to the States

2011-08-24T17:08:00.003+08:00

"So, you're a Canadian university student?"

"Yup."
"What course are you taking?"
"Visual Arts and Comm."
"How long you have been studying there?"
"Ah nope, this year is my first year."
"Why do you want to go to the US?"
"To visit my friends."
"Where are they?"
"Minnesota, Michigan, Wisconsin, and some others, in fact they just arrived there, they are university students like me."

"Your visa is approved..bla bla bla (I don't remember already)

So yea, people in US, please spare me some space to sleep when I am there okays? :)

So Close

2011-08-17T01:44:00.003+08:00

I know I am bad, did not really explain what happened after I have been rejected by SFU. SFU go STFU la! :(

So, here you go :)

1st July 2011-I realize I have been rejected by SFU via their Student Information System (SIS). They did not even notify me via email! Luckily I checked, if not everything will be delayed. The reason been rejected? LIMITED ENROLLMENT! Damn you limited. Even Miss Zaleha said SFU is weird, not only because of their super slow email response and also, they did not offer me any alternatives! Like admit into next term or another course, wtf! Reject straight, amboi!

6th July 2011-Used up about 1 week to figure out which university I can transfer my credit to. Applied to University of Saskatchewan and University of Windsor. Both of them have the course I desire. Was a very last minute application though!

7th July 2011-Purposely paid a visit to CAE to have a talk with Miss Zaleha to figure out why and how. At the same time let my dad more clear about what the hell is American Degree Transfer Program. Settled transcripts and required documents today as well, courier right away to the universities that I have applied.

12th July 2011-University of Saskatchewan said they can only offer me January intake as their September's is already closed. At the same time tried to call SFU to appeal, somehow they does not pick up their phone, dang.

16th July 2011-Application has been accepted by University of Windsor.

22nd July 2011-Accepted the offer from University of Windsor. And working on study permit to Canada.

25th July 2011-Went to High Commission Canada, Wisma Tan&Tan, Ampang with dad to submit study permit application form.

27th July 2011-Collect medical form from HCC and do medical check up right away.

10th August 2011-Asked to submit passport to HCC.

11th August 2011-Applying US visa. Booked air ticket.

12th August 2011-Collect back passport from HCC.

16th August 2011-Payment cleared which is due on 15th, and got my resident on campus.

And, checked University of Windsor SIS almost everyday, to read email, or to update timetable etc.

***

If you applied to university before, I know you might shouting in your heart: OMFG What is this girl doing?! I know right? EVERYTHING IS SO DAMN LAST MINUTE! Uni application, visa, air ticket and pay for tuition fee/deposit for res/cost for res and meal plan. Everything is like M.I movie for me je. LOL.

MY ADVICE TO FUTURE UNIVERSITY APPLICANTS: APPLY MORE THAN 1 UNIVERSITY! DO EVERYTHING EARLIER! It is super risky to do whatever I've done up there!

***

It is sad that I couldn't get SFU but hey, I started to like University of Windsor! I even peeking it through Google Earth when I am free!

Information you might interested:
Name of School: University of Windsor
Place: Windsor, Ontario. 5 minutes away from Detroit, United States of America.
Course Taking: B.A Hons Visual Arts & Communication, Media and Film
Duration: 3 or 4 years, depends how often I go back to Malaysia
Flight info: 5th September, 0925 KLIA, yes, I am flying alone

I don't really know anyone there, but there is one JPA scholar from CPU, somehow I feel that she might not want to help me out or something, oh well. Just hope everything will be smooth!

HERE I COME, UWIND! :)

QUESTIONS?

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2011-08-13T00:22:00.005+08:00

在偶然之下买了这本书，会有要买的念头是因为它便宜 =.=
当时电影版在fb传到乱的时候我没什么注意，
然后看了Chris的读后感想，我就对自己说：Hmm 虽然一向来对九把刀的写作有点不敢恭维，因为他的风格不是我偏好的那种，但是这本书应该可以买。

读完了以后，思绪掉入了中学时代。
中学时我虽然不是什么校花或风云人物但追求者还是有的，只是duration都不长，多数因不明原因而放弃然后连朋友都没的做那种。
在阅读的当儿，我会有时候把自己当成是沈佳仪，然后他是柯景腾。

“在沈佳仪考上理想大学以前，谁先露出想追她的嘴脸的人，谁就会提早出局。”

中五一年，毕业后2年，时而的紧密接触，说真的，想不动心也难，只是还没到暗恋的阶段吧。不过我可以确定的是，你在我心中的确占有很重要的位置。最好朋友吗？到现在，我还不敢确定。
我希望我未来的另一半是因为喜欢我的人而想要和我在一起。
每当听到不是很熟的男生向我告白我多数会敬而远之，因为要成为我的朋友要花蛮长的时间，我的警戒心很高，对于刚认识的人我都会先用一种很客套的方式去对待，我会用很多时间去鉴定这个人我能不能相信及他/她是个怎样的人。
所以说，近4年的友谊不是假的。
那么，朋友进界成情侣对我来说是怎样呢？
好-难-啊
我是个很怕改变的人，尤其是人与人之间的关系。
老是觉得我在人前一直很糊涂，会结巴，但一个人的时候异常精明，思绪清澈。
我承认我有一点恐人症，我喜欢动物多过人。

如果你那时有开口的话，也许我们真的会在一起，但不是这个时候，将出国留学的节骨眼上，远距离恋爱会杀死人。
告白这个举动应该我永远都不会做吧，福建话说 KIA SI 怕死。
在E事件后我才知道自己是自作多情，幸好没告白：/
某一天，我突然想到我会喜欢他是因为他很像你？言行举止都像。我震了一下，是这样吗？
如果是的话，那么我真正喜欢的人是你？
或许吧。

我在小学的时候就决定我会在上大学的时候在和某人in a relationship，不关学业，而是我自己，我觉得我需要一次的逃脱才能展现真正的自己，用真正的自己去爱一个人，without condition。我告诉过朋友，谈恋爱的事情我不敢想，因为都会想得太美好，太虚拟，不真实。我对恋爱的定义不只是吃饭，看电影，牵手这些datings而已，因为如果我会和一个人在一起，就代表我完完全全相信他，但重要的是，我找到这个人了吗？

"[一起回家] 这四个字，不管在哪个生命历程，都有很浪漫的意义。[一起] 代表这件事一个人无法独立完成，[回家]意味着背后的温情情愫。第一次与你回家的人，你一辈子都不可能忘记。”

你和我一起回家，两次了吧, 虽然非正式的。我有想过，那时你会不会牵我的手。你就是一直以好朋友的身份在我身边出没，纯粹朋友吗？我有希望过不是。

感情啊人生一大学问哟

套CC一句话：顺其自然

顺带一句：九把刀，谢谢你！

CAN YOU IMAGINE?

2011-08-12T17:00:00.008+08:00

CHRIS EVANS aka Captain America THE HOT GUY WHO HAS A 40 INCHES OF BUST SIZE REPLIED MY POST ON FACEBOOK! ♥
And the most important thing is: he did not reply others, woot woot!

Day 10: One Photo

2011-08-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

4 person
4 years
4 different characterics
4 types of journey of life
all of us have our own dream
but
we share
1 friendship

Day 9: Two Songs

2011-08-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

1. 凤凰花开的路口-林志炫

又到凤凰花朵开放的时候
想起某个好久不见老朋友
记忆跟着感觉慢慢变鲜活
染红的山坡到别的路口
青春带走了什么留下了什么
剩一片感动在心窝
时光的河入海流
终于我们分头走
没有哪个港口
是永远的停留
脑海之中有一个凤凰花开的路口
有我最珍惜的朋友
也许值得纪念的事情不多
至少还有这段回忆够深刻
是否远方的你有同样感受
成长的坎坷分享的片刻
当我又再次唱起你写下的歌
仿佛又回到那时候
时光的河入海流
终于我们分头走
没有哪个港口
是永远的停留
脑海之中有一个凤凰花开的路口
有我最珍惜的朋友
几度花开花落
有时快乐有时落寞
很欣慰生命某段时刻
曾一起度过
时光的河入海流
终于我们分头走
没有哪个港口
是永远的停留
脑海之中有一个凤凰花开的路口
有我最珍惜的朋友

2. 同手同脚-温岚

還記得小小年紀鬆開我的手迷失的你
在人群裡看見你一邊哭泣手還握著冰淇淋

有時候難過生氣你總有辦法逗我開心
依然清晰回憶裡那些曾經有笑有淚的光陰

我們的生命先後順序在同個溫室裡
也是存在在這個世界唯一的唯一

未來的每一步一腳印踏著彼此夢想前進
路上偶爾風吹雨淋也要握緊你的手心

未來的每一步一腳印相知相惜相依為命
別忘記之間的約定我會永遠在你身邊陪著你

還記得小小年紀鬆開我的手迷失的你
在人群裡看見你一邊哭泣手還握著冰淇淋

有時候難過生氣你總有辦法逗我開心
依然清晰回憶裡那些曾經有笑有淚的光陰

我們的生命先後順序在同個溫室裡
也是存在在這個世界唯一的唯一

未來的每一步一腳印踏著彼此夢想前進
路上偶爾風吹雨淋也要握緊你的手心

未來的每一步一腳印相知相惜相依為命
別忘記彼此的約定我會永遠在你身邊陪著你

未來的每一步一腳印踏著彼此夢想前進
路上偶爾風吹雨淋也要握緊你的手心

未來的每一步一腳印相知相惜相依為命
別忘記彼此的約定我會永遠在你身邊陪著你

現在我唱的這首歌曲給我最親愛的弟弟
在我未來生命之旅要和你同手同腳的走下去

well uh, as for this, we have our own version with modified lyrics :D

both of these songs will burst me into tears because they will remind me of my secondary school life. nuff said.

Day 8: Three Films

2011-08-04T11:04:00.002+08:00

MOVIES!!! Hahahahah. Not gonna specify movies one by one here but I will categorize it, because if I don't do so, the list will be super long :/

1. Vampire movies!
Underworld 1, 2 and 3, Van Helsing, Vampire Effect and manyyy

3. Heroes
Captain America! Iron Man! Spiderman! X-Men! Superman! *muscularrr*

3. Space/Technology/Magic/Greek (God)/those with bing bang boom!
Alien VS Predator, Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Clash of the Titan/Fast and Furious, Terminator, Transformers, etc.

Day 7: Four Books

2011-08-03T10:13:00.002+08:00

I have my own book cabinet in my room full with books in it, every book in it are property of MINE! hoho so yea, I think I am qualified to be called a bookworm because reading is the thing I usually do when I am not sitting in front the laptop @.@ There are some books that I won't get bored although I already read them for a million time :)

1. 流转之年 by 藤井树
Never fails to make me laugh, always remind me of my secondary school life. I love Hiwayu's other books as well. :)
Favourite quote: 幹，我們都已經不再是孩子了

2. House of Night series
Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, Untamed, Hunted, Tempted, Burned, Awakened, Destined, most importantly The Fledgling Handbook 101. I only have the first 3 books, hunting for the rest now. House of Night is way interesting than Twilight okayyy.
Favourite quote: Darkness does not equal to evil, just as light does not always bring good by Goddess Nyx

3. Books about dog
Marley and me, 再见了可鲁, 狗狗有你真好, and etc.
Favourite quote: update soon or later, don't have the books with me now

4. 5A4 '08 纪念册
I think I have the different feeling compare with others when I reading this, because I am 1 of the 2 creators of this booklet. Missing secondary school T.T

Day 6: Five Foods

2011-08-02T10:53:00.002+08:00

Are you kidding me? This is the topic I love the most!! XD

1. Bak Kut Teh
Ohmy ohmy, a must-have for every week! Yummmsss! Gonna freaking miss this after I leave :/ :'(

2. Hakka Lei Cha
Especially mama home made one! Yuummms! :D

3. Japanese Cuisine
Shake (salmon) sushi, beef udon, koroke, ohmygodness! H-E-A-V-E-N!

4. Pasar Malam food (Only in Malaysia!)
Bubble tea, cup corn, waffle, burger, tau fu fa, popiah, ohmygod drools!

5. Fast Foods
KFC, McDonalds', Pizza Hut, Domino's and etc. Woots!

ME LOVE FOOD! Wheeeee~

Captain America: The First Avenger

2011-08-02T10:04:00.008+08:00

Marvel's movie is my favourite always! Love those muscular hot heroes so much! *crazy girl fan scream* And how would I miss the most recent one Captain America? THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE! *die die also must watch okay?!*

Finally watched this movie on last Sunday at Aeon JJ, Klang. It was awesomee pawsomee! And I realized Captain Rogers was played by Chris Evans from the credit screen at the end of the story! *epic fail right?* Ohmy, don't know who is that? Lemme refresh your memory! :D

The human torch in movie Fantastic 4

Nick Gant in movie Push

R-E-M-E-M-B-E-R? :D

Yeaaaaa. Is Chris Evans 'yo! Hottie hottie! :D He look even hotter in Captain America *nose bleeding*

This is how he look like at the beginning of the movie. A short and skinny guy who wanna serve his country badly. He has been rejected for...... Oh shoot, I am such a spoiler! I shall stop now, just post photos enough :D

The after! After some uh hmmm experiment :D

Woots woots! :D

I got reliable source said that the muscular body of his is REAL while the short and skinny one is modified by computer, hi-tech nuff right? :D By the way I think Chris gained some weight though, judging by his face, got rounder than before O.o

Anywho, THIS IS A MUST WATCH MOVIE! Rated 9/10 :D

p/s: I thought Captain America can fly, when he like fall or something inside my heart kept shouting "fly! fly! fly!"till the end he doesn't =.= The reason why I mention it here because there might people who will make the same mistake like me, this is a reminder. LOL

Day 5: Six Places

2011-08-01T10:23:00.001+08:00

Gonna make this 6 memoriable places

1. Previous home
2. SMJK Kwang Hua
3. Taylors' University College
4. Funa Zushi
5. Okinawa, Japan
6. Padborg, Denmark

p/s: Lazy to eleborate jor, this is a retyped post. Everything I typed just now just "poof!", no mood type jor. LOL.

Day 4: Seven Wants

2011-07-30T09:38:00.001+08:00

1. Themed coffee shop
This is my dream since small, hehe. Imagine people sitting in a comfy single couch, enjoying the coffee smelled atmosphere, with a sweet taste of tiramisu cake.While me busy in the kitchen preparing stuff for customers. Oh gosh how amazing is that. No doubt, I can bake okay? :D As for the theme, I already have 1 in mind, postcard! There entire wall of the shop will have postcard pasted on. Well, need quite an amout though, I am working on it already! So far the postcards I have now can cover half of a wall in my room. :D

2. Diploma in Pastry and Bakery
I always want to do Tourism majoring in this, but my dad rejected, harshly, with a powerful reason. That is, I will not have free time when people celebrating big festival like CNY, Hari Raya because I have to work out effing hard to prepare sufficient amount of cakes and cookies for these festival. So, I am gonna do this after my degree is done, most prolly study in part time. Hobby mah :D

3. My own house
Note that I am not that kind oh-I-wanna-leave-my-parents-asap-because-they-are-so-annoying girl. I gonna buy myself a house in the future, I am the only owner, I own everything in the house. And the design in it I already sort of figured out, hehehe. Comfy type lah! :P I think this is quite important as I take this as a thing that must do to indicates I am a grown up! :D

4. Backpacker
Dad doesn't allow too but I am still gonna do it anyway. New Zealand is the first place, must do it before 30 years old yawww!

5. Athlete body
I want back my athlete body like seriously. Now I couldn't even run like before. Miss those days run 400m like orang gila. Toss softball like a pro pitcher. Swing bat like a batter. Table tennis backhand forehand 100 times. Roarrrr. I want my healthy body back T.T And and and, I keep gaining weight T.T

6. Thicker face
I often got comment that my face is too thin, the another meaning is, I am too shy. Well, kinda true. I couldn't make jokes in front of people that I newly know, just shy shy shy shyyyy. I remember my POP art teacher in Tzu Chi said that: 害羞只会让你失去更多. I knowwww, I am trying to improve alreadyyyyy.

7. I want any one of the apple product can? Like almost everyone have either IPhone, IPod, IPad bla bla. I have none. Okay lah, just wanna make myself cooler can? These are not necessities though, I know :P

Is all about the money, money, money.

2011-07-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

Just tensed up. frustrated, feel like bang my head to the wall hard.

Why the fuck is everything there so expensive? And can you people stop giving me pressure? I KNOW IS EXPENSIVE! No point emphasize this to me again, just couldn't change anything. Both of us know this very clearly, this is a one way ticket, there is no way to turn back or pull off.

All I can do is study fucking hard and get scholarships okay? I only eat under residence okay? I don't go for hang out okay? This is all I could promise and do!

They only allow students who study 2 semesters and above to work on campus, what you want me to do? Work off campus might need a work permit, to apply for it will cost a fortune as well!

STOP PRESSING ME PLEASE! STOP ACTING LIKE FIRST TIME SENDING OFF YOUR CHILDREN TO OVERSEAS!

If you really think study overseas is too expensive why don't just fucking stop me at the first time? And why after you approved and complain a lot? It doesn't make sense to me! Can't afford for this you guys can just speak up, anywho this is my dream, I can achieve it by myself although just go as a visitor. JUST TELL, I REALLY DON'T MIND. No point tie up everyone stomach just to fulfill my dream, this will just make me feel guilty.

I ain't rich, although my parents are paying for me tuition fee, doesn't mean like I am all covered with branded stuff or can act like a typical rich girl what not. I hate people who think I am a person like that, just get me furious.

These days are just mentally suffering.

GOD, LET ME GET SOME FORTUNE, WIN SOMETHING LIKE LOTTERY. Argh.

Day 3: Eight fears

2011-07-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

1. Change
2. No food
3. No sleep
4. Noisy
5. Lose something I cherish
6. Uncertainties
7. Failure
8. Butterfly/moth

Day 2: Nine Loves

2011-07-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

1. Nicky
2. Family
3. Kamfa
4. Food
5. Sleep
6. Music
7. My laptop
8. Animals
9. Sports *used to*
10. My uni *hopefully*

Day 1: Ten secrets

2011-07-27T13:58:00.002+08:00

To reveal my secrets is kinda hard, especially when I not sure which is secret which is not. I will try my best okay :)

1. Picky big eater
Most of the people know I eat a lot, like really A LOT, not joking. I can finish a 2 person fried rice all by myself. If you don't think that is a lot then you might also a big eater. Okay, this is not the point. The thing is, I am very particular in food, in another way, PICKY. I only eat things I like, no matter how people persuade me to eat something that I don't kike, I JUST DON'T EAT. This is quite a big problem though, because I dislike a lot of food, for example seafood, any spicy thing, garlic, onion yada yada. And, I can eat the same thing for few days, tried before fried rice for 3 days consequently. LOL

2. LOA
Believe or.not, I am actually a lil bit of lack of attention, just that I do not act like some bitches everyday post on their wall praising how much they love.themselves how fabulous their dinner is things like that. I do have a little pride inside of me, but uh I think I showed in a quite different place. I like to be the main attraction in the group, I like the feeling that everyone notice me. This is the reason why sometimes I will do things out of your expectations :)

3. Mood swing
People who often chat with me might notice, I always have mood swing, between hyper and enough most of the time. The change can be very fast, lol. Makes me feel like I have multi-personalities or what, scary, lol. However, when nothing happens, hyper and crack jokes like nobody business is the default mood, lol.

4. Introverted or extroverted?
I am super duper shy when meeting with strangers while super duper crazy with my close friends.

5. Weirdo
Somehow I just act abnormally, you know, like a weirdo, in the sense of behavior and thinking. My friends and brothers would agree to this, very much, LOL.

6. I read (newspapers/books) when I am doing the big business in the toilet, got this habit from my mum. *don't laugh =.=*

7. While having meals in KFC, I always mix the mashed potato and coleslaw together, make it like sauce for fried chicken. Lot of people said this is gross but I just like it, lol.

8. I miss my talkative brother in Taiwan, for real. The house is damn quite without him although he is the trouble maker. =/

9. My heart just broken recently, found out the target is not available anymore. I need a new target right now.

10. Talkative people annoys me. I prefer write than talk. When I put on the "like-I-care" face or not giving attention means I am not listening anymore

10 Days Challenge

2011-07-26T11:30:00.004+08:00

I think this thing is quite fun, and can kill my lifelessness at the same time. Yes, I am bored. LOL.

Let the game start TOMORROW! :)

Someone Like You

2011-07-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend

Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

*** *** ***

All the best to you, the one who appears in my dream often.
As for myself, is time to move on.

Potter Fever!

2011-07-18T00:21:00.004+08:00

Just came back from watching HP7 Part 2. Was awesome, but I really hope that they can make it a 3 hours movie like Transformers 3 so that everything can be well explained, like Fred, Remus's death, Severus's death, Molly VS Bellatrix, etc. Just couldn't accept that these scenes are like that, simple, INCOMPLETE!

Anywho, just sent my email address to Pottermore, wheeeeee, awaiting something special in my inbox on 31st July :P

And, I am gonna download HP 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 on my laptop soon, because it's Potter Fever! Hohohohohoho.

Oh oh by the way, Albus Severus Potter is way too cute! So cute so cute sooooo cuteeee!

This kiddo!
Played as Harry Potter's son in HP7 Part 2 in the end of the movie, named Albus Severus Potter, his name is by Arthur Bowen.
Cute right???? :D

7 months 19 days

2011-07-17T15:54:00.005+08:00

500th blog post on this blog, I shall dedicate this to you, and myself. P/S: I miss you

1）我這一生大概能活10到15年，和你分別是件無比痛苦的事。
My life likely to last ten to fifteen years. Any separation from you will be painful for me. Remember that before you buy me.

2）在給我命令時請給我理解的時間，別對我發脾氣，雖然我一定會原諒你的，你的耐心和理解能讓我學得更快。
Give me time to understand what you want of me

3）請好好對我，因為世界上最珍惜最需要你的愛心的是我，別生氣太久，也別把我關起來，因為，你有你的生活，你的朋友，你的工作和娛樂，而我，只有你。
Don't be angry for me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work，your entertainment and your firends. I have only you.

4）經常和我說話吧，雖然我聽不懂你的語言，但我認得你的聲音，你是知道的，在你回家時我是多麼高興，因為我一直在豎著耳朵等待你的腳步聲.
Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words. I understand your voice when it's speaking to me.

5）請注意你對待我的好，我永遠不會忘記它，如果它是殘酷的，可能會影響我永遠.
Be aware that however you treat me, I'll never forget it and if it's cruel it may affect me forever

6）請別打我，記住，我有反抗的牙齒，但我不會咬你。
Remerber before you hit me that I have teeth that could easily crush the bones of your hand，but that I choose not to bite you.

7）在你覺得我懶，不再又跑又跳或者不聽話時，在罵我之前，請想想也許我出了什麼問題，也許我吃的東西不對，也許我病了，也許我已經老了。
Before you scold me for being uncooperative，please ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food，or I've been run in the sun too long or my heart is getting old and weak.

8）當我老了，不再像小寶貝時那麼可愛時，請你仍然對我好，仍然照顧我，帶我看病，因為我們都會有老的一天.
Take care of me when I get old. You too，will grow old.

9）當我已經很老的時候，當我的健康已經逝去，已無法正常的生活，請不要想方設法讓我繼續活下去，因為我已經不行了，我知道你也不想我離開，但請接受這個事實，並在最後的時刻與我在一起，求求你一定不要說"我不忍心看它死去"而走開，因為在我生命的最後一刻，如果能在你懷中離開這個世界，聽著你的聲音，我就什麼都不怕，你就是我的家，我愛你！
Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say I can't bear to watch it or let it happen in my absent. Everything is easily for me if you are there. Remember，I love you.

老家，锁住我们回忆的地方。
Former home, a place that kept our memories.

我知道你会在某个地方看着我，
I know you're somewhere looking at me,

我感觉的到。
I can feel you.

♥♥♥

习惯没有你的生活了吗？
感觉好空虚。

Used to the life that without you?
I feel uncontended.

我爱你，
I love you,

你听到吗？
Can you hear me?

Places I Wish to See Before I Die

2011-07-16T00:14:00.012+08:00

Thanks to the Guam photos on Facebook, makes me so wanna go for a travel right now, like RIGHT NOW!!!

So, I came up with a list.
These are places I wish to go in the future, must complete at 50% before I die :P

-The Grand Canyon, USA.

-Great Barrier Reef, Australia.

-Miami, Florida, USA.

-South Island, New Zealand

-Cape Town, South Africa

-Las Vegas, USA.

-New York, USA.

-Canadian Rockies, Alberta, Canada.

-Uluru, Australia.

-Chichen Itza, Yucatan, Mexico

-Machu Picchu - Peru

-Niagara Falls, Ontario, Canada.

-Petra, Jordan

-The Pyramids - Egypt

-Venice, Italy

-Maldives

-Great Wall of China, BeiJing, China

-Victoria Falls - Zimbabwe

-Yosemite National Park, California, USA.

-Hawaii, USA.

-Auckland - New Zealand

-Iguazu Falls, Argentina/Brazil/Paraguay

-Paris, France

-Alaska, USA.

-Angkor Wat, Cambodia

-Himalayas, Nepal

-Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

-Masai Mara, Kenya

-Galapagos Islands, Ecuador

-Luxor, Egypt

-Rome, Italy

-San Francisco, USA.

-Barcelona, Spain

-Dubai, United Arab Emirates

-La Digue, Seychelles

-Sri Lanka

-Barbados

-Iceland

-Terracotta Army, Xi An, China

-Zermatt, Switzerland

-Angel Falls, Venezuela

-Abu Simbel, Egypt

-Bali, Indonesia.

-French Polynesia, France

-Easter Island, Chile

-Guam, USA.

-Caño Cristales (Rainbow River), Columbia.

-Zurich, Switzerland.

-The Louvre, Paris, France.

-Santa Claus Village, Finland.

-Prague, Czech Republic.

-JiuZhaiGou Valley, SiChuan, China

-Tibet

-Palau Island

-Fiji

-Belgium

-Red Square, Moscow, Russia

-Hokkaido, Japan

-Shinjuku, Japan

-Osaka, Japan

-Holland

-Bohol Island, Philippines

-Berlin, Germany.

- Seattle, USA.

-Cambridge, UK.

-HangZhou, China

Salar de Uyuni， Bolivia.

Jing Si hall, Tzu Chi Foundation, HuaLien, Taiwan

and the list will still go on!

Due to the financial issue, I shall accomplish some of these in my dream, unless I become a millionaire in a sudden, or someone willing to sponsor my trip expenses! :)

ARE-YOU-FEELING-EXCITED TOO?

Credits to Google.com for supplying all the awesome photos.

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

2011-07-13T10:36:00.003+08:00

Excuse my narcissim, I just plain happy and plain bored.

Tooked a photo of myself wearing singlet and long jeans and uploaded on Facebook.

What I didn't expect it, I actually can get over 40 likes! Woot woot!

First time ever!

Big thanks to whoever liked it, simply made my day!
Woohoo!

Mr. Popper's Penguin

2011-07-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

Oh wow, it has been a while I wrote movie review O.O such a procrastinator.

So the movie I would like to write for this post you can see at the title there, haha.
Ever since I watched the trailer of this movie I decided "I MUST WATCH THIS MOVIE", I kept on nag nag nag with my friends then ended up I watched with my parents. LOL

And somehow my mum were obsessed to this movie too, her reaction was quite similar to me, everyday ask me to check the screening time, regardless my brother is in exam week =.=

Last night, both of us, my mum and me sort of tricked my dad, he thought we wanna buy groceries at Aeon JJ, when he drove us there then he realized he got cheated. LOLOLOL

Jim Carrey is my all time favourite comedian, first ever movie of him I watched is Bruce Almighty, classic! Love the broadcasting part.

I don't wanna talk much about the plot, go cinema and watch yourself! You will like it!

I love the message of this movie. Whatever you do, don't ever abandon your love ones, no matter they are family, friends， spouse, even pets. So my dear ones, hope I am doing the right thing, I will try my best not to forget any of you people :)

Popper has 6 Gentoo penguins, I have only...1?!

5 Habits of Mine that Make Me Boy-ish

2011-07-12T12:11:00.003+08:00

1. I don't like to wear dresses.
You can only see me wearing dress when prom or officially dinner, other than that, shorts.

2. I don't like to shopping.
I spend almost all of my money on FOOD, yes FOOD. Whatever discount clearance sales just won't lead me high. And I only have little knowledge of those branded stuffs, Burberry, Coach, LV whatever, I am not interested.

3. I don't like to put on make ups.
Used to apply make up when I was in primary school, moments that I have to perform on stage. Nevertheless, the latest make up was on WTF Prom 2011, thanks for make up artist Enthel Tan, although just eye shadow. For me personally, wearing make ups makes me feel fake, doesn't bring any beauty at all, and what for dying hard to achieve beautiness?

4. I never put nail polish on my nails.
Yes, never, not even 1 finger. They just doesn't attracts my attention. I always prefer natural, no chemical stuffs on my body.

5. Phobia
Rats and cockroaches wouldn't freaks me out, but something else, an ugly creature that girls will like. Feel free to take a guess, it start with a letter M, sometimes B.

Don't ever tell me something like "You are a girl, you should bla bla bla", if you wanna input things like this into my mind, IMPRESS ME, tell me why a girl SHOULD wear dress, does it make any difference? If you answer me with "is a girl's nature to wear dress", you're totally out. Please go find out how did the design of dress came of.

Yay, me rock! ;)

逃离逃避 ESCAPE

2011-07-05T23:01:00.003+08:00

我是不是个会逃避问题的人？
说真的，我没什么印象了。

最后一次真正遇到问题是什么时候？
不记得，我真的想不起了。

我只知道，目前这个问题只有逃避在能够解决。

在成就梦想的当儿也把这件事（还有其他小事）做个了断。

这一切，只为了证明自己，到底行不行。

自己是温室里的小花吗？说不准。
是不是因为那种天掉下来当被盖的性格？也许吧。

我需要一个新的世界，新的环境。
好好的静下来，真正的认识自己。
也趁机会好好的放纵，也许人生只有一次这样。

、

“为什么这么想去那里？”
“那是个呼唤，一个calling。” 好事也许会在那里发生
“......”

我要自由，心灵上的自由。

Answer

2011-07-01T11:52:00.004+08:00

After been worried for many months, I got the answer finally.

A letter.

For those who applied to university before will know what does this mean.

I should receive a packet of document. A letter means I failed. With the reason limited enrollment.

BIG DISAPPOINTMENT

When dad told me the school sent me a letter I already know the answer, since I didn't receive any emails. So yea.

My dad said we can try to appeal. However I don't have much hope for it.

INTI just doesn't professional enough to advice in Canadian Universities, this is a very sad case. Both parties (she and I) just put this on a bet, no one have the 100% confirmation of what both of us are doing.

Perhaps go to INTI is just wrong at the beginning. I ruined my grades there, even my objective of life.

Okay, last shot, Waterloo, just hope everything is gonna be alright. Tonight submit my proposal to my dad.

If I fail again, bye Canada.

Lastly, please allow me.

TMDKNNMMCBWTFWTHDLLJCB0O0screwmyselfscrewintiscreweverythingfuckeduplikeidontcareatallifeellikestabmyselfkaokaolat!!!!!

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

2011-06-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

Working Life wtf?

2011-06-29T16:18:00.002+08:00

So yeaaaa, I have been dragged to back to this place again--my dad's place.
Ever since I have holidays for sure I will be forced to come to here.
Well, not that I hate to work, just it is FREAKING BORING here! fml

Objective of me being here is to make the employees' life better.
How to say?
I do things that they don't want to do, like filling, arrange, update price list, scan, filling, and more filling.
Got me?
Blah blah blah blahhhh
OH I FORGOT TO SAY!
My another job is to fetch my brother! !@#$%^&*()_+

I am damn lifeless now.
Everyday routine is like morning to evening work, night time usually movie/facebook/book, and a little amount of hang out.
Gahhhhhh
Can't really cabut from the job though, no matter I have nothing to do I still have to stay in the office. wth right? Stupid boss. =.=

For every girls

2011-06-24T21:49:00.003+08:00

1. 不要在哭泣的时候说气话，下决定，你会后悔的。

2. 心里能装着一些时间带不走的淡淡悲伤，也是一种幸福。

3. 有的事情，没法说明。你觉得值，就值，你觉得不值，别人说值，你也觉得不值。

4. 尽量做个优雅的女子，千万别做作。

5. 善于妥协的女人，很宝贵。但是，只善于妥协的女人，很廉价。

***
You know,
what you've said today actually hurts me.

I wish we could understand and tolerate each other more.

All these time,
the only thing I could do is just remain silent.

No matter what,
I will love you always.

Sincerely,
your daughter.

From Ugly Duckling To A Swan

2011-06-19T17:14:00.004+08:00

Like most of the love stories at the beginning the female actress was berry berry ugly with the stupid glasses, annoying braces, tanned skin, bla bla with all characteristics that not what people called-pretty. And then after some make over like put on contact lenses, remove the braces, put on makeups, bla bla bla, taa-daa! Pretty lady! And then get her prince of charming that kind of things.

So, what's my point?

I came across with the contact lens case these few days, first is a movie, second is my cousin. third, Katy Perry's T.G.I.F. LOL They just looked so different without their glasses. :O
Ya' know, I am sort of sensitive with contact lens issue, because it is so so GELI! *for me* eventhough people asked me to wear it since I am form 1, bwahahaha, who cares! LOL

Is like, why people think glasses will make face ugly? I don't get thissssss. See an example below:

Don't you think I am cute?
Bwahahahahahahahahaahahah

Ok la, just for laughing purpose, hope I made your day! :P

And I found, most of the people, who don't read my blog, thought I am wearing contact lenses! Bwahahahahaha. Whateverrrr.

Prettttyyy?
Meh.

Happy father's day to every father in this world! :)

stfu

2011-06-15T00:47:00.004+08:00

Enough is enough. I couldn't bear with this anymore. My daily mind routine just spoilt, this is not the way I usually do/think, this is not the way my mind works. Stop injecting crappy stuffs into my head, I HATE IT!

These few weeks my life is just suffocating, I can barely breathe, feel free. Always have that kind of feeling that something is blocking me, can't remove it away. The factor? I would call it, peer pressure.

So what if I have a crush? So what if I just want to remain silent? What is your stand point of telling me to confess? Is that necessary? For you, right? Now, you don't have to worry about this issue anymore. I am giving up, giving up everything, I don't want to be in love, I have no interest to be in a relationship, at least for now. I don't care if you call me a homo or asexual, whatever, I don't care, I don't have more attention to care about this anymore.

Simply tired, bored to be a stalker, waiting someone's text, check Facebook everyday to see whether there is someone's name in the notification. I actually enjoyed all these, until you guys brought the issue up. Everything is like exposed to the air, and seems like you guys are trying to manipulate my style, even my direction, like what the heck. I understand what I am doing, although it seems pointless, not like what you guys think is the best-to confess.

I have plans for my life, just so you know. To be in a relationship in not in the plan until I graduated from university, so please get it. And why, ultimate reason is I think I am not well prepared. Firstly, I am a person with loads of flaw, I need to either correct it or face it. There is a Chinese proverb said that, before you love someone, you have to learn to love yourself first. Apparently, I found that I hate myself, dislike for what/who I am now. I furious for not being perfect, not good enough, not awesome. You might say, no one is perfect. Indeed, so I have a standard of perfect for myself, as long as I couldn't achieve that, I am forever a loser. For my situation now I am not suitable to have another person in my life, to be honest, I am overwhelmed with what I have now, too many advices, too many gossips. Exhausted.

-case 1-
One day I didn't receive the offer letter, one day my mind will not have peace.

-case 2-
If you like to be a secret collecter, so be it, and be responsible. What's the point of start a point and then cut it off halfway and tell us that's a secret? If is a unspoken one, why would you tell us at the first place?

I want my life back, and peace too, thanks.

成熟的自己

2011-06-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

1、遇到不想回答的问题，直视对方的眼睛，微笑、沉默。

2、走路抬头挺胸，心情不好时，不想跟人招呼，点头微笑，径直走过。

3、请记得，好朋友的定义是：你混的好，他打心眼里为你开心；你混的不好，他由衷的为你着急。

4、做自己的决定。然后准备好承担后果。从一开始就提醒自己，世上没有后悔药吃，而我永远有个计划

5、自己分内的事情，努力做到一百分。

6、接受自己不过是个“小小的我”，但眼里要能够悦纳“大大的世界”

7、如果你爱某人请给他自由，属于你的永远会回来，不属于你的永远也得不到。

8、不要试图给自己找任何借口，错误面前没人爱听那些借口。

9、不要随意发脾气，谁都不欠你的。

10、不说谎话，因为总有被拆穿的一天。

11、别低估任何人。

12、你没那么多观众，别那么累。

13、过去的事情可以不忘记，但一定要放下。

14、别人说的记在脑袋里，而自己的，则放在心里。

15、社会是有等级的，很多事不公平。别抱怨，因为没有用

16、你永远没有你自己想象中那么重要。

17、钱能解决的问题统统不叫问题。

18、无论何时说“我爱你”，请真心实意。无论何时说“对不起”，请看着对方的眼睛。

19、永远不要以貌取人。慢慢地说，但要迅速地想.

20、找点时间，单独呆会儿。

21、不是自己的东西不要，就是再喜欢也不行，要懂得放弃。

22、不要觉得是生活亏欠了你，其实是我做的努力不够。

23、努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，愿望就会实现。

24、说话时慢慢地说，但要迅速地想.

Vision & Lost

2011-06-08T22:44:00.005+08:00

You know sometimes when you imgine yourself doing something, you can see the "you" in that situation. Few months ago, the "me" in the imgination world still the old look, I mean, with that blue spec. Until few days ago, when I start imagine things, I shocked and trembled, since when I start using this look? The look without spec? Without any realization.

Does it mean that I already forgot the old me? Does it mean that I am now used to this look? I am afraid, I am worried to lose myself. I really hate this kind of insecure feeling, being not myself anymore.

These 8 months, whenever I look in the mirror, at the first second, most of the time I can't sure what I am looking at is real or not, feeling at the moment is just so illusionary.

I started to wear the powerless blue spec I bought in Malacca EVERYDAY, I mean, at least try to do it everyday. Just don't know why spec can really fix all these problems, eventhough a fake one. I won't/can't to poke my eyes anymore when I am trying to do the "take off spec" action, I won't have the uneasy feel that my eyes exposed to the air *I know this is a bit exagerrated but this is exactly how I feel* and etc. Also, when I am meeting with old friends I will put on spec, maybe because I think they might not used to my new look, or I just don't want to let people what I've done to my eyes, the blue think spec was my trademark.

Last year November until now, I still having the creepy feeling that I can see myself so clear when sitting in saloon, I can see the person who cutting my hair so clear. Also when Perhentian, I don't have to use goggles with power like in Redang, goggle with power of 600 still not enough. Besides goggles, sunglasses also freaks me out! OMGWTFBBQ argh, that feeling! Everything from November 2011 is just so not right, things happen with not the way I want, my mind is just like floating, can't find a stand point, couldn't get a place to stable down. All these just drive me so so frustrated!

Apart of that, night vision! Argh! I can't drive as smooth as before when night time anymore! I can't have 100% accuracy when I drive at night! One of my relatives who did this operation told me that this is a common problem, it will only back to normal after 1 or 2 year, because the wound need some time to heal. So within these period, the amount of light reflect into the eyes will not stable. WTF!

My dad asked "how do you feel after the operation?" "I don't really like it" I replied. He showed a disappointed face. Sorry dad, I really don't mean to do it, just that, 15 year of accompanion of spec just cannot disappear just like that. This transition is not easy for me to cope with, really.

I need to find myself back again, but I don't know how, completely lost direction.

I refuse change.
I reject change.
I fear change.

最准的星座终极分析-金牛座

2011-06-06T12:30:00.000+08:00

幽默是金牛的天赋
与一般星座书上描写的金牛们相反，其实金牛座非常具有幽默感。他们天生就有搞笑的才能，善于制造轻松的氛围，不要再将牛牛们认为成是一群僵硬腐化的人，相反他们很可爱。还记得在《满城尽带黄金甲》的发布会场上不断耍宝的金牛发哥吗？他的幽默感绝对令资深娱记也大跌眼镜，人缘好不是随便说说的，金牛座有着宽厚的胸怀。

其实他们有着叛逆的灵魂

金牛基本上看起来都是乖孩子，仿佛脚踏实地，固执老实，但是，谁曾想到，其实他们的内心都有着一个小邪魔在作祟？他们虽然是一板一眼的生活，但是在他们的内心里却喜欢着调皮的恶作剧。不要金牛们想象的太沉闷，他们其实内心五彩斑斓，而且特别钟意制造出各种人生的小小乐趣。也正是这样叛逆的灵魂，让有些金牛让人吃惊。所以，一般的容貌姣好的乖乖女，或者一般人理想中的文静男，其实，都不属于金牛的鉴赏范围，他们总会奇异的喜欢些标新立异的人。这点在金牛男上表现的较为突出，也因此而衍生出不少瓶女和牛男的佳话吧。

思考是金牛的具象

在贪图享乐的外表下，金牛有一颗哲学家的心。他们看问题的方法与众不同，他们有着唯物主义的思考逻辑，不会轻易人云亦云，也正因为如此，他们让人觉得固执非常。

但是千万不要因为固执就否认金牛们的智慧，有马克思，列宁，康德……为证，金牛们完整的理性思维往往能建立严密体系，只是有时候他们太容易钻牛角尖！不过即使是钻牛角尖的牛牛也具有鲜明的个人特质，李敖就是这类金牛的代表：）

务实的人生不需要浪漫武装

跟牛牛生活是一件比较乏味的事情，如果你钟爱浪漫的仪式。

因为牛牛无论金钱或者生活，他们都踏着务实的步伐。他们不会轻易说我爱你，他们不会随便送花，他们甚至不记得你的生日，更别提情人节等什么形而上的各种纪念日，这让人大为光火。因为没有了形式的爱情，又怎么能证明是爱情呢？

但是，金牛们会告诉你，其实有时候真正的帮助其实好过鲜花香水，有时候挺身而出的担当其实胜过所有的甜言蜜语。所以金牛们的爱情，也许让人闷到感觉不出火花，但是，在贫乏的爱的表象下，却藏着他们深刻的滴水不漏而且日久弥坚的关怀。

享乐人生的信仰

金牛们懂得生活。他们虽然很执著，但是该放弃的时候，他们并没有太多犹豫。从利益出发考量的方式，让他们在现实生活中相当的如鱼得水，而懂得平衡自己的贪念，而追求物质的享受和一心的宁静，是金牛座中的极品。这样的金牛能够在逆境中坦然，在顺境中懂得顺应。他们有着预见性的智慧，使人生得到完整的规划。在适当的时候寻求闲适，所以金牛座很少有面临困境无法自拔的困兽，他们相当的懂得自我调节和生活。他们有着自己的节奏。

能够轻松生活的智者

金牛们在星座排行中表现一般，但是其实他们都很出色，金牛座的孩子往往是班干部，金牛座的爸爸妈妈都是模范爸妈，他们在生活中尽职尽责，富有责任感，虽然有时候稍嫌古板，但是正是他们撑起了所谓规矩的框架。

严肃生活认真思考却有能享有生活乐趣的金牛们其实非常可爱，当然，如果他们不那么市侩，那就更好了！

***
好好地认识一下我啦！ :D

Secret-Love

2011-06-03T12:14:00.003+08:00

I have no idea why and how my gang of friends started to be so open in discussing love relationship topic. Is like our problems on boy girl relationship happened at the same time or I should say EXPOSED.

This situation last from that day I came back from China, UNTIL NOW. So whenever we meet our topic definitely will be this, couldn't escape.

FYI, I had crush on 3 people before, and the first one lasted for 8 years, yes, 8 years, you didn't see wrong. While second I would say it is just a small little admire, it lasted uh, no idea, was a very short period. And the third one, hmm, I am still having crush on him now. LOL. And if I don't tell anyone about this, others won't think that I actually have someone in my heart.

My way of admiring people just so stupid or I should say stubborn. I stalk people. I know everything of his details, family, car number, bla bla shit. And ironically, no one know anything about this. LOL. So now you can know why my first crush can be 8 years long, and that guy don't even notice, until now. Bwahahaha.

And, I think I am different with others, I won't want that person to know my feelings. Damn, I am so sick! LOL. But that's my way and I am happy with that, so, please stop convincing me to change my mind or telling me this is wrong. There is nothing wrong about in this case, right right?

So yea, I don't really want to be in a relationship for this moment, I think I am not mentally prepared enough, I need to play more, learn more, observe more, hello, I am still young!! :D

Bag Packer's Chapter 1: Guang Zhou, China

2011-05-29T19:30:00.001+08:00

Finally 9 days of travel in GuangZhou, China is done!

At first, I really want to make this trip as a self/independent/everything-done-by-self travel, also put it as a test to test out am I really independent enough to leave this country as well.

In the end, not everything were up to my expectation. Everything started with a woman, a friend of my mum at there, and some issues came up before I leave Guang Zhou. I was depressed for these for few days even after I came back.
So, let just not talk about sad thing first okay?

I don't really remember how my friend Cecilia and I came up with this idea, to travel, just both of us, with the consideration of another 2 friends still in college, not able to join us. Guang Zhou was not our first choice though, it was Taiwan, but then this year is their 100th anniversary so the air ticket to fly to there will be friggin expensive and there will be crowds, which Cecilia and I dislike a lot. Then we also considered Bali. After some comparison andd discussion we choose to go Guang Zhou because of some reasons. Like, my parents have a house there, so our accomodation fee will be free, public transportation there is very efficient, super cheap to shopping there, most importantly (also a headache for us after that), my mum's friend is there, if we need any help we can look for her.

At there, we didnt join any local tour, we travel ALL BY OURSELVES! Well, we joined one, sort of forced by my mum's friend. We signed that up on the first day we arrived, when we are still in blur state. Our RMB600+ and 2 days just gone like that. If we didnt sign up for this we might go places that we really wanted to go. Argh, big regret!

Like I said just now, public transportation is superb! Especially their metro, our KTM really cannot compete with it. LOL. Most of the time we use metro to go to places we wanted to visit, and some places we used bus, also taxi. However, they rest/stop servicing quite early, around 11pm like that. We thought of can pay a visit to their pub or whatever but in the end we didnt manage to go, another regret!

So now, talk about my companion aka my best friend Cecilia. This was her first time been to China, and she was exhilarated for most of the time when being in Guang Zhou. First thing, her appearance. She is a Chindian but speaks superb Mandarin. When China people bumped into her, most of them will go O.o or :O. SUPRISED! China people just so jealous that we Malaysian can speak that many of language, some of them can't even speak good Mandarin instead their own dialect, Malaysians, do you feel proud now? :D Besides that, she is a Chinese cultural lover, unlike me, half-banana(?) LOL. I don't know as much China history as her. So when we visit some historical places like museum or tomb, she feel thrilled, sometimes shout: Oh, I read about this before! With a super big wide smile :D I really feel happy that she enjoys everything there, this also one of the reason I bring she here, to destress. Meanwhile, I slowly influencing her with my blur-ness and sampat-ness, by cracking jokes, taking stupid syok sendiri photos and etc. It was really fun! Hope we can have chance to travel together again.

In a nutshell, I shall rate this trip 8/10. I really enjoyed for the whold process! However, do I achieve my target? Not entirely. Thanks to my mum's friend for being sooooo caring, argh. I failed myself! Ok, don't be so harsh to myself. At least we didn't encounter anything bad, applause to myself! :)

So, which bag packer destination is _________? :)

P-E-R-H-E-N-T-I-A-N!

2011-05-18T17:07:00.014+08:00

Often times when a course ends, people will come up with a trip.
Like when I was in CPU, the scholars gang went to Pulau Redang.
And when INTI-AUP, I followed scholars to Pulau Perhentian.
So why am I so attached wtih scholars huh, and why they like to go beaches? Coincidence? Haha. YAY JPA scholars like me! LOL

You know, is hard to not compare 2 of these trip, so yeaaaaa.

A group of 44 people!

Kuala Besut Port

Boat which taking us to the island

Omg, look how clear the water is!

Place we stay in. Fauna resort.

Perhentian unlike Redang, Western tourists more like to visit here, haha.

The overpriced shop. 1 ice cream cost like RM5. LOL

Settled some stuffs about room and we went under the tree to wait for lunch.

The guys. While waiting for lunch.

Lunch!

After lunch we went back to our room and prepare to go for our first session of snokerling. Eve was having her G12 with her at that time, so yea. It was fun though, wearing the life jacket and goggle and swim around. There was one time I was enjoying watching clown fishes and I didn't notice that I was actually quite far from the boat that bring us here. Then after I got bored with those fishes I decided to swim back. Swim swim swim, then what the heck, why am I still at the same position?! I used up all my energy and I only moved a little bit. I started to panic, use whatever style to try swim but still cannot. Luckily one of the people in-charge saved me, and told me it was the current in the sea thats why how hard to swim I still cannot reach the boat. WTF SCARE DIE ME. =.= BUT! Still worth it though, I got to see NEMO!!! Hahahahah!

Went back to the island we stay, most of us still don't wanna go back for shower. I soaked myself in the water for a while, bla bla bla, then eve said she never play volleyball before, then I said, joms, go join guys them. Then 2 of us were on each side, 5 players on a side, 4 guys 1 girl. LOL.
The game getting more fun eventually, guys them started to bet, the lose side treat the win side burger! Hahaha! In the end, no winner no loser because the sky started to rain. I ate my dinner with sands and sea water all over my body, I didn't get back to bath. LOL

The dining place.

Up: Priyanta, Jason Tee, Me.
Down: Eve, Josephine, LiAnn, Dheva and Vemala.

Jump high! Woo!

After dinner most of us have nothing to do, we walked to another side of the beach, snapped some photos, basically did nothing much.Then don't know who suggested to play Truth or Dare. And since Eve and I have nothing to do then we joined. That was the most ridiculous Truth or Dare I ever played. With so much restrictions, so much rules like no physical attachment with the opposite sex, there will be exemption for those who kena Dare-ed, bla bla bla. LOL. I can't really say I enjoyed the whole thing because it was a scholar's Truth or Dare, I don't know most of the things they said like their affairs, things happened between specific people or whatever. The whole game I just got 2 times to tell the Truth, meh, better than nothing. After the Truth or Dare session group ended, Eve and I and other guys had a little sharing session about some boys and girls stuffs. About 2AM like that Eve and I went to bed. We decided to wake up on 5am to see sunrise but both of us overslept =.= Almost missed breakfast too. LOL.

Our second session of snokerling is at noon, so after breakfast we people start looking for stuff to do again. Kites, cover sand on people, volleyball, snap photos bla bla blaaaa.

OMG! PENYU!!!

The kite gang.

The chillin' gang.

The volleyball gang.

Then time is almost there, we prepared to suit up!

Hahahaha, this is so cute!

They put us on an island and we gonna have our lunch there. A so-called picnic style lunch, simply eat without a table. And most importantly, the main dish is CURRY. wtf. I literally swallowed everything and almost puke T_T

After the lunch everyone went to the beach and play. Basically just boring, nothing to do, swimmed like 1 hour then only the boat came to pick us to go for snokerling.

Snokerling today was just okay. So I decided to do something to entertain myself. I jump off the boat instead of using the staircase. LOL.

First attempt.

Second attempt.

I hurt my right foot after the second jump, the sea is too shallow, my legs hit the coral when I jumped into the sea, luckily no serious injuries,just small scratch.

Then night time after dinner, scholars had a small sharing session, share their feelings, experiences they had in INTI, also some last words for their friend bla bla things, so we non-scholars were their audience and photograhphers.

After that, most of them went back to sleep already, just left few of us, me, eve, yoongshen, Priyanta, ChanKit, Yeauhoong, Nelson and other guys sit on the beach and drink some beer and play some games. The whole process I think only can use a word-funny to describe. Some people are just so cute, kept on do mistakes when games were going on, is the alcohol effect or what? :P

We girls left earlier, we went back to sleep, until the next morning.

In short, I had fun in Pulau Perhentian with these people, although didn't manage to know and talk to some of them, because is quite a big group, yet, I still feel grafeful that I am invited, and have the chance to visit this beautiful island that I always heard from others. All the best in USA you people, hope we can see each other again, perhaps on the sides of Niagara (inside joke).

So, I shall end this post with this photo.

BYE BYE EXAM AND HELLO HOLIDAY!

2011-05-10T14:09:00.006+08:00

OMFG! FINALLY, FINALLY I FINISHED WITH ALL THE PAPERS! IS SUCH A TORTURE!!!
And now, is time to PLAY!!!!

So, I have 2 trips to go, 9 books to read, countless of movies to watch, few months of work (?), not-sure-how-many outing sessions! HOHOHO! Damn, I am so happy!

Study, study and study is slowly turning me into madness. And I usually take sampat photos when I am bored. One of the examples of my sampatness:

MAD!

So, I gonna enjoy my break kao kao, and at the same time pray kao kao for the offer letter to come! :D

HELLO FOOD! HELLO BOOKS! HELLO MOVIES! HELLO BEACH! HELLO GUANGZHOU! Woohoo!

Okayy, should talk a lil bit about paper today. It was okay, just that I forgot what is Just War Theory, crap along the way O.O and also the phenomenal world and noumenal world, GG, forgot the meaning of them, but still able to crap la, hahaha. And for the essay part I write until very song, the question, does God exist? I answered with no, with the theory of atheism and existentialist, wheeee~ Had fun writing it though, just a perfect question for an atheist like me! :P

Lalalalala, is this my last post for INTI?
Nope, 13th will be the last! :)

Tonight, PERHENTIAN ISLAND!

Buddha Day, Tzu Chi Day and Mother's Day

2011-05-09T13:08:00.003+08:00

大地和风

诚心祈三愿

Lazy to write about this YET, I will write it when I feel like to. *hopefully*
Still waiting for my friend to upload the remaining photos.

Hot! Introduction of 5 Five's!

2011-05-06T17:24:00.004+08:00

After 20 hours of sleep, I feel so energized!

Especially after the torturing and tiring incident yesterday. What happened was, I forgot to press some button of the washing machine then I went out straight away. I expect my cloths are ready to be hang when I finished my papers at 1pm, but when I came back, the washing machine does not move, since I left the house. WTF. Have to start everything and wait for 33minutes, and I have a bus to catch on 2.15pm. Mum does not want to wait until 6.15pm if I take the second bus because Subang would be effing jam at that time. So, everything is done I took public bus to KTM, Nilai and took KTM back to Klang.

The whole journey approximately took me about 3 hours plus. 1.5 hours from Nilai to KL Sentral and my pose of sitting remained for 1.5 hours, can barely move with so much things on me. At the same time I listening to songs that I have on my phone, 20 songs only, haha. Have nothing but this to kill boredom, meanwhile I was spamming my twitter timeline with rants about KTM. Haha.

Reached KL Sentral, stood for 25mins for the train to reach. Stood in the train for about 35mins because inside there was so packed and no seats at all. Oh btw, I took the ladies coach for both trains, simply comfortable than the ordinary one. The long time standing made my left shoulder very pain with my laptop bag hanging on it. Urgh, that feeling sucks. My shoulder still pain now.

After touched down Klang station, I needa wait for my mum to pick me up. And I ended up waited her for 30mins, and I was standing for the friggin 30mins. WTH. Because of she texted me "on the way" so I doesn't plan to sit down and wait. Who knowsssss. ARGH. After she picked me up, didnt straight away go back home though, instead go to Klang Parade to settle her phone. Reached home on 8.30pm? Grr. Skipped dinner straight away head to bed!

I woke up on 11pm something, couldn't sleep fall into sleep though. Was thinking lots of stuff. CHAPALANG=simply whatever were spinning in my head. ARGH! What the hell is this, I was lack of sleep but insomia? GOSH!

HAHA, the outcome for yesterday's insomia is quite awesome. I came up with something like a project. Will run it after I've done with my paper, and I decided to call it "5 Five's". Is a project need of collaboration of Facebook and Blogger, and of course you people! :) Wanna know what's it about? STAY TUNED! Woohoo! So proud of myself. LOL.

TODAY IS SUCHA HOT DAY!
PEACE OUT! ^^V

and Imma watch THOR tonight!
TONIGHT!

3 down, 1 more to go!

2011-05-05T13:42:00.004+08:00

YOYOYOYO! Finally, finished the 2 subjects I feared the most! Chemistry and Microeconomics!
Stress straight away reduced 80%! WOOHOO! WOOHOO!!!

Last paper on next Tuesday, the 10th of May, philosophy!
Imma love you kao kao for these 5 days my philo text book! ;)

Happy la happy laaaaa.
Hopefully midnight oil burnt yesterday will pay off la.

Both papers today kinda smooth though. Didn't face any stucks.
Okay, for Chemistry paper yes, spent quite some time to recall, just couldn't recall functional group for ester, ketone, and others, hopefully I tembak-ed accurately. And also oxidation and reduction. TMD. I confused once again although I already memorized last night. Whuaaa. Dont care already la.
And for Microecon, OMG NO TIME CAN STUCK AT ALL. Keep on write, write, write, write. My hand writing gets messier till the end of the answer sheet.
Write non-stop though, although I spend more time on Section B Question 1, pfft, wasted a lot of time on that. And OPPS, I FORGOT TO INCLUDE REAL LIFE EXAMPLES LAH! NONE! FML!

HAHAHAHAHA
don't care already la, not necessary to cry over spilt milk! HOHO.
PHILOSOPHY, HERE ME COME!

Oh btw, and I am going back Klang later :P
Tzu Chi have Buddha Bathing ceremony this Sunday at Kompleks Sukan Pandamaran, 6.30pm starts yo!
PLEASE COME, and you will see me there! :D

Tauhu Bakar! Not bad eh!!

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